loriannetucson
04-04-2007, 07:25 AM
The past couple of days has been a wonderful time. I finally went out in public completely enfemme (don't like that term very much). On Monday evening I went to a support group meeting fully dressed as Lori for the first time. I wore my new wig, makeup, my tube top and capris. I received a lot of compliments and felt great (and rather normal). Later on in the evening we went to a coffee house and it turned out no one even noticed us or were even slightly interested in us very tall women. There was one creep, however, who approached me when I arrived alone and asked if I could take pictures of him naked. After three attempts to say no politely, I finally stood over him, looking down at his face, and told him firmly, "No." He backed off and left. I think he was homeless and was mentally unstable (duh!).
Yesterday was even better. I had an appointment with my therapist and I decided to go into Tucson fully dressed as Lori again, this time on my own. I wore a blue camisol with lace on the edges and blue denim capris in addition to my straight hair wig (in my avatar photo) and complete makeup. My first top was at a Target store where I shopped for a woman's watch because my men's watch is way too large and bulky to wear as a woman. I did get "made" by one man who seemed to try and stare from the side of the watches aisle. I used to work in loss prevention and can tell when people are acting differently and not shopping. Other than that, I felt complete freedom walking around, shopping for women's clothes and makeup. I walked past at least 50 people and no one even seemed to pay attention to me. I guess I passed because it was uneventful except for the one man. And when I went to pay, even the female employee only glanced at my face for less than a second to smile and give me my receipt.
This was good. Very Good. I just want to be able to blend in and pass completely as Lori Anne, and I was so fearful that everyone would be staring and gawking at me all day. In fact, it turned out just the opposite. I walked around confidently and tried not to act nervous. I think I did a good job.
I ended up at my therapist's office, and when she saw me she told me I looked amazing. (Of course, I'm sure she would say that if I DIDN'T look that way!) After the session I stopped by and met up with a trangirfriend at Barnes and Noble. In the cafe area we sat and talked for almost an hour, and during that time only one young tween girl noticed my deeper voice and whispered to her mom that I was a man. Everyone else minded their own business and didn't either notice us or simply didn't care.
Overall I was definitely given a confidence booster. Knowing I can either pass completely in public or if I'm noticed not to have people care about how I dress was a big hurdle for me. I have full confidence now and will be dressing like my real self when I make these trips around town much more in the future.
Yay! I have to say it was a good day indeed! Just one step closer to blending into society as the woman I am inside!
Lori Anne
Yesterday was even better. I had an appointment with my therapist and I decided to go into Tucson fully dressed as Lori again, this time on my own. I wore a blue camisol with lace on the edges and blue denim capris in addition to my straight hair wig (in my avatar photo) and complete makeup. My first top was at a Target store where I shopped for a woman's watch because my men's watch is way too large and bulky to wear as a woman. I did get "made" by one man who seemed to try and stare from the side of the watches aisle. I used to work in loss prevention and can tell when people are acting differently and not shopping. Other than that, I felt complete freedom walking around, shopping for women's clothes and makeup. I walked past at least 50 people and no one even seemed to pay attention to me. I guess I passed because it was uneventful except for the one man. And when I went to pay, even the female employee only glanced at my face for less than a second to smile and give me my receipt.
This was good. Very Good. I just want to be able to blend in and pass completely as Lori Anne, and I was so fearful that everyone would be staring and gawking at me all day. In fact, it turned out just the opposite. I walked around confidently and tried not to act nervous. I think I did a good job.
I ended up at my therapist's office, and when she saw me she told me I looked amazing. (Of course, I'm sure she would say that if I DIDN'T look that way!) After the session I stopped by and met up with a trangirfriend at Barnes and Noble. In the cafe area we sat and talked for almost an hour, and during that time only one young tween girl noticed my deeper voice and whispered to her mom that I was a man. Everyone else minded their own business and didn't either notice us or simply didn't care.
Overall I was definitely given a confidence booster. Knowing I can either pass completely in public or if I'm noticed not to have people care about how I dress was a big hurdle for me. I have full confidence now and will be dressing like my real self when I make these trips around town much more in the future.
Yay! I have to say it was a good day indeed! Just one step closer to blending into society as the woman I am inside!
Lori Anne