sandra-leigh
06-16-2007, 09:34 PM
I've been tending towards the TG side, meaning that I've been tending to go out in public in a mixed-gender appearance. I've been pretty successful at that when I keep it to moderate femme clothes -- clothes that a GG might easily recognize as being womens' (e.g., a pinstripe white blouse), but nothing very fancy or ornate while mixed-gender. Clothes that can be mentally dismissed as not being Just Too Strange for a guy to wear. My gender-bending excursions have included some very plain skirts -- dull solid colour skirts or plain denim.
I still have some internal boundaries I don't find as easy to push: in particular, wearing more colourful skirts in guy mode, and wearing a dress in guy mode. Today, in recognition that I'm Not Getting Any Younger, I decided I would Just Try It. After some indecision of what to wear, I got my act together and went out in public in guy mode, wearing an above-the-knee blue denim dress. I was also wearing sheer pantyhose (even I have trouble seeing them), sensible womens shoes, 38G forms (didn't look it!) and some light makeup (e.g., enough lipstick to keep my lips from looking blue from the anxiety.)
In the past I've gone straight out of my house fully dressed, and straight out in mixed gender mode (including sometimes wearing a skirt), but I still mentally find a dress harder to explain, and I was worried that some of my neighbours might be out doing yard-work today. So for the outing, I covered my legs and the bottom of my dress with some pants, walked up a block, ducked into a park, and removed the pants there, and then walked the remainder of the way to the bus stop.
Well, I just missed the bus... leaving me standing by the side of a moderately busy road waiting for the next bus, A Boy And His Dress. I soon ducked over to walk the gardens of the nearby school, still completely visible to the public, but less immediately visible from the busy road. The 10 minutes until the next bus sure did seem long!
Once I'd made it on to the bus, the rest of the trip went fine. A long block walk along the busy road, shopping for some womens clothes, a couple of blocks walk over to a drug store and a couple of purchases there, an 8 block walk through a more-residential area to catch my local bus... running for that bus and having it wait for me... finally getting off the local bus a block past home, ducking around back of a school and putting my pants on again over the bottom of the dress, then back home.
Once I'm in motion as an obvious TG, I'm usually pretty good, comfortable walking along roads, comfortable going into stores, comfortable walking by people (except sometimes when my bust is obvious because I'm wearing a stretch top over my forms). But when I'm starting out especially, waiting in one place and thinking of the people gawking as they go by... yet I easily ignore those thoughts once I'm going. (But one thing that still does really bug me is having people observe me as I make the transition from "guy" to "TG" or to "female". Oh, and I don't drive, so I can't do that "in the car".)
What's next? Hard to say. Today was a success, at least with my fashionable but not-girlie denim dress. I still have hills to climb involving wearing "undeniably female" clothes in guy mode. I wonder what the weather forecast is for tomorrow?...
Photos: two in the Photo area, in my "A Guy with a Dress" thread.
I still have some internal boundaries I don't find as easy to push: in particular, wearing more colourful skirts in guy mode, and wearing a dress in guy mode. Today, in recognition that I'm Not Getting Any Younger, I decided I would Just Try It. After some indecision of what to wear, I got my act together and went out in public in guy mode, wearing an above-the-knee blue denim dress. I was also wearing sheer pantyhose (even I have trouble seeing them), sensible womens shoes, 38G forms (didn't look it!) and some light makeup (e.g., enough lipstick to keep my lips from looking blue from the anxiety.)
In the past I've gone straight out of my house fully dressed, and straight out in mixed gender mode (including sometimes wearing a skirt), but I still mentally find a dress harder to explain, and I was worried that some of my neighbours might be out doing yard-work today. So for the outing, I covered my legs and the bottom of my dress with some pants, walked up a block, ducked into a park, and removed the pants there, and then walked the remainder of the way to the bus stop.
Well, I just missed the bus... leaving me standing by the side of a moderately busy road waiting for the next bus, A Boy And His Dress. I soon ducked over to walk the gardens of the nearby school, still completely visible to the public, but less immediately visible from the busy road. The 10 minutes until the next bus sure did seem long!
Once I'd made it on to the bus, the rest of the trip went fine. A long block walk along the busy road, shopping for some womens clothes, a couple of blocks walk over to a drug store and a couple of purchases there, an 8 block walk through a more-residential area to catch my local bus... running for that bus and having it wait for me... finally getting off the local bus a block past home, ducking around back of a school and putting my pants on again over the bottom of the dress, then back home.
Once I'm in motion as an obvious TG, I'm usually pretty good, comfortable walking along roads, comfortable going into stores, comfortable walking by people (except sometimes when my bust is obvious because I'm wearing a stretch top over my forms). But when I'm starting out especially, waiting in one place and thinking of the people gawking as they go by... yet I easily ignore those thoughts once I'm going. (But one thing that still does really bug me is having people observe me as I make the transition from "guy" to "TG" or to "female". Oh, and I don't drive, so I can't do that "in the car".)
What's next? Hard to say. Today was a success, at least with my fashionable but not-girlie denim dress. I still have hills to climb involving wearing "undeniably female" clothes in guy mode. I wonder what the weather forecast is for tomorrow?...
Photos: two in the Photo area, in my "A Guy with a Dress" thread.