Just want TO BE!

[Marissa Mae]

Hey everyone, just wanted to share some thoughts here :happy:

I am really ahppy to have found this site and all the wonderful people on here. Everyone's support, tips and tales have helped me out more than I could ever know these past few months :love: Without the help and guidance, I think things would still be in the secretive, closet stage, my girlfriend wouldn't know, and I would be very frustrated in my life!

I think that I have become nearly completely comfortable with myself and dressing, and all that remains is to become more comfortable around the people who know, ie. girlfriend haha. She is in the know, and right now I am struggling to hold back the urge to dress more and more, as she is not 100% comfortable as yet. If I had the choice and she didn't mind, I would dress all the time! I have been wearing shoes around her more often, much to her chagrin, but last night I was like "ok, I am wearing them, so what... hear how they sound on the hard wood floor?!" I am sort of sick of feeling restrained I guess, and just want to BE!

Lately I have been becoming more and more bold, often wearing shoes around the house when no one is home, walking to my car in heels etc, thinking "if someone catches me, WHO CARES! It would be a welcome change to all this sneaking around!" Last night after I got my gf's house, I showed her the boots and said "see, they are not so bad, no one would notice in a crowd" and she said "well if no one would notice, wear them to work tomorrow!" :heehee: I so would, but you just can't!

I like being a guy, but I love the shoes and panties. I am surprised about this, but I would be more than happy just wearing bra, panties and boots under any of my regular male clothing. Consider it a compromise! A skirt would be nice, but if all I were allowed was what I said above, then I would take that. My goal then, is to be able to wear these around without having my Gf say anything and be natural with it. The End!


Anyways, just a rambling from me! Thanks for reading!

[Byllie]

That is THE question, for sure. A word of caution. It's one thing to want to be who you truly are, but no one that I know lives in a world unto themself (unless of course we're discussing hermits). That said, we need to be aware of what others feel, and strike a compromise with our own feelings. It is a grand balancing act, but one when mastered can lead to bliss.

[Marla S]

I like being a guy, but I love the shoes and panties. I am surprised about this, but I would be more than happy just wearing bra, panties and boots under any of my regular male clothing. Consider it a compromise! A skirt would be nice, but if all I were allowed was what I said above, then I would take that. My goal then, is to be able to wear these around without having my Gf say anything and be natural with it. The End!

We all have to make compromises, CD or not.
Your compromise seems to be a realizable one. Just give yourself and your SO a bit time. Slowly slip in, and it could work out.

[Marissa Mae]

I think more in general I am feeling confidant, and that I can do what I want (in terms of dressing) and not care what others think (SO is another story, I am very respectful of her wants and needs). It's like.. I can wear out a pair of shoes and not care if anyone sees, you know?! Its a wonderful feeling!

[Marla S]

I can wear out a pair of shoes and not care if anyone sees, you know?! Its a wonderful feeling!
I know, and yes it is :happy:

[bredalee25]

I can so relate to what you're saying here. I too have an accepting live in GF who is still quite new to all of this. I started dressing more and more just after she accepted it and little did i know that it was to much to soon. So i've cut back for now til she can get more informed and better at seeing me fully dressed. I do wear my nightie to bed every night that doesn't bother her it's the dressing from head to toe for long periods of time that freaks her out. All is good she is getting alot of support from the gg's on here and the others cd's as well.


:love:
ttfn

[paulaN]

I know exactly how you feel. It's real hard not to tip those scales too far in one direction of the other. It's good to hear that you are comfy with your self. That was the hardest thing for me to overcome.