Salina
03-31-2007, 06:39 AM
Hello everyone,
I posted a thread 7 weeKs ago stating a decision had been made to give up CDing after 30+ years. It's actually been a smoother ride than I thought it would be, but, there is no overconfidence present. Purging was difficult, but if it hadn't been done this post probably would be different. Yesterday after work as I was thinking about making this post an overwhelming urge came over me to dress. Probably the strongest urge in the 7 weeks, go figure...Not having the clothes anymore certainly helped me overcome the urge. I knew going into this it wouldn't be easy and have a game plan on how to handle urges.
I had not read the replies to my posts until just before starting this thread. Thank you everyone who posted with words of encouragement and support. That really meant alot to me, and quite honestly I was surprised. So, I need to apologize for having preconceived notions about what the response would be. Please accept my apology for expecting less than supportive replies.:love:
The things I wanted to do to fill the time previously spent dressing are happening. Filling those chunks of time with other activities is crucial for me, and not having to be secretive and hiding has removed some stress as well.
I feel like I'm being a better father, husband, son, friend, and coworker to the people in my life who are most important. Part of this change in my life is spiritual, but it's not the sole reason for my decision. I know there is a religious forum I can address that aspect of my decision in. To address one of the replies, part of the reason I'm posting my journey and will continue whether I continue to not CD or go back is to let the people who may want to quit know that they're not alone and maybe it can be done.
I'll check back in in a few months to let you know how it's going. Until then, peace, happiness, and good health to all of you.
I posted a thread 7 weeKs ago stating a decision had been made to give up CDing after 30+ years. It's actually been a smoother ride than I thought it would be, but, there is no overconfidence present. Purging was difficult, but if it hadn't been done this post probably would be different. Yesterday after work as I was thinking about making this post an overwhelming urge came over me to dress. Probably the strongest urge in the 7 weeks, go figure...Not having the clothes anymore certainly helped me overcome the urge. I knew going into this it wouldn't be easy and have a game plan on how to handle urges.
I had not read the replies to my posts until just before starting this thread. Thank you everyone who posted with words of encouragement and support. That really meant alot to me, and quite honestly I was surprised. So, I need to apologize for having preconceived notions about what the response would be. Please accept my apology for expecting less than supportive replies.:love:
The things I wanted to do to fill the time previously spent dressing are happening. Filling those chunks of time with other activities is crucial for me, and not having to be secretive and hiding has removed some stress as well.
I feel like I'm being a better father, husband, son, friend, and coworker to the people in my life who are most important. Part of this change in my life is spiritual, but it's not the sole reason for my decision. I know there is a religious forum I can address that aspect of my decision in. To address one of the replies, part of the reason I'm posting my journey and will continue whether I continue to not CD or go back is to let the people who may want to quit know that they're not alone and maybe it can be done.
I'll check back in in a few months to let you know how it's going. Until then, peace, happiness, and good health to all of you.