Jocelyn Quivers
04-22-2007, 09:26 AM
Last night was the first time I ever set foot out of my house into the real world. It was quite an experience, especially for a very closeted, paranoid CD as myself. To actually feel the wind on my legs, and dress, to actually see the outside world as Jocelyn. There were several circumstances that lead to me finally going outside. I had to go to a different location to dress up. I currently live in a townhouse community which offers zero privacy which is a main reason I have been unable to go out dressed.
Last night I had the luxury of being able to go to my parent's house because they were out of town, and their house offers more secluded front yard. A couple of thoughts went through my mind as I was getting ready.
1. Do not use men's razor's for shaving legs, I forgot my venus razor's and had to use my male ones for shaving my legs, I almost nicked myself several times.
2. Picking an outfit is difficult, earlier in the day my wife and I went shopping and I bought several new skirts and tops to already add to the hundred's of outfits I already have, I still was unable to decide what to wear, and in the end picked a blue and black dress that I bought last year, beige Legg's Sheer Energy pantyhose, black strappy sandals, make up, wig, breast forms and a beige purse. I determined that the goal of tonight was not to worry about passing really, because that's basically impossible for my build, and just to take this one step at a time.
3. I was getting more and more nervous as I finally stepped out the door, luckily my wife was with me to provide me with support and courage. She was also going to be driving, I told her not to go 1 mile over the speed limit, and to check the car for any equipment violations. As we were driving I was also concerned hoping that we would not get in an accident, or run into a DUI checkpoint etc.:eek: Don't worry neither one of had consumed any alcohol.
In the end everything went well, it was very exciting. We just took a quick drive on the interstate to another town and back. The only scary part was when we were sitting at an intersection and a police car pulled up right beside us. I think I will definitely have to do this again but the next time I might actually drive and maybe stop at a drive through. Also it was a wonderful experience having my wife with me as well she enjoyed it just as much as I did.:happy: Jocelyn
Last night I had the luxury of being able to go to my parent's house because they were out of town, and their house offers more secluded front yard. A couple of thoughts went through my mind as I was getting ready.
1. Do not use men's razor's for shaving legs, I forgot my venus razor's and had to use my male ones for shaving my legs, I almost nicked myself several times.
2. Picking an outfit is difficult, earlier in the day my wife and I went shopping and I bought several new skirts and tops to already add to the hundred's of outfits I already have, I still was unable to decide what to wear, and in the end picked a blue and black dress that I bought last year, beige Legg's Sheer Energy pantyhose, black strappy sandals, make up, wig, breast forms and a beige purse. I determined that the goal of tonight was not to worry about passing really, because that's basically impossible for my build, and just to take this one step at a time.
3. I was getting more and more nervous as I finally stepped out the door, luckily my wife was with me to provide me with support and courage. She was also going to be driving, I told her not to go 1 mile over the speed limit, and to check the car for any equipment violations. As we were driving I was also concerned hoping that we would not get in an accident, or run into a DUI checkpoint etc.:eek: Don't worry neither one of had consumed any alcohol.
In the end everything went well, it was very exciting. We just took a quick drive on the interstate to another town and back. The only scary part was when we were sitting at an intersection and a police car pulled up right beside us. I think I will definitely have to do this again but the next time I might actually drive and maybe stop at a drive through. Also it was a wonderful experience having my wife with me as well she enjoyed it just as much as I did.:happy: Jocelyn