KatieC
05-14-2007, 01:00 PM
. . . and a season for every activity under heaven. (Ecclesiastes 3:1)
It's been just a little over a month since I found these forums and introduced myself (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=55500) to you all. I've been read the forums a lot, posting occasionally, and doing a lot of soul searching. I'm fortunate to have a good friend who I met in the SecondLife online world, a GG who asks me questions that I need to ask myself, but am always too muddled to think up on my own. She's the only one I've come out to about my cross dressing, other than here on these forums.
As much as it can tear me up inside to continue to hide my cross dressing desires from my wife, I still haven't had "the talk" with her. An old posting by Marla GG (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=13841) recommends preparing for "the talk" and trying to chose a time where my wife isn't unduly burdened by other stresses. Now that I've come to realize and more-or-less accept that my cross dressing desires are not going to go away, and shouldn't be something to be ashamed of, it feels very dishonest not to tell my wife. I want to get past the shame and fear in my emotional baggage and tell her. But, right now is far from a stress free time for us -- we're expecting the birth of our third child (and first daughter) in a month's time. My SecondLife friend recommends waiting until my new daughter is several months old, and my family life resettles from the changes a new baby will bring, before I come out.
My friend is probably wiser than I when it comes to this; I'm not very objective in thinking about it. And waiting gives me that much more time to prepare, to come to better terms with myself, to figure out what it is that I really want and how important (or not) cross dressing is to me.
Everyone's journey is unique, and one of the issues that is part of my journey, is a culture gap. I was raised in a very conservative Christian family. So conservative, that our Church had bylaws against dancing. It's been a real struggle for me to reconcile my religious beliefs with cross dressing. My wife was also raised in a conservative Christian church . . . in Japan, not the much-more-open US of A.
Navigating the gender roles in my culture is hard enough. At least it's more acceptable to be different in the USA. In Japan, social conformity is extremely important. And I'm realizing, that I don't really know/understand what the cultural taboos and gender role assumptions are in Japan. If I'm going to be as prepared as possible for discussing cross dressing with my wife, I really need to understand better where she is coming from.
Does anyone have any resources that I could dig into, regarding the taboos and gender roles in Japan? Especially as they were 20-30 years ago, when my wife was in her formative years? I'm at a bit of a loss as to where to start looking.
- Katie
It's been just a little over a month since I found these forums and introduced myself (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=55500) to you all. I've been read the forums a lot, posting occasionally, and doing a lot of soul searching. I'm fortunate to have a good friend who I met in the SecondLife online world, a GG who asks me questions that I need to ask myself, but am always too muddled to think up on my own. She's the only one I've come out to about my cross dressing, other than here on these forums.
As much as it can tear me up inside to continue to hide my cross dressing desires from my wife, I still haven't had "the talk" with her. An old posting by Marla GG (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=13841) recommends preparing for "the talk" and trying to chose a time where my wife isn't unduly burdened by other stresses. Now that I've come to realize and more-or-less accept that my cross dressing desires are not going to go away, and shouldn't be something to be ashamed of, it feels very dishonest not to tell my wife. I want to get past the shame and fear in my emotional baggage and tell her. But, right now is far from a stress free time for us -- we're expecting the birth of our third child (and first daughter) in a month's time. My SecondLife friend recommends waiting until my new daughter is several months old, and my family life resettles from the changes a new baby will bring, before I come out.
My friend is probably wiser than I when it comes to this; I'm not very objective in thinking about it. And waiting gives me that much more time to prepare, to come to better terms with myself, to figure out what it is that I really want and how important (or not) cross dressing is to me.
Everyone's journey is unique, and one of the issues that is part of my journey, is a culture gap. I was raised in a very conservative Christian family. So conservative, that our Church had bylaws against dancing. It's been a real struggle for me to reconcile my religious beliefs with cross dressing. My wife was also raised in a conservative Christian church . . . in Japan, not the much-more-open US of A.
Navigating the gender roles in my culture is hard enough. At least it's more acceptable to be different in the USA. In Japan, social conformity is extremely important. And I'm realizing, that I don't really know/understand what the cultural taboos and gender role assumptions are in Japan. If I'm going to be as prepared as possible for discussing cross dressing with my wife, I really need to understand better where she is coming from.
Does anyone have any resources that I could dig into, regarding the taboos and gender roles in Japan? Especially as they were 20-30 years ago, when my wife was in her formative years? I'm at a bit of a loss as to where to start looking.
- Katie