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TerryTerri
06-09-2007, 05:23 AM
Hello All,
I think I've read just about every post in the TS forum part now. So much good stuff. I know I need to start posting and replying more so that you can get to know me and I can get to know you better. At this moment in time I have this forum and one friend to help me with all this. I'm having difficulty getting a transgender therapist. Anyway, my upcoming trip....

Next Friday (6/15) I wil be leaving for a one week business trip. It will be my chance to fem it up some. I will be having a co-worker attending the same conference. But, we have different iteneraries and he is bringing his kids. So, he will not be wanting to socialize much with me.

Okay, here's the controvesial part and I ask that you try not to be too judgemental about some of this. There are many layers to this onion and as Paul Harvy demonstrated repeatedly, once you know more about "the rest of the story" it often brings a different judgement on the story.
Anyway, I am bringing my friend (a GG who is not my wife) with me and she is going to help me with fem stuff. This will be a first for me. I will be in a city that has several transgender friendly places and we are contemplating going to one. It would be my very first time out. Right now I'm thinking I'm not ready for it, mainly body issues. I really need to lose some weight unless I wish to pretend I'm a six month prego female. Might be able to pull that off, except for the adam's apple. We have been talking and preparing for this for several weeks.
I have such a limited ability for privacy normally this trip will be a real treat for me. Also, I have NEVER had someone else's help before. This will be my first time for many of my fem stuff. I am so so excited. I will keep you all posted. She says she will be bringing a camera (I don't think the camera will make it, although we could always get a disposable one) so pehaps I will be able to play at being a model and get a real avatar picture at some point soon.

Okay, one more thing, which could have it's own thread anyway. As some of you know, my desire to actually become a woman, not just dress like one is still rather consciencely new to me and I am having difficuly finding a therapist to help me figure this out. I had a thought and I wondered what you gals thought. What if I took the regime of hormones for a couple of months as an experiment. Seems to me, at this point, that if I were to get on the hormones regime it would probably give me a good awarness of if this shoe really fits or not. Reducing my testosterone and giving me estrogen would effect my emotions and all sorts of stuff. Seems to me like it would either feel 'right' or not. That in turn could give me insight into where I need to go next. I would only do it with a doctor's prescription and oversight. The side effects of being on the hormones I do not think are a big concern. I already have 3 biological kids. I have no intention of having any more. The only reason I do not have a vasectomy art this point is that my wife is 'broken' now and can now have any more kids, she's missing essential parts. Also a lowered sex drive as odd as it may seem would probably help my marital situation and lastly, I don't think I would have enough breast development (darn it) in just a few months to be significant. Anyway, after two of three months of hormones, I would think it would be much clearer to me where this should go and what I need to do as a next step.
How did hormone therapy effect you and any confusions or uncertainties you had regardling any of this. I'm just curious.

Okay, sorry for the long post, I'm just a verbose poster!

PS. Although this is something for a different forum, it's something I'm rather happy about:

I have been smoke free for - Three months, one week, 5 hours, 35 minutes and 22 seconds. I haven't had to smoke 1984 cigarettes that I normally would have. Also, I didn't have to spend $554.71 killing myself. Statistically, I have gained 6 days, 21 hours, 20 minutes of my life back by quitting smoking.

kerrianna
06-09-2007, 05:33 AM
Terri, congrats on being smoke free. That is a huge huge thing. You will live longer.

As for the hormones before the therapist? I think it's not a great idea. It seems reckless to me. Hormones aren't something to be taken lightly. They change your body, and can have serious side effects if misused. What's your hurry?

Also, have you told your spouse you want to do hormones? I would think that you want her on your side if you go that route because you will be better off with the support. That's my :2c:.

Sandra
06-09-2007, 05:46 AM
If you've read most of the posts in the TS forum you should have noticed a pattern regarding hormones and taking them, you should never take them without medical supervision unless you want to really damage your health, playing with them is dangerous.

GypsyKaren
06-09-2007, 07:06 AM
Terri, there is so much wrong in your thinking that I really don't know where to start, but let's try this on for size and see where it leads us...FORGET THE HORMONES! I see this so many times, and it leaves me so frustrated that I want to start working on a noose so I can go hang myself. Let me cut to the chase here so there won't be any confusion or misunderstanding...
#1: Hormones will not give you any "insight" into anything, they will cause drastic and irreversible changes to your body.
#2: Sex drive and fertility are a drop in the ocean of possible side effects, they can kill you. A genetic male anatomy is not designed to handle female hormones, and your liver will definately not like what you're feeding it...hello liver failure?
#3:Yes, your emotions will be affected, but answer me this: if you can't figure this stuff out now, how is getting on an emotional roller coaster going to help? Answer: it isn't, it will be like trying to find your way through a maze while you've got your head stuck in a bucket of water.
#4:Good luck finding a doctor who will even do this for you in the first place. Do you think you can just walk into a doctor's office and say "I'll have the Estrogen platter to go please, with fries." I don't know how it is everywhere else, but I spent half a day on the phone getting rejections before I found one who would do it, and I had to have a letter from my therapist before he'd even let me in the door.
#5:Getting to Point A to Point C means you gotta go through Point B, you can't take the scenic route around it, and besides, this whole trans business means you gotta make it to point Z...sorry, no cutting in line allowed. Look at it this way, the time to buy house plans is before you start construction, not after, you'll have a big mess otherwise, right?
#6:Terri, this is not like a shoe you can try on, this is your life, and you just can't take that back because it doesn't fit.
#7:If you have a destination in mind to where you'd like to go, the first thing you have to do is see where you're at now, otherwise you're lost, and if you're lost you're helpless.
#8: This is as high as I can count (sorry, couldn't help it).

Look Terri, you said you'd seek professional help, so stick with that. You don't necesarily need someone who specializes in trans affairs, any qualified therapist or p-doc that you feel comfortable with should be able to help you. My p-doc had very limited experience with this, but she not only helped me, she changed my life, and saved it too.

One other thing, and then I need some coffee and a smoke. Yes, you can always self medicate if you're foolish enough, you can find anything if you've got the bucks, but you will NOT find any help or advice on doing that here, because I'll remove it if anyone posts it, so you'd be on your own...just a few things here to ponder.

Karen

Siobhan Marie
06-09-2007, 08:59 AM
Terri, I'm not being judgemental on this at all. All I can is say is forget the hormones. These are very powerful and dangerous drugs and can do untold damage to your body. There is only one way to transition and that's the right way. Which I'd imagine in your case is to find a therapist and go from there.

Congrats on being smoke-free btw.

:hugs: Anna x

Sharon
06-09-2007, 10:50 AM
Terri,

If you send me a private message, I will do my best to help you find a qualified gender therapist in your area.