Katiegirl
12-29-2006, 09:19 AM
It does not seem possible that I restarted my cross dressing only 2 years ago, after many years, but this year I have finally coming to terms with the fact I am a TS. For the whole of my like I felt different from other men in the way I act and felt, but the outside world didn't notice as I did what society expects men to do.
This year has been different I can no longer hold back how I really feel, this feeling is so powerful it has taken me over, but stupidly I have been trying to fight it and with the result it have been depressed for most of this year in varying degrees. In November I found a Tg/TS councellor to talk things over with her, these sessions have helped a lot and I came to realised how much emotion I had within me, I found that I was crying off and on during most of our sessions.
In the last session I asked her if she thought I was TS (She likes the term 3rd Sex) in reply she said
Do I want to live as a woman - I said I did
I much time to I live as a woman - I said nearly all the time.
Do I go out much apart from meeting other TG's - I said very little
She then said I would be termed a classic TS starting transition. She went on to say that when TS start transition they withdraw from friends and the outside world to avoid being hurt if they are rejected then they start living their lives as a woman and very often start hormonies.
I have shorten what was actually said, but she was telling me essentually you are transitioning, how far do you want go.
I have come out to 1 relation who had guessed already and was fine about it, and a close friend who just said that explains a lot as she had always thought me more as a girl friend and was fine also.
In 2007 I have to decide what I should do, how do I tell my kids, friends and the rest of the family and what about work? More to the point can I stop where I am now. These are questions that have to be answered.
:straightface:
This year has been different I can no longer hold back how I really feel, this feeling is so powerful it has taken me over, but stupidly I have been trying to fight it and with the result it have been depressed for most of this year in varying degrees. In November I found a Tg/TS councellor to talk things over with her, these sessions have helped a lot and I came to realised how much emotion I had within me, I found that I was crying off and on during most of our sessions.
In the last session I asked her if she thought I was TS (She likes the term 3rd Sex) in reply she said
Do I want to live as a woman - I said I did
I much time to I live as a woman - I said nearly all the time.
Do I go out much apart from meeting other TG's - I said very little
She then said I would be termed a classic TS starting transition. She went on to say that when TS start transition they withdraw from friends and the outside world to avoid being hurt if they are rejected then they start living their lives as a woman and very often start hormonies.
I have shorten what was actually said, but she was telling me essentually you are transitioning, how far do you want go.
I have come out to 1 relation who had guessed already and was fine about it, and a close friend who just said that explains a lot as she had always thought me more as a girl friend and was fine also.
In 2007 I have to decide what I should do, how do I tell my kids, friends and the rest of the family and what about work? More to the point can I stop where I am now. These are questions that have to be answered.
:straightface: