KimB
02-19-2007, 01:47 PM
The thing that immediately comes to me when I am "en femme" is the overall feeling of "well being". It's not something that is very easy to explain. It's is both physical and emotional at the same time.
Physically, of course, there are all sensations that go along with soft, silky clothing next to the body. This is amplified when I dress after having just shaved my legs, arms, body, etc. It sometimes feels like being caressed, or even lightly massaged. The feeling of having a cool breeze beneath my skirt or dress is tantalizing to say the least. These physical sensations are almost impossible to feel while wearing men's clothing. They just aren't made from materials or to fit the body in a way that can produce the same tactile response as woman's clothing does. With a bra and breast forms in place, the center of gravity of the body shifts, and wearing some shoes especially high heels makes it necessary to redifine the way I walk. While wearing earings I love the little tug and feel of something dangling from them. I am going bald so wearing a wig has become necessary. I love the feeling of hair gently caressing my neck and shoulders. It tickles, in a nice way. A hint of purfume adds to the overall "siftness" that I feel. I love the feel of garters and stockings, (that little tug that lets you know they are there as you walk).
On the emotional side of things, I find that transforming into Kim makes me high. I wish I had a better way to explain it, but that's about as close as I can come to anything that can actually explain my feelings. I just feel "GOOD"!
Aches and pains, stress and worry seem just to melt away and what's left is just a feeling of well being. I feel happy and energized. If I stay home. I will just do simple things like read and answer e-mails, pick up around the house or read a book. If I go out, I get this nervous kind of excitement thing happening so I go shopping, to restaurants, walk thru the malls or go to a movie, this all gives me a feeling of freedom. I do not have a better word for it. There is also this "naughtiness" about the whole thing. It's kind of like I'm out there looking and acting as a woman, but I know underneath all the cloths and makeup, I'm really a guy. It's like when you were a kid and you were playing "make believe". It's just plain fun. It can be a little unnerving at times, especially if I get read, but as long as nobody bothers me about it, that's okay.
The whole process of getting dressed, putting on jewelry, doing my hair and makeup and catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror afterwards is something that always brings joy to me. It's a feeling of getting in touch with something that's important and special to me.
Sexually speaking, it is not as much a "turn on" as when I was younger and in the "closet". I suppose over time, the fetish part of it has worn off, but I'd still love to bring it into my bedroom sometimes. I find the feel of silk against silk and skin very arousing.
I have no illusions about who I am or what sex I want to be. I'm a guy and always will be. I have no need or want to ever change my sex. But it sure feels nice being like a girl. It has been a part of me for over 35 years and I suspect it will always be a big part of my life.
I love being the girl I need to be.......
Kim
Physically, of course, there are all sensations that go along with soft, silky clothing next to the body. This is amplified when I dress after having just shaved my legs, arms, body, etc. It sometimes feels like being caressed, or even lightly massaged. The feeling of having a cool breeze beneath my skirt or dress is tantalizing to say the least. These physical sensations are almost impossible to feel while wearing men's clothing. They just aren't made from materials or to fit the body in a way that can produce the same tactile response as woman's clothing does. With a bra and breast forms in place, the center of gravity of the body shifts, and wearing some shoes especially high heels makes it necessary to redifine the way I walk. While wearing earings I love the little tug and feel of something dangling from them. I am going bald so wearing a wig has become necessary. I love the feeling of hair gently caressing my neck and shoulders. It tickles, in a nice way. A hint of purfume adds to the overall "siftness" that I feel. I love the feel of garters and stockings, (that little tug that lets you know they are there as you walk).
On the emotional side of things, I find that transforming into Kim makes me high. I wish I had a better way to explain it, but that's about as close as I can come to anything that can actually explain my feelings. I just feel "GOOD"!
Aches and pains, stress and worry seem just to melt away and what's left is just a feeling of well being. I feel happy and energized. If I stay home. I will just do simple things like read and answer e-mails, pick up around the house or read a book. If I go out, I get this nervous kind of excitement thing happening so I go shopping, to restaurants, walk thru the malls or go to a movie, this all gives me a feeling of freedom. I do not have a better word for it. There is also this "naughtiness" about the whole thing. It's kind of like I'm out there looking and acting as a woman, but I know underneath all the cloths and makeup, I'm really a guy. It's like when you were a kid and you were playing "make believe". It's just plain fun. It can be a little unnerving at times, especially if I get read, but as long as nobody bothers me about it, that's okay.
The whole process of getting dressed, putting on jewelry, doing my hair and makeup and catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror afterwards is something that always brings joy to me. It's a feeling of getting in touch with something that's important and special to me.
Sexually speaking, it is not as much a "turn on" as when I was younger and in the "closet". I suppose over time, the fetish part of it has worn off, but I'd still love to bring it into my bedroom sometimes. I find the feel of silk against silk and skin very arousing.
I have no illusions about who I am or what sex I want to be. I'm a guy and always will be. I have no need or want to ever change my sex. But it sure feels nice being like a girl. It has been a part of me for over 35 years and I suspect it will always be a big part of my life.
I love being the girl I need to be.......
Kim