Life changes

[Katie Ashe]

I was approved to go on HRT by therapist. My first Endo appt is 3-20-07. Several other of my doctors are happy to hear this, and support this move, as it will help balance me as a whole person. I have been looking forward to this for years, and have no regrets or second thoughts. But, why does guilt alway have to ruining things. My wife and I are together on this choice. I have giving up most of my life to be "myself". Being true to yourself is the hardest thing I'd ever have done. I ended my military career, lost most family and friends. The guilty thing is, if I this HRT the remaing family that does talk to us will pull away more, if not all together. Only to hurt my family more :( . At what cost is your life your own? When do you say the heck with it? Why can't people just love and live?

I have been told in the past I don't give enough info, so here is my short summary. I have being GID since 4 years old. Lived in the closet all my life. I married my HS sweetheart in 1994. Military from 1990-2000. came out of the closet in 2004, living and working 100% as Katie not Bryan since 2005. Have not change legal name yet, on the list of things to due. Am in middle of Laser hair removal for face, looking to SRS sometime before I die. Yes, I am still on my first marrage and happy. 2 kids 11 & 10. Future plans: Dawn and I have no plans of seperating, We are talking of renewing vows, me in a gown this time and her in the suit:love:

[Marcie Sexton]

I don't know what branch of service you were in, but on the island, they told us to be our own man...and so I have...hasn't been a smooth road, but now things are starting to work out for me and my wife...

Why live life if you're not happy...Enjoy life, if you have the support of your wife/S.O. I vote go for it...

You have went one step further than I have dared to ask about...GOOD FOR YOU...

[ClaireJ]

Congratulations & Good luck. I am glad you won't be doing this alone.

[Sharon]

Very cool, Katie Ashe, and I wish all the best for you. :happy:

[Katie Ashe]

:battingeyelashes: Thanks ! I was an AFJROTC Grad, 3 years. 2 tours in Active USAF. 2E1X3 to be exact. I never saw combat, as a Ground Rat, state side I was lucky yet very miss treated. I am Very thankful that Dawn and I are still together, Times are very hard right now, I'm just looking for a small LED at the end of my tunnel :evilbegon . This is a big step, for the better, for me, at the cost of my life and family. :Angry3: why do the right choices always need be the toughest? Thanks for your support, my journey has only begun.

[Danni Bear]

Good Luck To You Katie Hope You Have The Very Best

Love
Danni

[loriannetucson]

Sounds like you're on the right path. God's blessings to you as you continue marching along in your journey. My wife and I are working desperately to make our marriage last. We've been married for almost 13 years now, and we were high school sweethearts. I think perhaps the most difficult thing for me is to have to make my wife go through this more than anything. I love my family, and I told my mom about Lori Anne last week and she was totally accepting. I'm grateful for that, but if my wife isn't behind me, anything else is irrelevant. I am being true to myself, but being married means we need to walk this path together, and I'm finding out that her pace is a little slower than mine in this transition. Hey, at least she's allowing me to begin HRT, that's gotta count for something!

Because of my feelings for my wife, I'm most happy that you two are together in this. It seems that too many wives can't stand this and immediately leave their SO. I'm sure you consider yourself blessed.

Blessings,
Lori Anne

[Trisha]

i too wiss to say good luck to you and yours

[Katie Ashe]

Lori Anne Walk slower with your wife, mine did not accept right away, she though I was cheating, has left me 2 times since we married, not due to dressing. She left cause I couldn't tell her the truth, I was the other women. We did years of counciling and therapy, we talk more now and no more secrets, over the last 4 years, we have grown closer together. This HRT is not a big leap, just a planned little one. Over the past 2 years Dawn has been learning our way of life and is shocked to find a competely hidin' abused society of CD'rs. Her willingness to learn is what is making this work for us. Reading Helen Boyd's books has helped me 1000 times over find whom I am, what I didn't understand, and realized I knew nothing about Gender or Sex. I have learned, divorces are 90% not about CD'ing, but about they challenges someone elses beliefs, people rather walk away and use it as an excuse, then try to understand. I am happy for all of you whom still have your SO, and my heart goes out to the ones whom don't.

[loriannetucson]

Katie,
My wife does need for me to take her steps, not mine. It's extremely difficult for me to do this, but if it will ultimately keep our marriage intact, it's gonna be worth it. The fact that she's allowed the HRT is a big step in and of itself.

What a road we're on, huh?
Lori Anne

[Katie Ashe]

:balloons: Well the monent is here... I got my RX's today... I'm now starting HRT officially :meditate: a long time over due.

[ChristineRenee]

Congrats Katie...and best of luck to you! :happy:

[Sally24]

Katie, you can choose your friends but not your family. If you are living a moral life, and as far as your description goes I think you are, then they should support you. If they don't, it is no fault of yours. Think of it in terms of gay or lesbian family. Most people don't think it is reasonable to shun a family member for coming out as gay. If they shun you for being TG or TS, that is their loss. Unfortunetly it is hard on you and your nuclear family. If I was TS instead of CD/TG I think I would do what you're doing. You have to be yourself. It is great that your wife has gone this far with you. Here's hoping that she can continue with you on your journey.

Good luck Sister!

Sally

[claireswife-gg]

I am very happily married to a mtf in transition. When we told my mother, her response was that parents aren't around forever, and honestly, if they leave over this, then they weren't worth the blood they were related by. She needs to be happy and live life, and not worry about what relatives think. The good ones will stick by you.

Sage advice :)

[Katie Ashe]

Thank you for your support. Actually, 2 weeks ago, I have my grandmother over for a nice thanksgiving dinner. I did bring me changing up. My blood family troubles are:

1 Some don't understand, nor want to
2 Some see me as being selfish, uncareing for my wife and kids
3 Some are concerned for all of wellbeing and saftey
4 Some would rather me be gay, or something else. Like what?
5 If been told by more then one person
A Just keep pretending to be Bryan, for job sake
B Why can't you do CD on your own time
B1 We have examined a time to CDress, by their guidelines
The answer we concluded to is: NONE, every time :bonk:

Dispite everything wrong in my life, I started HRT this week. And U Know what, for the first time in my life, I'm doing something for myself. I'm through doing what is expected of me, this is my life people :p I'm gonna be happy on my terms not theirs. If the want to still talk to me than great, if not I have more pressing matters. That's my stroy and I'm sticking to it :thumbup:

[Siobhan Marie]

Katie, I'm sorry that I haven't replied before. I just wanted to say that this isn't an easy thing that we do and people don't understand. They won't. They should walk a mile in our shoes. Life isn't easy for any of us, it really isn't. You're so fortunate that you have someone that will stick by you and love you for you are.

huge :hugs: and *cuddles*

Anna Marie x