Rikkicn
04-14-2007, 06:27 PM
I was scarred to tell me ex wife about my desires and passions. It took me a long, long time to have the nerve and courage tell her. Why was that? Why was it so hard to tell my wife of 25 years, my companion and best friend. Much of life is an illusion
Here’s what I’ve figured out with the time and distance of 7 years gone by.
I didn’t trust her.
I didn’t trust that she would keep loving me.
I didn’t trust that she would support and encourage me to find what I was looking for or needed.
I didn’t trust that she would embrace my erotic needs and desires
I didn’t trust that she would join me in outings with excitement in her eyes.
I didn’t trust that she would be pleased that I was willing to take the risk and go out of the house someday.
I didn’t trust that she would let me be the one the decides to tell others.
I didn’t trust that she would be willing to read, learn and educate herself about Gender and sexuality.
I didn’t trust that I could go to her when I was hurting and needed comforting.
I didn’t trust that she would be gentle and careful with my exposed heart that she held in her hands.
I didn't trust that she loved me enough
Turned out that I was right
Love you all
Here’s what I’ve figured out with the time and distance of 7 years gone by.
I didn’t trust her.
I didn’t trust that she would keep loving me.
I didn’t trust that she would support and encourage me to find what I was looking for or needed.
I didn’t trust that she would embrace my erotic needs and desires
I didn’t trust that she would join me in outings with excitement in her eyes.
I didn’t trust that she would be pleased that I was willing to take the risk and go out of the house someday.
I didn’t trust that she would let me be the one the decides to tell others.
I didn’t trust that she would be willing to read, learn and educate herself about Gender and sexuality.
I didn’t trust that I could go to her when I was hurting and needed comforting.
I didn’t trust that she would be gentle and careful with my exposed heart that she held in her hands.
I didn't trust that she loved me enough
Turned out that I was right
Love you all