Just wanted to share my feelings...

[Melissa A.]

Hi girls,

Some of you may have noticed that I have not been around much lately. I do feel badly about that, as I think of all of you as my sisters. Unfortunately, proffesional obligations must always take precedence, and having started a new career this past fall, I have many such obligations. It's going to get worse before it gets better, and for the foreseeable future, my life will not be completely my own. But I believe, in the long run, the path I have chosen will be worth it.

Guess I just wanted to, while I have the time, stop to thank all of you who have been here to be a part of my life since coming here. It has been a hell of a year. Divorce, a new career, A reawakening of who I am and alot of thinking and searching. The suppression and denial cycles were put to rest. I found peace, and a new partner, who accepts me for who I am. I truly believe that this all was helped along and is, in part, the result of the friends I have found here.

Thank you for being there. Thank you for responding to my feelings,my questions, my breakthroughs, and of course, for the compliments. It all has meant so much to me.

Today, I have a rare day off, before all hell breaks loose again. So I am, of course, dressed. Feeling so pretty and serene, thinking about the next time my girlfriend and I go out together. I was so glad I was able to share the first time with all of you. Your replies overwhelmed me. Her and I are working on the long distance thing, and it won't be long.

If anyone had predicted that my life would be were it is now a little over a year ago. I would have told them they were dreaming (for me) and thanked them so much for caring. Now I am here. The turns your life can take, when you decide to be true to yourself, will never suprise me again. Well, maybe. I have learned never to underestimate the power of honesty and goal setting.

Sorry to go on. This, I'm afraid, is a somewhat self-indulgent thread. But I have come to realize that I have never(even though I thought so, in the past) really tasted true happiness. Now I just want it to last.

All of you who have answered my posts and sent me pm's know who you are. Thank you. To you and everyone else here, I have one thing to say:

Thank you, sister. I'm here for you. Just ask.

Love&hugs,

Melissa :)

[Tristen Cox]

Hey just glad you can make time to stop in and say hello. Sorry if I'm spread thin these days, I do try to read as much as I can and reply. But always feel like I'm missing someone. Hope I never missed you. *hugs*



Love
T

[kammi]

Hi girls,

Some of you may have noticed that I have not been around much lately. I do feel badly about that, as I think of all of you as my sisters. Unfortunately, proffesional obligations must always take precedence, and having started a new career this past fall, I have many such obligations. It's going to get worse before it gets better, and for the foreseeable future, my life will not be completely my own. But I believe, in the long run, the path I have chosen will be worth it.

Guess I just wanted to, while I have the time, stop to thank all of you who have been here to be a part of my life since coming here. It has been a hell of a year. Divorce, a new career, A reawakening of who I am and alot of thinking and searching. The suppression and denial cycles were put to rest. I found peace, and a new partner, who accepts me for who I am. I truly believe that this all was helped along and is, in part, the result of the friends I have found here.

Thank you for being there. Thank you for responding to my feelings,my questions, my breakthroughs, and of course, for the compliments. It all has meant so much to me.

Today, I have a rare day off, before all hell breaks loose again. So I am, of course, dressed. Feeling so pretty and serene, thinking about the next time my girlfriend and I go out together. I was so glad I was able to share the first time with all of you. Your replies overwhelmed me. Her and I are working on the long distance thing, and it won't be long.

If anyone had predicted that my life would be were it is now a little over a year ago. I would have told them they were dreaming (for me) and thanked them so much for caring. Now I am here. The turns your life can take, when you decide to be true to yourself, will never suprise me again. Well, maybe. I have learned never to underestimate the power of honesty and goal setting.

Sorry to go on. This, I'm afraid, is a somewhat self-indulgent thread. But I have come to realize that I have never(even though I thought so, in the past) really tasted true happiness. Now I just want it to last.

All of you who have answered my posts and sent me pm's know who you are. Thank you. To you and everyone else here, I have one thing to say:

Thank you, sister. I'm here for you. Just ask.

Love&hugs,

Melissa :)
Havent been here long hon but im glad things are going better for you luv kammi

[Julie York]

I must admit I do tend to make a lemon sucking face at some threads that are a little needy......(DON'T STOP READING!!!) [I'm not THAT horrible!!]


But it is so touching and wonderful to read a thread that is so heartfelt and genuine. You're a lovely person Melissa and you can be as self indulgent as you like because it is the real thing. I am very glad for you finding someone right for you and wish you the best in your new job. I didn't actually miss you because I've been off my head for 3 months. :D But well...you'll forgive me I'm sure.





(NOw can I have your shoes? I was nice and everything.))

[Melissa A.]

Thank you Julie, thank you so much. I have learned that you do not suffer fools gladly. I admire that. Means alot, coming from you.

If you ever submit a face pic, I wanna see that lemon sucking thingy!

Are you kidding about the shoes? I want yours!! Thought I made that clear, woman!

Hugs,


Melissa :)

[Priscilla1018]

Hi Melissa,

I am happy for you.When you find happiness in this world go for it.Post when you can sister.

Love and Hugs,
Priscilla

[Amelie]

Nice thread Melissa.
What do you mean,,,"your life will not be completely your own". Did you do the same thing I did,,, Did you sell your soul to the devil?

It's always nice to read your threads Melissa, except when you are talking about head-bangers.

Amelie

[Sharon]

It's not self-indulgent at all Melissa. I'm happy to see that things are going well for you, despite the fact that your new career keeps you away from the forum.
You deserve to bask in whatever happiness you can grasp and I hope it continues for you indefinitely.

Sharon

[Wendy me]

melissa happy and sad yes the bouth at the same time real happy to have you here and so happy for all the good things that have happened in your life and those yet to come as your life gets a little more hetic for the betterin the long run (good thing)
sad that you wont be around as mutch going to miss you .........but you are part of our little family.........like family we will be here to shear your good and hopefuly no bad news ..........stop in when you can your sisters are waiting to see you..........


huge hugs do real good just don't forget to stop by and visit when you can.........

[Sandra H]

Hi Melissa.

Very nice thread and well put together. I am so pleased that your life has turned around; although I did not help personally I understand what you mean when you say the forum helped you. It has been a great help to me over the past 11 months. So it is nice to hear that someone else has had as much help from the girls here as I have.

Take care of yourself and may your God watch over you and guide you through your new life.

[SilkenPrincess]

Melissa,
My favorite threads here are the ones that are openly from the heart. I think that's because that is where the real girl is. Thank you for letting all of us into your heart. I believe that many do not understand the honor that is given when they are invited into another's life. I do, and I thank you. Best wishes in your newfound relationship and in your future endeavors as well.
Love,
SilkenPrincess

[Joan of Art]

Hi Melissa,
I am a junior member and finding this form has been just what I needed in my life. I appreciate a senior members thought on everything and it is always good to hear from somebody who is excited about their life. I don't know you, but I do.

My journey has brought me to Joan and I am getting to know her as someone who has been inside of me forever. You and Tristen and all the girls have already been a help to me. I know what it feels life to be busy and so I have to schedule time to visit everyone here. I too like, SilkenPrincess, Stephanie, put it, relate to heartfelt communication. That's how we know each other.

My heart goes out to you and blessings to you and your Special Person in your life.

this is how it works; you just gave me an oppurtunity to share my heart with you.
Have Good Days,
Joan

[Melissa A.]

Gosh, this just confirms what a great place this is. Thanks,Tristen, Kammi, Priscilla, Amelie, Sharon, Wendy, Sandra, Silken Princess, and Joan of Art. The support one can find here is just beautiful. And lots of fun, too! You all, and many others here, have touched me in your own way. That's priceless.

I'm not going anywhere and will be here whenever I can. Won't ever leave this place behind. It has meant too much, helped far too much for me to ever go away.

Once again, I am overwhelmed by the caring and positive responses. Thank you, girls.

Hugs,

Melissa :)

[Ashleigh]

Hey Mel. Great to hear from you. I am just ecstatic about your progress and happiness and hope it multipies. New endeavors take effort and persistence. Those who are patient, persistent, and aren't afraid to put forth some effort are the successful ones.

Know that we are behind you and realize that your time has priorities. We will, however, be waiting anxiously for any posts that you so make when you have time.

Press on!

[DonnaT]

Sounds great Melissa! And if the work starts to stress on you, you just think about this site, and hopefully it will bring a smile on your face.

[Holly]

Hi Melissa,

This is a little bittersweet! I have great joy that your life is going well... great actually from the sound of it. The new career and the time it will take, understandable although regretable for us because it will tend to keep you away from us somewhat. But it will make the time that you are able to share with us all the sweeter! Just have one last thing to say... that new GF of yours? Smother her with your love. Don't let your new job intrude there. No career is worth losing a soulmate over.

I Love You, Sis!

[Paula A]

Melissa;
So glad to see that they finally gave you a day off, you deserve it. With that work schedule it must be difficult on you, your health and your life. It will work out for you, it will just take some time before things settle down to a normal schedule and routine, (I hope) that you can plan your life around.

I hope you enjoyed your day.

[SKINNYGIRL]

I want to thank you, Melissa, for helping me out.We've had some good conversations which have made me feel better about myself.

[Fallen Angel]

melisa,i realy believe that when god closes a door he opens a window some a little higher than others. i think its a test of faith in our selfs to over come osbstickles and indure (hope i spelled this right) sounds to me youve done just that! im glad for you in many ways your new life, job, and mate just stop in time to time dont forget us xx

[Julie]

Melissa never apologise for posting a ‘self-indulgent’ thread especially when it’s as interesting and informative as this one. I though apologise for replying to it so late, the time difference sometimes mean I read threads a little late.
What a year of high and lows you’ve gone through. It’s pleasing to know that things are now looking up for you despite the fact that for the near future you’re going to be fairly busy.
Outside interests have for some years now prevented me from devoting too much quality time to Julie, in the next few months I’ll be doing the reverse of you and dropping many of these interests and allowing more quality time for Julie.
Good luck Melissa on your new career and off course your relationship, I’ll look forward to your less often visits as much as I do now.



JJ

[Aloha_Dana]

Unfortunately, proffesional obligations must always take precedence, and having started a new career this past fall, I have many such obligations. It's going to get worse before it gets better, and for the foreseeable future, my life will not be completely my own. But I believe, in the long run, the path I have chosen will be worth it.

Melissa,

Don't be so down on yourself. Your life has change dramatically, and you've been in the driver's seat, and you're still there. No one has control over your life. It's you girl. It was your decision for the career change. You are in a new relationship, and you've come to terms with who you are and what you want.

Go get em!

Dana

[Helana]

Melissa,
True happiness is the goal of my life. But you have to be brave enough to reach out and grasp it even though there are many intervening pitfalls and risks. You have shown your bravery now you get to collect the reward. Always be yourself and make sure you dont lose sight of the goal. ;)

[Melissa A.]

Now you've all done it... gone and made me cry. Thanks for the caring and support, girls. It means so much.

I'm not going away, just won't be around quite as much. I can be called into work any time, 24/7, and am gone for a couple of days, usually. When I get back home, I'm entitled to 8-10 hrs. rest before they can call me in again. It will be that way for a while. Gotta pay your dues. But that won't keep me from spending time with my girlfriends.

It took me a long time to find that bravery, Helana. Thank you for the kind words. I think, unfortunately, humans need to go thru bad stuff before they find the strength to be who they are. The stuff that used to worry me or bother me all seems so silly and inconsequential now. Guess it's an ongoing process.

I love you all.

Hugs,

Melissa :)

[racquel]

We cherish the time you are with us Melissa, glad everthing is going good for you.Busy is not always a negative thing I've found.One line you wrote really sticks out for me,
"I have learned never to underestimate the power of honesty and goal setting."
Amen.

[CindyT]

So nice to know you are happy now! Do please stop by when you can and say hi, the new relationship sounds like fun! GOOD LUCK!

CindyT