Forced Boyfication

[Marla S]

Next week there will be a festivity with big family reunion and friends.
Because it is my mom's time and some guests will be there for the entire week I have to play the regular boy for one whole week.:straightface:

As much as I look forward to meet all these people, this thought makes me shiver.

Living my "self" for over a year now with only a few single days in pure drab, I almost don't dare to pack my bags with boys stuff, cutting the nails etc.
That feels so freaking strange, I can't believe it.

Feels like forced Boyfication, lacking any pleasure though.

Never would have thought, that it is that difficult to become the regular boy again, though I lived that regular boy most of my life. No wonder that I never have been a very happy person.

Wow, what a freaking feeling.:eek:

[Katie Moore]

Sometimes we all need to go with the flow and do things we don't really like. This sure sounds like one of them. Good Luck!

[Patricia Danielle]

I'm all to fimaluar with it! Thats why I'm in Missouri and the rest of my family is still in East Texas, unless some of them have floated away with all the rain. With all my sisters only 3 of them still clame me but if one of the family wanted something then they would show up! It's really sad to think that ones own family would turn there back on them. But I also remember the old saying That no good deed goes unpunished..Patricia..:drink: I have coffee life is good..

[Mitch23]

Think how nice it will be to get back to your girlie things!

Mitch

[Toyah]

I dont get it if dressing is sooooo important to you go dressed and accept your life, or accept that most people dont like how you live

[Wendy me]

OK get caught up in that forced thingy every year at deer camp ...the easiest way to get through it is what i do stay drunk for the whole week ....good luck ......

[Marla S]

I dont get it if dressing is sooooo important to you go dressed and accept your life, or accept that most people dont like how you live
I am respecting my mom. Though she knows at least part of the story and seems to accept it, it's her festivity, it's her time, it's her family, it's her friends. She deserves a good time and not a time being asked once in a while "What's up with your strange son ?"

So I'll play the boy in respect of her, despite she has seen me wearing girls clothes.

But that doesn't prevent me from feeling very strange, to an extend that surprises me.

[Lovely Rita]

Next week there will be a festivity with big family reunion and friends.
Because it is my mom's time and some guests will be there for the entire week I have to play the regular boy for one whole week.:straightface:

As much as I look forward to meet all these people, this thought makes me shiver.

Living my "self" for over a year now with only a few single days in pure drab, I almost don't dare to pack my bags with boys stuff, cutting the nails etc.
That feels so freaking strange, I can't believe it.

Feels like forced Boyfication, lacking any pleasure though.

Never would have thought, that it is that difficult to become the regular boy again, though I lived that regular boy most of my life. No wonder that I never have been a very happy person.

Wow, what a freaking feeling.:eek:


You will get through it ok.

Take care

[sterling12]

Just a question? After a year of living large, can you pull it off? A lot of your mannerisms will almost surely be effeminate, and they will notice!

Unless you can really "butch up," I think your Mom is still going to get some questions. It's really hard to live in one persona and then switch gears overnight. Perhaps your an actress and can do this. I would start practicing right now.

Peace and Love, Joanie

[tammie]

Hi Everyone: U R doing the right thing and U should never feel bad about that. As an adjunct to helping U cope I would advise wearing only lingerie under your clothes and perhaps U can wear a bra and garterbelt/nylons pantie or pantiegidle
and a slip or cami.

At night U can wear a chemise to sleep in and wear some very light makeup as well. If anyone notices ask them if they think U look OK? Don't be to quick to take offense at any comments. Good Luck and have fun, it will be great.

[Corrine GG]

OK get caught up in that forced thingy every year at deer camp ...the easiest way to get through it is what i do stay drunk for the whole week ....good luck ......

I feel like an 'actor' when forced to be in situations like these. I feel like I can't be myself, my parents have always been so critical of everything I have done so I feel like I'm walking on eggshells the entire time.

Chin up....DRINK LOL

I delcared myself an orphan this year so I don't have to go to things like this. Your mom is lucky to have a considerate gurl like you. Thank you for respecting how difficult your choices might make things for her. I admire all of you who can be who you are but sometimes it's harder on the rest of us. Kudos to all of you who realize that. <hugs>

[Marla S]

Good Luck!
Thanks :hugs:


But I also remember the old saying That no good deed goes unpunished..Patricia..:drink: I have coffee life is good..
Indeed. And I am all for :coffee2:


Think how nice it will be to get back to your girlie things!

Mitch
I'll do :hugs:


OK get caught up in that forced thingy every year at deer camp ...the easiest way to get through it is what i do stay drunk for the whole week ....good luck ......
Hmmm ... stay drunk .... staying drunk ... hmmmm .... I will think about it :heehee:


You will get through it ok.

Take care
Yep, most likely.

Thanks :hugs:


Just a question? After a year of living large, can you pull it off? A lot of your mannerisms will almost surely be effeminate, and they will notice!
I don't know how visible my mannerism has changed.
I am known as the softy and sensitive one of the family anyway and the rest will hopefully be "covered" by the clothes ... I hope "clothes make the man" is sufficient:heehee:

I have no intention to work on my mannerism. That would just be too silly.


Hi Everyone: U R doing the right thing and U should never feel bad about that. As an adjunct to helping U cope I would advise wearing only lingerie under your clothes and perhaps U can wear a bra and garterbelt/nylons pantie or pantiegidle
and a slip or cami.

It would be no problem being alone with my mom, though we never talked she knows anyway (no doubt). But we will have guests in the house and it would be almost impossible to hide it.
So this is no option.

Anyway it will be an interesting experience.
Maybe I like it and stop CDing :lol:

[marie354]

I know just what you mean, but I can't do it.

Regina told me earlier today that we were invited to a 4th of July party at her sister's in N. Carolina.
I asked her if she told her about me yet, and no she didn't. I reminded her that I don't have any male clothes and there was bound to be someone there that would notice. We decided not to go for that and we really didn't want to spend $300-$400 on gasoline for a 1-2 day trip.:hugs:

[Marla S]

I admire all of you who can be who you are but sometimes it's harder on the rest of us. Kudos to all of you who realize that. <hugs>
I don't want to make myself a hero ... it's more about this weird feeling, that playing a role for a single week bothers me so much .... it almost feels like I would have to do something forbidden ... like crossdressing. :heehee:

Things seem to have turned upside down.

[Brianna Lovely]

I don't want to make myself a hero ... it's more about this weird feeling, that playing a role for a single week bothers me so much .... it almost feels like I would have to do something forbidden ... like crossdressing. :heehee:

Things seem to have turned upside down.

Marla, I know how you feel. Having said that, I'm at a point in my life, where I don't wear any male clothes, period. So, in a situation like yours, I would go as myself (that's semi-fem) and I'd feel sorry for anyone who would critisize me, but that's their problem, not mine.

Wish you well.

[Toyah]

I am respecting my mom. Though she knows at least part of the story and seems to accept it, it's her festivity, it's her time, it's her family, it's her friends. She deserves a good time and not a time being asked once in a while "What's up with your strange son ?"

So I'll play the boy in respect of her, despite she has seen me wearing girls clothes.

But that doesn't prevent me from feeling very strange, to an extend that surprises me.


I know how you feel in a way sometimes I just dont want to go to an event its not a CD thing because thats my time just I dont want to be with people its too hard sometimes

[BarbaraTalbot]

I was mostly repressing and then only dressing in absolute secrecy on what I am now seeing as more often than I strung together in my consciousness for 35 years or more. After a couple of months of cautious re-emergence, and a couple of weeks of openess with my sweet wife, I tried this voluntarily for a couple of days.

I didn't make it.

The best feeling was when I slid into a pair of Hanes Her Way just before I drifted off to sleep. Tell me you are at least packing a nightie! ~warm hugs~

[Kate Simmons]

Well, Marla, all I can say is that sometimes you have to be a "man" to go on being a "woman" or being yourself. You'll be okay my friend.:hugs:

[Chantelle CD]

Marla once again i find myself with a even greater respect for you!!

You are showing selfishlessness, in doing what you are doing, especially with it feeling odd and strange to change back to something that would make your mother happy. Focusing attention to your mom, being for her to please her, will add happy memories for her. She may not accept you for who you really are, or how you wish to be, that doesnt mean she doesnt love you with all her heart, it only means her ego and the way she thinks things should be, are a bit out dated, a lot of older generations are stuck in there ways. So we give them what will make them happy. i myself feel better doing something like that for others, I bet there will also be some messages or things that will happen that will deepen your sense of self even more. :) Doing for others also has a special and surprise gift for the giver, watch for it, i bet there will be one :)

Again, "respectful" :be:

[Ekatcha]

OK get caught up in that forced thingy every year at deer camp ...the easiest way to get through it is what i do stay drunk for the whole week ....good luck ......
ROTFL... This is the thing I've been thinking about all year this year... My father and I go hunting every fall (it's our one major thing of the year to do together)... and while it's not til november, I'm already dreading/thinking about it. I've been letting my hair grow out a bit (its not long yet, but will be by then), my nails grow, legs shaved... figuring on getting my ears pierced by then... and worrying about how that's all going to go over at deer camp. Yech!

Having to be all manly for the sake of relatives isn't something I'd wish on anyone (unless that's their desire). Putting others before yourself is noble but... one does hate to have to do that. I feel for you Marla... I'm sure you'll get through it though. Perhaps someday they'll just take you for you. We can dream can't we?