My Fortune Cookie

[aj_gg]

I had dinner tonight and received a fortune cookie with it. Yay for little cookies!

Anywho, I wanted to share my fortune with you and my little reflection to go with it.

"Do not wish to be anything but what you are, and try to be that perfectly."


Lately I have been trying to address my own "issues" with Nathan/Natasha's crossdressing and most of those issues have come from my own insecurity and fear. I keep reminding myself how much I love him and that irregardless of what he wants to pursue in his CDing, I want to be by his side holding his hand.

I have been addressing my fears of being the "other woman" finding out what needs I have and how to voice them to Nathan. All in this process I have been telling myself, I need to be patient, kind, loving and understanding. The one thing I have been lacking focus on is being able to realize that my lover is not a "normal" man, he is a crossdresser and becoming more and more proud of that fact. He does not wish to be anything besides what he is and wants to be able to show that to the world.

Right now I do not wish to be anything other than his fiance and counterpart and for that I should strive for nothing more than perfection.

[susie bear]

Wow!

aj,

Sounds like you are having a ruff time. Don't beat yourself up. Just be the best you can be. I think it's great that you care so much about your SO. Best of luck to both of you.

Best advice I can give is to talk, talk, and talk some more. Tell him exactly how you feel and what you need.

susiebear

[Suzie S.]

AJ, sometimes those fortune cookies really make you think, don't they? I know this is all somewhat overwhelming on you, and no one expects you to grasp complete understanding overnight. It may take time, a lot of time. Please don't think any less of yourself because you are still uncomfortable about Natasha's cding. You and Nathan seem to have a very strong love for each other, and things will work out in time. You are doing the best you can, and I'm sure he knows that. All you can do is be as open and honest with each other as possible and share your feelings. A relationship built on love and trust will endure anything. :happy: Wishing you both the best! :hugs: