In Limbo land

[Sejd]

right now, I feel like I am in Limbo land. All my life, I have struggled with the issues of not fitting in with the other boys, and being a boy, not fitting in with the girls. I never knew a trans sesxual person growing up, and so never knew that it would be an option for me. I cross dressed in secret, first with my sisters clothes and later with my moms wardrobe. When I began dating girls, I understood that there was a problem. I just didn't fit into the "Male" mode and had no idea how to approach the girls because I was the one who wanted to be taken. Whenever I was in company of gay men, I always felt vulnerable like a woman, but I could not figure it out, because I was never attracted to men in general. Now that I have come out as a transsexual, I feel again, in a way stuck in the same old situation. I am not a guy who can ever fit into the comfort of the "Man" role, and I am not really a woman, although I dress like one. When I went to the dentist today, I even put on lipstick just to feel comfortable. I feel somewhat discouraged, being left in Limbo-land. My SO is very supportive and loves me as Sejd, but the rest of the world, including my children are freaked out if I put on a skirt. I'm having a bad day for sure!
:-(
Sejd

[deeasheville]

right now, I feel like I am in Limbo land. All my life, I have struggled with the issues of not fitting in with the other boys, and being a boy, not fitting in with the girls.
My brothers did not want me around them and there were not that many other boys to play with, although I did not mind playing with the girls.:heehee:

I never knew a transexual person growing up, and so never knew that it would be an option for me. I wanted to be a girl before I knew it was possible to change.

I cross dressed in secret, first with my sisters clothes and later with my moms wardrobe. My brothers had to wear hand-me-downs and they kidded me that I would have to wear my sisters hand-me-downs, as she was clossest to my age, 3 years older (I am the youngest of 6)

When I began dating girls, I understood that there was a problem. I just didn't fit into the "Male" mode and had no idea how to approach the girls because I was the one who wanted to be taken. Whenever I was in company of gay men, I always felt vulnerable like a woman, but I could not figure it out, because I was never attracted to men in general. Now that I have come out as a transsexual, I feel again, in a way stuck in the same old situation. I am not a guy who can ever fit into the comfort of the "Man" role, and I am not really a woman, although I dress like one.I did almost everything the other men did, but I was unable to make any close friends in the army.
When I went to the dentist today, I even put on lipstick just to feel comfortable. I feel somewhat discouraged, being left in Limbo-land. My SO is very supportive and loves me as Sejd, but the rest of the world, including my children are freaked out if I put on a skirt. I'm having a bad day for sure!
:-(
Sejd

[Marcie Sexton]

For years I dealt with the same problem...Now I have finally found a comfortable situation with myself. My S/O isn't 100% for this, but she tolerates me...You have if I read your post correctly have made the decision to take the next step forward...Good for you...:happy: That is the first and biggest step to take...Perhaps professional help would be of help, I know it help reslove some issues for me...only after a couple sessions...:happy:
The only issue I haven't settled for myself is the BIG step you've, I assume have taken...
Hang in there, it always gets darkest, just before dawn, and with dawn so comes the light of a new and better day...:bighug:

Good Luck and God Bless:thumbsup:

[Calliope]

[...] but the rest of the world, including my children are freaked out if I put on a skirt.

That's only because the rest of the world is freaked out to begin with. All 'minorities' have to push for their rights and some respect. Things are changing. I'm 'fighting' for ya and lots of your other sisters are, as well. We will make it a better world, for ourselves and those to think they oppose us. Hang in there, baby!

[great gg]

sorry you're having a hard time. know that you are loved by those who count. and the kids will someday not be freaked out. besides, there ar e a lot of us who think you are cute! hugs,

[Maggie Kay]

It seems to me that "limbo land" is like a purgatory for me. Can't go forward, can't go back. Stuck on a revolving wheel cycling between "I can do this" and "How can I take one more day?" The joys of exploring things feminine on one side are contrasted with the anguish of societal pressure. This issue is really the penultimate mind bender.... I hope yours turns around to better times. Clearly some have broken out and they are let us know that it can be survived. I am thankful for them and wait.

Kay

[GypsyKaren]

Hi Sejd

Sorry you're having a bad day, that's something we can all relate to. Try focusing on the good instead of the bad, you have a loving and supportive wife, that's a lot more than many others have. Hopefully in time others will accept you, but your self acceptance and that of your wife is most of the battle. The rest just takes time, people will eventually start to see that you're still the same person inside. Anyway, try to cheer up, and we're always here for you.

Karen

[Sejd]

Thanks to all for your support, specially off course my Great GG! who hangs in there with me through it all.
huggs to all
Sejd

[CaptLex]

Now that I have come out as a transsexual, I feel again, in a way stuck in the same old situation. I am not a guy who can ever fit into the comfort of the "Man" role, and I am not really a woman, although I dress like one.
Man, if I had a dollar for every bad day . . .

You don't mention if you're in therapy. Are you? If not, would you consider it? If so, do you feel it's helping at all?