tall_brianna
12-01-2006, 06:38 AM
...with a passion! What a weird week it's been for me. Went for four days, 100% boy only. Then contemplating putting it all away, then back, and then away again.
Long story, told as short as possible. I went to spend turkey day with a friend who doesn't know about this side of me. On the way there I met a great GG, a truly wonderful mammal :) Smart, a little geeky, bella figura, bennissima. We talked the whole flight and met up again there. I flew back thinking maybe, for her, I could give all this up (yeah, I know, I know, but still...). Called her, two days no callback, feeling kinda bleh and wondering what ever made her choose the seat next to me (it wasn't an assigned seat airline). And then she called!
She called around noon today, when I was already resigned to going out tonight. I also had a therapy appointment today after she called. Wow, I almost pulled back and didn't go out tonight for whatever reason, mostly because I know odds are she will not accept me as Brianna even though I've made no overtly masculine pretenses in our interactions. But the good doc was right, don't change anything until your sure you want to commit to this person. Great advice. Well worth the $100. :) I might just have to keep it out of her sight a little until such time though. So, f*ck it, I went out tonight! Met a bunch of local girls at a TG friendly bar and danced... so much fun. I think I was dressed a little more appropriately this time :) What do you think? Keep in mind it's 3am and I probably sweat away half my makeup. :rolleyes: Not really a good photo opportunity.
To you girls that are not going out yet, this is only my second time but the fear and anxiety faded so much faster this time. It only seems to get easier. And, one more thing, don't worry so much about passing. If you go to the friendly place, there will be plenty of others who look more like a guy in a dress than you do. Get out there!
-b
Long story, told as short as possible. I went to spend turkey day with a friend who doesn't know about this side of me. On the way there I met a great GG, a truly wonderful mammal :) Smart, a little geeky, bella figura, bennissima. We talked the whole flight and met up again there. I flew back thinking maybe, for her, I could give all this up (yeah, I know, I know, but still...). Called her, two days no callback, feeling kinda bleh and wondering what ever made her choose the seat next to me (it wasn't an assigned seat airline). And then she called!
She called around noon today, when I was already resigned to going out tonight. I also had a therapy appointment today after she called. Wow, I almost pulled back and didn't go out tonight for whatever reason, mostly because I know odds are she will not accept me as Brianna even though I've made no overtly masculine pretenses in our interactions. But the good doc was right, don't change anything until your sure you want to commit to this person. Great advice. Well worth the $100. :) I might just have to keep it out of her sight a little until such time though. So, f*ck it, I went out tonight! Met a bunch of local girls at a TG friendly bar and danced... so much fun. I think I was dressed a little more appropriately this time :) What do you think? Keep in mind it's 3am and I probably sweat away half my makeup. :rolleyes: Not really a good photo opportunity.
To you girls that are not going out yet, this is only my second time but the fear and anxiety faded so much faster this time. It only seems to get easier. And, one more thing, don't worry so much about passing. If you go to the friendly place, there will be plenty of others who look more like a guy in a dress than you do. Get out there!
-b