I just came out to my therapist and my psychiatrist

[Stephanie H]

I have finally after fighting it for years decided I can't take living the lie I have been living for years and I am now seeking medical means of changing my sex to that of a female. I hope to start hormones soon and the actual period in my life that I come out is being discussed now with my therapist.

I have been chatting with many other ts's on myspace and almost every one of them had exactly the same issues I have had in my past.

Most were hyper masculine trying to hide their feminine side by going deep into the masculine.

[AmberTG]

I have a friend who did 3 tours of duty in Viet Nam trying to prove to himself that he was a man. It didn't work, and now she is much happier, post op. It took her a long time of hiding it and purging and being pulled back in to finally realize that she simply could no longer fight her feelings. She became whole only after coming to terms with the fact that she was not a man on the inside. The rest was just procedural, external adjustments for her.

[michelleupnorth]

I'm in the same boat and finally came out to my Dr on the 27th of Feb. You can read some of my posts on my experiance or pm me if you would like. It's going to be so worth it in the end. It does suck all the pain and humiliation that I've had to go through and will still have to endure. I wish I wasn't trapped in this body. I don't look at myself in the mirror, given up on sex, don't hang out with people other than work, hate going out in public, and hate who I am. I should be starting HRT July 5th and I'm soooo looking forward to it. Sucks that we had to be born this way but ther is a reason for everything.

Good for you. It's the first step that's the hardest

[Shelly R]

congratulations on taking such a big step with your life! :hugs:
I wish you all the luck with your life!

[loriannetucson]

I work in a hyper masculine job, and have done so for the last 10 years. I know I was trying to overcompensate. But now my income is where I want it to be, and I don't want to lose my job, but I can't deny the woman inside me any longer. I can only wonder what transition's going to be like.

[Siobhan Marie]

Stephanie, congratulations. It's a big step to take to do what it is that you have to do and you've taken it. You go girl.

LoriAnne, I know how you feel. I work in security which again is a very male dominated job. My best friend, Lisa is in transition and has no real problems. I work at the same place that she does and have been out at work for 6 months now and I wonder what transition will be like too.

:hugs: Anna Marie x

[Kitty Sue]

Good for you Stephanie. I spent more than 11 years in the active military trying to "fix" my gender issues. I am not TS but I do understand the hiding of self due to gender and sexuality issues. I am a CD girl. Anyway again Stephanie congrats. You should be proud of yourself.