Jammie Lyann
05-20-2007, 06:03 PM
Better have a large coffee with very long reading.
Well how to start this.
My earliest memory of CD’ing was about the age of 4 or 5 but lets start before that,
I was about 4 years old when my mother decided to take my brother of age 3 an dress him in a dolls outfit an take photos of him. I was so jealous that I shave my brothers head
An his curly hair never grew back in that curl again, this pissed my mother off an she shaved my head also.
Ok some where between the ages of 4 an 5 I found might first pair of tights leotards I think they was called, an kept them hidden behind my dresser. At about age 7, my cousins came down an they spent the night, one of my cousins left behind a pair of panties,” I still remember what they looked like, red an blue with white stars”
Anyhow when the folks wasn’t around I decided to try them on, brother walked in on me, said he was going to tell mom, never heard any thing from mom but my tights an panties disappeared soon after.
Side note: around age of 9 I build my first club house, mom said I was going to be real good with tools because it looked like a small version of a 2 story house, mother was real good at remodeling the homes we lived in so I picked up on it naturally, she also taught me how to crochet, she also loved puzzles, so at age of 5 or 6 I also got hooked on puzzles, first one I did or helped with was 2000 piece of the last supper. By age 12 I learned how to cook.
At age 10 my step dad , dad of my 3 younger brothers, decided to get drunk an while the 4 of us boys was in the car, he shot the tires out from under it, he went to jail an mom left him, we moved to Selleck Washington, with a man that is now an will always be my father.
Just turned 11 an that Halloween my mother dressed me up as a little girl ponytails freckles, white dress with red budded roses on it , an them black patten strap shoes girls use to wear, an white tights. Made my day I was so happy. In 7th grade I over heard to boys asking each other if I was a boy or girl, “mother allowed me to grow my hair long”
I remember turning around an responding to them that I was a boy, an they laughed at me.
Lived in Selleck for 2 years then moved to Parkland Washington just before my 13th BD
I took up a paper route had delivered papers till I was 15, I delivered papers, to apartments an on my off days I would collect cans an bottle for extra cash, I know this sound a little gross but, I found other things in the dumpsters, stuff we sold in yard sells,
An I also found panties, dresses, shoes, would wash the stuff when folks was gone, these I kept hidden away in the rafters above the room I built in the garage. Worked the berry fields the summer of my 16th birthday, was the worse time to decide to shave the private area for the first time, work at a shingle factory the summer of my 17th BD ,
An by Nov. I had join the Navy, Jan. I was at boot camp. Stationed Fallon NV. By Aug.
Of that same year 1985, met my 1st wife in Sept. of 86, married in July of 87 we spent a day at the lake soon after an I recall her falling asleep an I took her bathing suit an went over t the next cove an went swimming, she was still sleeping when I returned, then in Aug. 87 was transferred to the USS Tarawa, ship was in dry dock so had lots of time to go out an find fun an when I found out that my wife was cheating on me with an old boyfriend, I did just that , meet this gal at the club an spent the next 3 months with her she gave me you guessed it a pair of panties, after we split up I kept them hanging on my rack next to my pillow, know one ever questioned it, anyhow my time in the Navy came to an end an I moved back to Fallon NV. Mostly because my folks had decide to move down this way while I was station here.
Went to work for a casino while working there meet my 2nd wife, join the Army National Guard Reserves 1 weekend a month 2 weeks in the summer, was with them for the next 8 years, while married to my 2nd wife I did inform her that I like to dress up, while working for the casino I dress up for work one Halloween, an the again the next night for a party being held there, my wife was Bi curious but did not have the gut to go all the way with another woman, so my wearing tights was kind of a turn on for her after 2 years of working for the casino I went to work out on base as a janitor cleaning the rooms, one day I had to go in an clean this room that one of the female officers had move out of an found a few items left behind, an to this day I still have a pair of panties I found there.
One of the only items I didn’t purge on several occasions, the next Halloween we went to a place in Fernley , my wife an 2 of her friend did me up good, an I won 75$ an dinner for 2.
My wife an I had sort of an open relation ship we would go out an party an bring home another couple that was interested in swinging, after awhile we would switch an head to separate rooms, well I’m sure you all know what happens to them kind of a relationships, as it was I was out on my 2 weeks with ANGR’s when I returned my wife told me that she had seen someone an felt bad about it, so she decide to make it up by bring over a friend of her’s that was interested in me.
Well that was a mistake, because I fell for her an she became my 3rd wife, she also knew about my dressing because she was one of the girls that helped me dress up the last time, any how things went on an we had a child together, our son ended up being in the hospital for about 9 months, “( the boy in the bubble, except he had a bone marrow transplant an now live a semi normal life, has to go to UCSF every 3 to 6 months for check ups, an is now blind in his left eye.)” any way thins change between my wife an I when they finally came home from UCSF, she decide that my feminine side had to go. She could now longer coupe with it. About 6 month later, she started doing drugs an seeing others to get them drug, as well as women. ( this I find funny she could have told everyone that I was a CD, but instead she told everyone of her friends that I slept with one of her gay friends an got him to go along with it, till I threaten him with law suit if he didn’t tell everyone the truth.)
In March of what would have been our 5th year together I called it quits an filed for divorce an got full custody of my son, but this didn’t happen till Oct. in June I meet Kerry in Sept, my mother past away, an on that same day
CPS came a remove my son from my house for 2 weeks due to mark that my soon to be X had left on my son an I reported them, the court soon decided he was safe with me an awarded me custody.
Well during the next year I went out an bought me a new outfit western wear this time,
Had that out fit for the next 2 years till Kerry actually moved in an had to hide some stuff again
Anyhow after being with her for 6 years we finally got married, last Sept I came out to her, we will be together 8 years as of the 4 of June 2007 ,
As I have posted before I’m kind of a hermit an don’t like to go out much, mostly because of things that happen in my 3rd marriage I kind of locked myself up, Kerry is always telling me I need to open up make new friend an stuff but trusting people again is still hard, It took me six years to marry Kerry and another year before I could bring my self to tell her about my dressing, besides I have children to think of also where I didn’t in my first 2 marriages, don’t get me wrong I have gone camping with my select friends, an I play pool in tournament with my best friend the only one out side of my house beside you all that knows “but I don’t stay out an mingle soon as I’m done I return home.” I have gone out to 1 event sense I’ve told her an would love to go out to more , but again those are people I don’t know an would not see again out side that type of environments, I have talk to my wife about how I feel about meeting others, I have meet some of her church group an in fact we are having a summer BBQ that I am putting on for friends hers an mine so I am trying, up till last year the only friends we had were my friends prior to us getting together, but she also didn’t get out much till about a year ago she used to be heavy set an didn’t like to go out much because of it , she had a gastro bypass 3 years ago an now has her figure back so she out living it up well at least its with church a group an not at a bar.
Anyhow over that last couple of months I have begun to feel that there is more to this than just CD’ing I mean although I only get to dress up fully about once a month mostly when she’s not around, she doesn’t mind that I dress around her but I think its more of a comfort thing for me. I’ve always known that there was some thing different about me
I don’t care for most manly things like physical sports an hunting, I’ve been playing online games off an on for abut 7 years an I’ve always made female characters,
Hell even my drab clothing is on the feminine side except for my jeans. I cant stand the hair on my body an wish I could get rid of it permanently, As I have said before life has handed me this ticket an I will ride it out, doesn’t mean I wont get depress from time to time, but that’s nothing new been dealing with it for many years now if I could go back to my teen year an decide over or if I had a choice while in the womb then yes thing would be different, but for now I will enjoy what I can do an make the best of it.
Ivey
Well how to start this.
My earliest memory of CD’ing was about the age of 4 or 5 but lets start before that,
I was about 4 years old when my mother decided to take my brother of age 3 an dress him in a dolls outfit an take photos of him. I was so jealous that I shave my brothers head
An his curly hair never grew back in that curl again, this pissed my mother off an she shaved my head also.
Ok some where between the ages of 4 an 5 I found might first pair of tights leotards I think they was called, an kept them hidden behind my dresser. At about age 7, my cousins came down an they spent the night, one of my cousins left behind a pair of panties,” I still remember what they looked like, red an blue with white stars”
Anyhow when the folks wasn’t around I decided to try them on, brother walked in on me, said he was going to tell mom, never heard any thing from mom but my tights an panties disappeared soon after.
Side note: around age of 9 I build my first club house, mom said I was going to be real good with tools because it looked like a small version of a 2 story house, mother was real good at remodeling the homes we lived in so I picked up on it naturally, she also taught me how to crochet, she also loved puzzles, so at age of 5 or 6 I also got hooked on puzzles, first one I did or helped with was 2000 piece of the last supper. By age 12 I learned how to cook.
At age 10 my step dad , dad of my 3 younger brothers, decided to get drunk an while the 4 of us boys was in the car, he shot the tires out from under it, he went to jail an mom left him, we moved to Selleck Washington, with a man that is now an will always be my father.
Just turned 11 an that Halloween my mother dressed me up as a little girl ponytails freckles, white dress with red budded roses on it , an them black patten strap shoes girls use to wear, an white tights. Made my day I was so happy. In 7th grade I over heard to boys asking each other if I was a boy or girl, “mother allowed me to grow my hair long”
I remember turning around an responding to them that I was a boy, an they laughed at me.
Lived in Selleck for 2 years then moved to Parkland Washington just before my 13th BD
I took up a paper route had delivered papers till I was 15, I delivered papers, to apartments an on my off days I would collect cans an bottle for extra cash, I know this sound a little gross but, I found other things in the dumpsters, stuff we sold in yard sells,
An I also found panties, dresses, shoes, would wash the stuff when folks was gone, these I kept hidden away in the rafters above the room I built in the garage. Worked the berry fields the summer of my 16th birthday, was the worse time to decide to shave the private area for the first time, work at a shingle factory the summer of my 17th BD ,
An by Nov. I had join the Navy, Jan. I was at boot camp. Stationed Fallon NV. By Aug.
Of that same year 1985, met my 1st wife in Sept. of 86, married in July of 87 we spent a day at the lake soon after an I recall her falling asleep an I took her bathing suit an went over t the next cove an went swimming, she was still sleeping when I returned, then in Aug. 87 was transferred to the USS Tarawa, ship was in dry dock so had lots of time to go out an find fun an when I found out that my wife was cheating on me with an old boyfriend, I did just that , meet this gal at the club an spent the next 3 months with her she gave me you guessed it a pair of panties, after we split up I kept them hanging on my rack next to my pillow, know one ever questioned it, anyhow my time in the Navy came to an end an I moved back to Fallon NV. Mostly because my folks had decide to move down this way while I was station here.
Went to work for a casino while working there meet my 2nd wife, join the Army National Guard Reserves 1 weekend a month 2 weeks in the summer, was with them for the next 8 years, while married to my 2nd wife I did inform her that I like to dress up, while working for the casino I dress up for work one Halloween, an the again the next night for a party being held there, my wife was Bi curious but did not have the gut to go all the way with another woman, so my wearing tights was kind of a turn on for her after 2 years of working for the casino I went to work out on base as a janitor cleaning the rooms, one day I had to go in an clean this room that one of the female officers had move out of an found a few items left behind, an to this day I still have a pair of panties I found there.
One of the only items I didn’t purge on several occasions, the next Halloween we went to a place in Fernley , my wife an 2 of her friend did me up good, an I won 75$ an dinner for 2.
My wife an I had sort of an open relation ship we would go out an party an bring home another couple that was interested in swinging, after awhile we would switch an head to separate rooms, well I’m sure you all know what happens to them kind of a relationships, as it was I was out on my 2 weeks with ANGR’s when I returned my wife told me that she had seen someone an felt bad about it, so she decide to make it up by bring over a friend of her’s that was interested in me.
Well that was a mistake, because I fell for her an she became my 3rd wife, she also knew about my dressing because she was one of the girls that helped me dress up the last time, any how things went on an we had a child together, our son ended up being in the hospital for about 9 months, “( the boy in the bubble, except he had a bone marrow transplant an now live a semi normal life, has to go to UCSF every 3 to 6 months for check ups, an is now blind in his left eye.)” any way thins change between my wife an I when they finally came home from UCSF, she decide that my feminine side had to go. She could now longer coupe with it. About 6 month later, she started doing drugs an seeing others to get them drug, as well as women. ( this I find funny she could have told everyone that I was a CD, but instead she told everyone of her friends that I slept with one of her gay friends an got him to go along with it, till I threaten him with law suit if he didn’t tell everyone the truth.)
In March of what would have been our 5th year together I called it quits an filed for divorce an got full custody of my son, but this didn’t happen till Oct. in June I meet Kerry in Sept, my mother past away, an on that same day
CPS came a remove my son from my house for 2 weeks due to mark that my soon to be X had left on my son an I reported them, the court soon decided he was safe with me an awarded me custody.
Well during the next year I went out an bought me a new outfit western wear this time,
Had that out fit for the next 2 years till Kerry actually moved in an had to hide some stuff again
Anyhow after being with her for 6 years we finally got married, last Sept I came out to her, we will be together 8 years as of the 4 of June 2007 ,
As I have posted before I’m kind of a hermit an don’t like to go out much, mostly because of things that happen in my 3rd marriage I kind of locked myself up, Kerry is always telling me I need to open up make new friend an stuff but trusting people again is still hard, It took me six years to marry Kerry and another year before I could bring my self to tell her about my dressing, besides I have children to think of also where I didn’t in my first 2 marriages, don’t get me wrong I have gone camping with my select friends, an I play pool in tournament with my best friend the only one out side of my house beside you all that knows “but I don’t stay out an mingle soon as I’m done I return home.” I have gone out to 1 event sense I’ve told her an would love to go out to more , but again those are people I don’t know an would not see again out side that type of environments, I have talk to my wife about how I feel about meeting others, I have meet some of her church group an in fact we are having a summer BBQ that I am putting on for friends hers an mine so I am trying, up till last year the only friends we had were my friends prior to us getting together, but she also didn’t get out much till about a year ago she used to be heavy set an didn’t like to go out much because of it , she had a gastro bypass 3 years ago an now has her figure back so she out living it up well at least its with church a group an not at a bar.
Anyhow over that last couple of months I have begun to feel that there is more to this than just CD’ing I mean although I only get to dress up fully about once a month mostly when she’s not around, she doesn’t mind that I dress around her but I think its more of a comfort thing for me. I’ve always known that there was some thing different about me
I don’t care for most manly things like physical sports an hunting, I’ve been playing online games off an on for abut 7 years an I’ve always made female characters,
Hell even my drab clothing is on the feminine side except for my jeans. I cant stand the hair on my body an wish I could get rid of it permanently, As I have said before life has handed me this ticket an I will ride it out, doesn’t mean I wont get depress from time to time, but that’s nothing new been dealing with it for many years now if I could go back to my teen year an decide over or if I had a choice while in the womb then yes thing would be different, but for now I will enjoy what I can do an make the best of it.
Ivey