jsoto81
03-22-2007, 12:25 AM
This evening I went to you my first therapist session, it was with Dr. Davis Fleming, out in LA.
I wasn't sure how traffic was going to be so I left Orange County around 3:00pm, just incase the traffic was bad, much to my dismay it was perfect on the drive out so I got there at 4:00p. With 2 hours to kill I took some photos around LA.
When 6 rolled around I was ready to go. I filled out the usual paper work and then headed into the office, I was really nervous at first (to talk to a stranger about something I barely talk to my family about). He asked me things like what I do, am I in school, what my family is like, who I hang out with more (men or women), If I go to support groups or if I know any FtM (I told him about you guys) and that I chat on a forum with some really awesome people. What we talked about the most though was how long I've felt this way and how I feel specifically and where I want to end up when I'm done. We talked some about my frustration with my ex and all that. I told him how all my life I've just wanted to do the simplest things (shave, wear a suit, walk around topless, be called sir, god even start going bald).
All in all it was a really great session, I don't feel as heavy as I did before. I'm kind of standing a little taller.
And another great thing is that he's FtM as well. So I'm not just talking to someone that has no idea what's going on, he's been through something simlar.
I can't wait for my next session. Oh yeah and I cried bring up all these old feelings (and current feelings) but I think it was mostly relief to beable to talk to someone that has no stake in how this turns out.
I wasn't sure how traffic was going to be so I left Orange County around 3:00pm, just incase the traffic was bad, much to my dismay it was perfect on the drive out so I got there at 4:00p. With 2 hours to kill I took some photos around LA.
When 6 rolled around I was ready to go. I filled out the usual paper work and then headed into the office, I was really nervous at first (to talk to a stranger about something I barely talk to my family about). He asked me things like what I do, am I in school, what my family is like, who I hang out with more (men or women), If I go to support groups or if I know any FtM (I told him about you guys) and that I chat on a forum with some really awesome people. What we talked about the most though was how long I've felt this way and how I feel specifically and where I want to end up when I'm done. We talked some about my frustration with my ex and all that. I told him how all my life I've just wanted to do the simplest things (shave, wear a suit, walk around topless, be called sir, god even start going bald).
All in all it was a really great session, I don't feel as heavy as I did before. I'm kind of standing a little taller.
And another great thing is that he's FtM as well. So I'm not just talking to someone that has no idea what's going on, he's been through something simlar.
I can't wait for my next session. Oh yeah and I cried bring up all these old feelings (and current feelings) but I think it was mostly relief to beable to talk to someone that has no stake in how this turns out.