Jaydee
12-04-2006, 02:05 PM
I wanted to give a big kiss to all of my “sisters”, both CD and GG, (and I don’t care what whats-his-name says, I think of it as a term of endearment). I first found this website by accident about a year ago. I lurked around for several months before jumping in and joining. This being the holiday season, and a time for reflection, I have been thinking about the effect this community has had on my life in just a year. I hope you will allow me to share it with you, even if it might be a little long.
Most profoundly, I have better come to accept myself. I used to think I was the only one out there with these feelings. No matter how hard I tried or times I purged, I couldn’t make my CDing urges go away. I now know that I am not the only one, and I feel better about myself, because of it.
My CDing was a very closely guarded secret for 40 years and through 30 years of marriage. Because of your support and advice, I have started to crack open the door to my closet. I am not out yet but a pantyhosed toe is sticking out of the door. I am now on the road to coming out to my wife. How it will go, or how long it will take, I don’t know, but I plan on taking it slow and see what happens. I could not have imagined that a year ago.
I am even more accepting of the entire transgendered community than I was previously, not that I was unaccepting before. With acceptance of myself has come better acceptance of others. This is a very good thing.
On the downside, I now shop more openly and frequently, spending more money than I should. In the last year I have brazenly tried on clothes in changing rooms while in drab. It was exciting and fun. My stash has gown, and I am having a harder time storing it.
There are probably more changes that I have not even realized yet. I just wanted to thank everyone for your support and advice. I enjoy coming here to catch up with my new friends. We are a whole community of “sisters”:bighug:
Jaydee
Most profoundly, I have better come to accept myself. I used to think I was the only one out there with these feelings. No matter how hard I tried or times I purged, I couldn’t make my CDing urges go away. I now know that I am not the only one, and I feel better about myself, because of it.
My CDing was a very closely guarded secret for 40 years and through 30 years of marriage. Because of your support and advice, I have started to crack open the door to my closet. I am not out yet but a pantyhosed toe is sticking out of the door. I am now on the road to coming out to my wife. How it will go, or how long it will take, I don’t know, but I plan on taking it slow and see what happens. I could not have imagined that a year ago.
I am even more accepting of the entire transgendered community than I was previously, not that I was unaccepting before. With acceptance of myself has come better acceptance of others. This is a very good thing.
On the downside, I now shop more openly and frequently, spending more money than I should. In the last year I have brazenly tried on clothes in changing rooms while in drab. It was exciting and fun. My stash has gown, and I am having a harder time storing it.
There are probably more changes that I have not even realized yet. I just wanted to thank everyone for your support and advice. I enjoy coming here to catch up with my new friends. We are a whole community of “sisters”:bighug:
Jaydee