XDW Nathan-Natasha
04-22-2007, 11:34 PM
Ladies and well, ladies...last night was a momentous occasion for me. I went out in public FULLY ENFEMME!!!!
The evening started with me and my fiance aj_gg going to a Tri-Ess meeting, which was absolutely fabulous. Meeting fellow cross-dressers for the first time, enfemme and unafraid was one of the most incredible experiences for me. But it didn't end there...and little did I know, the night would get even more incredible...
Before leaving, my fiance asks me essentially, 'hey, would you want to go out after this?' And I was like: '...with me enfemme?' And she was like: 'Sure, why not.'
I flipped out with joy! I was like: 'Yeah, lets do this. I can do this. WE can do this!' And so we did.
As we walked down the steps out of the building where the meeting was I looked back over my shoulder at aj and said to her: 'You know, once we walk down these stairs, there's no turning back, you know?' And she said: 'I know.'
We ended up going to Barnes and Noble to get coffee, as aj and Natasha. We walked in behind a group of GGs and their guy friends without incident. None of them noticed me - and if they did, they said nothing.
At the counter the barista...who was a guy (would that make him a baristo?) was all smiles, but in a good way, you know? He either knew I was a guy and found it funny (but I don't think this was the case...he kinda checked me out:heehee: And I know most guy looks, 'cause I've used 'em), thought I was cute (which I kinda think was the case...he seemed all akward and chatty with me...) or just didn't know what to think. Either way, I threw him for a GOOD loop, whether I passed with him or not.
After that we sat down to enjoy our drinks. No one said a thing. If anyone was looking at me, I didn't notice. I mean, I was as nervous as hell but I was okay. I smiled, I relaxed, I tried to keep my cool.
After a while aj and I decided to walk around the bookstore and look about a bit. Again - no one seemd to notice or care that I was a cross-dresser. I was, at least at a glance, just another girl to them.
The big scare and potential 'out-ing' for me occured at the check-out counter. I was standing in line and praying to God that one of the cashier's would say 'Can I help who's next?' or the coveted 'I can help you down here, ma'am.' Well...neither were the case. I had stepped aside to toss my drink cup away and when I get back I hear 'Can I help you, sir? I kept my cool but my heart sank. I would have just stood there, but I was the next in line anyhow, so I went to his register.
My fiance was standing off to the side and there was a man behind me, though...the cashier could have seen him while I moved to toss my garbage - and I hope that was the case...but he probably still outed me. That was depressing. I kept up the facade though (and my femme voice, which was awesome last night) and handed him my book, got the money out of my purse, thanked him, wished him a good night, and left with Aj trailing behind.
In the parking lot I had a minor breakdown which increased in the car...but quickly blew over.
...
I had done it. I had gone out as a woman for the first time, and the night was nothing but an utter success. As far as I and Aj are concerned, for most people - I PASSED!!!!
I just wanted to share this momentous occassion with you all, girls. I hope every one of you who hasn't gone out yet will have as incredible of a first experience as I did.
The evening started with me and my fiance aj_gg going to a Tri-Ess meeting, which was absolutely fabulous. Meeting fellow cross-dressers for the first time, enfemme and unafraid was one of the most incredible experiences for me. But it didn't end there...and little did I know, the night would get even more incredible...
Before leaving, my fiance asks me essentially, 'hey, would you want to go out after this?' And I was like: '...with me enfemme?' And she was like: 'Sure, why not.'
I flipped out with joy! I was like: 'Yeah, lets do this. I can do this. WE can do this!' And so we did.
As we walked down the steps out of the building where the meeting was I looked back over my shoulder at aj and said to her: 'You know, once we walk down these stairs, there's no turning back, you know?' And she said: 'I know.'
We ended up going to Barnes and Noble to get coffee, as aj and Natasha. We walked in behind a group of GGs and their guy friends without incident. None of them noticed me - and if they did, they said nothing.
At the counter the barista...who was a guy (would that make him a baristo?) was all smiles, but in a good way, you know? He either knew I was a guy and found it funny (but I don't think this was the case...he kinda checked me out:heehee: And I know most guy looks, 'cause I've used 'em), thought I was cute (which I kinda think was the case...he seemed all akward and chatty with me...) or just didn't know what to think. Either way, I threw him for a GOOD loop, whether I passed with him or not.
After that we sat down to enjoy our drinks. No one said a thing. If anyone was looking at me, I didn't notice. I mean, I was as nervous as hell but I was okay. I smiled, I relaxed, I tried to keep my cool.
After a while aj and I decided to walk around the bookstore and look about a bit. Again - no one seemd to notice or care that I was a cross-dresser. I was, at least at a glance, just another girl to them.
The big scare and potential 'out-ing' for me occured at the check-out counter. I was standing in line and praying to God that one of the cashier's would say 'Can I help who's next?' or the coveted 'I can help you down here, ma'am.' Well...neither were the case. I had stepped aside to toss my drink cup away and when I get back I hear 'Can I help you, sir? I kept my cool but my heart sank. I would have just stood there, but I was the next in line anyhow, so I went to his register.
My fiance was standing off to the side and there was a man behind me, though...the cashier could have seen him while I moved to toss my garbage - and I hope that was the case...but he probably still outed me. That was depressing. I kept up the facade though (and my femme voice, which was awesome last night) and handed him my book, got the money out of my purse, thanked him, wished him a good night, and left with Aj trailing behind.
In the parking lot I had a minor breakdown which increased in the car...but quickly blew over.
...
I had done it. I had gone out as a woman for the first time, and the night was nothing but an utter success. As far as I and Aj are concerned, for most people - I PASSED!!!!
I just wanted to share this momentous occassion with you all, girls. I hope every one of you who hasn't gone out yet will have as incredible of a first experience as I did.