janelle
06-07-2007, 07:53 PM
Hi All; as most of you know I have been living as Janelle for @ 6 months now. The wife still has some issues but we are trying to work them out. My big problem is my shrink was going to write a letter to my insurance dept. stating this was causing my major depression. Now all at once she changes her mind. I don't know how I can keep paying for my session(therp., 1 in La Crosse & the other in the Cities).{note the Cities is the gender clinic & they are working with the 1 here in La Crosse to help me save some money}.
I am at the point where, if my shrink can not help me why keep going. Start backing myself off her meds. Also know that it will make surgery almost impossible, so why keep trying. Feel like stopping all sessions & just go it alone. I know that can be very dangerous but don't have many choices. I have told them that I will not go back to being my male self, that somehow I need to finish my change.
As you can see this does upset me dearly. I finially find out who & what I truely am & road blocks pop up all over. Yes my depression is back big time as I wish almost every day that God would take me from this world as I see no way to strech my income any farther. I plan on talking with both my therp. about how I feel & pray they have some answers for me.
THANKS for reading this & hopefully understanding that my wits are coming to some kind of a end. This place is special as may of you are very dear to me & ALL give advice as they see fit, which gives (my case) me food for thought. Be assured that I will keep fighting my way down this path. Guess I just need to hear I am not alone in what we all are going for, a happy & enjoyable life.
THANKS
:hugs:, Janelle
I am at the point where, if my shrink can not help me why keep going. Start backing myself off her meds. Also know that it will make surgery almost impossible, so why keep trying. Feel like stopping all sessions & just go it alone. I know that can be very dangerous but don't have many choices. I have told them that I will not go back to being my male self, that somehow I need to finish my change.
As you can see this does upset me dearly. I finially find out who & what I truely am & road blocks pop up all over. Yes my depression is back big time as I wish almost every day that God would take me from this world as I see no way to strech my income any farther. I plan on talking with both my therp. about how I feel & pray they have some answers for me.
THANKS for reading this & hopefully understanding that my wits are coming to some kind of a end. This place is special as may of you are very dear to me & ALL give advice as they see fit, which gives (my case) me food for thought. Be assured that I will keep fighting my way down this path. Guess I just need to hear I am not alone in what we all are going for, a happy & enjoyable life.
THANKS
:hugs:, Janelle