Still struggling!

[jamie_44]

Hi everyone, just a quick note to update on my situation. I tried to stop taking the H's for about 5 weeks. That was rough because I did it cold turkey, there were a lot of nights with all night crying. I was trying to stop the female urges for my marriage. I never stopped shaving my legs and am smooth all over. I am repulsed by the thought of arm or leg hair. I started the H's again about 6 weeks ago. I can't seem to control myself! My wife is not mad at me because she knows it is something I can not help and understands just how difficult the situation is for me. I feel that I can not continue this struggle forever. I am in really good physical shape and if I transition, now is the time to do it before I get to old. Life is very challenging right now.
P.S.
I hope everyone had a good Christmas.

[Annaliese]

Hi everyone, just a quick note to update on my situation. I tried to stop taking the H's for about 5 weeks. That was rough because I did it cold turkey, there were a lot of nights with all night crying. I was trying to stop the female urges for my marriage. I never stopped shaving my legs and am smooth all over. I am repulsed by the thought of arm or leg hair. I started the H's again about 6 weeks ago. I can't seem to control myself! My wife is not mad at me because she knows it is something I can not help and understands just how difficult the situation is for me. I feel that I can not continue this struggle forever. I am in really good physical shape and if I transition, now is the time to do it before I get to old. Life is very challenging right now.
P.S.
I hope everyone had a good Christmas.

You are lucky to have a supportive wife just hang in there.

[melissaK]

I just went and reread your old thread http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?p=610917#post610917 I have a wife who is perhaps not too dissimilar to yours, so Girl, BIG HUGS.

I have done the hormone pinball game too. On off on off. Gosh, for me they sure seem to help, and off hasn't been sustainable - even with weaning off vs cold turkey. I am sustaining on a very very light dosage at present . . . augmented by a lot of time on these boards lately.

As always, for anyone dealing with late onset TS issues, its a time of great personal flux where so much is at stake, and thus if you have a counsellor, its good to keep the appointments.

Oh yeah, Had a great Christmas! (gave myself a gift of new womens jeans and tossed a pair of guy jeans - small steps, steady steps)

[GypsyKaren]

You hang in there Jamie, I hope it gets better for you real soon.

Karen

[Calliope]

Yes, sounds like a whirlwind for both of you. I'm about to separate from my SO, so obviously I have no advice to offer - but I'm wishing you well in your search for yourself.

[AmberTG]

Day Tripper, I think I'm headed down that same road, again. It doesn't look salvageable at this point.

Jamie_44, that on again-off again thing is a real roller coaster ride, that will mess with your head. You should try staying on a light dose, maybe not enough to push the transition, but enough to calm your thought patterns. Sometimes, that's all a person needs to get their head together. Once you get to that place, you will be better able to make the right decision about continuing the transition or staying where you are with the help of a light dose. Like MelissaK said, that may be enough to take the stress out of it for now.