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[Shining Star]

alright i am fianaly going to exspress the true me it a bit on the sappy side (thats right we are all ladies here we should handel it) the reason that i haven't told this is because i didn't want to bring this kind of thing to this forum

the real reason why i started dressing

It started when i was about 6 years old when my mother had raped me and then after that she had forced me on to my youngest sister who was living with us at the time (that is what i was told i vagley remember that day it was a long time ago ). then after that i had to have relax tape just to get me to to sleep ( this is mostly all that i can remember from so long ago ) then my mother and father broke up when i was 7 years old. (8 years later ) when i was 15 i was taking a bath and my best friend come in and asked if he could have a bath with me. i didn't make much of it back then. while we were having a bath he started talking about how i was a virgin and how he could fix that. he asked me if he could have sex with me being my curious self i agreed that went on for 6 months this time is when i started dressing. him and i was at the house and i saw the dress lying on my sisters bed i ask him if he would like to dress up with me. he said no but he told me that i could so i did. a couple of weeks after i had started dressing he came over to my place and he wanted to have sex i said no he got pissed off and in about 10mins later he left but i still continued dressing then at 19 i started going out with my first girlfriend it took me 3 months before i ask her if i coul wear a dress for her well she said that i could so in that 2 years that we were together i had the most fun dressing and being with her after we broke up i hade no one to share in the joy of my crossdressing and i haven't been in a relationship since thats about 4 to 5 years ago. i hope that covers everthing that every one wants to know thanks for listerning

[Tristen Cox]

Star I know that must have taken alot to say. You're not alone here. Many others have some stories that they are still reluctant to share because they are very personal and even truamatic. It takes courage to say these things even among friends who may have been in similiar situations. I commend you for trusting us. It's not easy, but it is a big step in the right direction. Life doesn't always make sense, however it's how we handle things that make the difference. I hope that you will find peace in letting these feelings out.

*hugs*
Tristen

[Wendy me]

star thanks for opening up like that ......it took a lot to do i am shure of that...........
our past is what makes us who we are today...........and we cant change that but were we go from now on is in our controll.......i hope that things just keep on getting better and better for you ..........family helpes you a lot well sister your family here .........

[Sharon]

It's a big step in being able to tell your story Star, and you did well! Thanks for sharing it. :)

[Julie York]

Hmmmmmmm.

[Priscilla1018]

Hi Star,

That took a lot of courage to share your story with us. Thank you.As Tristen said , maybe the healing can begin now. I hope so. You are our sister and we will always be here when needed.

Love and Hugs,
Priscilla

[paulaN]

thanks for sharing with us sistas. I bet you feel better already to let something like that out. there is alwys someone here to help out a fellow sista if you need it. this is such a great place to be, to share our thoughts and feelings no matter what thay are. and remember we're all in this together.

[Stephanie Brooks]

Hi Star!

You're brave to post that Lady. It takes much courage to do that. I don't know what to say, except you aren't entirely alone.

*BIG WARM HUGGLES*

[Julie]

alright i am fianaly going to exspress the true me it a bit on the sappy side (thats right we are all ladies here we should handel it) the reason that i haven't told this is because i didn't want to bring this kind of thing to this forum
Star I know it's been repeated many times in this thread already but it was very brave of you to post what you have, I know it couldn't have been easy for you to do and you obviously thought hard before doing so.

Thank you for trusting us enough to post this and although you might not realise it by doing so helps in the healing process as you are now not holding on to this inside. Tristen is quite right in that there are probably girls here or lurking who probably have similar stories to your own but are not yet ready to share them in such a public forum.

Thanks again Star and look after yourself.

JJ

[Shining Star]

thanks girls for your surport i do feel a lot better that i told you'se it has taken a big burden off my chest love youse all

[Holly]

Star,

I'm late to this thread (sorry:( ). You've shown true courage and for that I commend you. Now let your healing begin from within.

[ToniB]

What a Star!
I know you will feel that a burden has been lifted from your back, after telling that story. I also know how much courage was necessary to do it. Is this the first time you've told anyone?

I know because I felt that way when I came here and launched my first post. My own story is nowhere as traumatic, yet I felt the burden begin to lift from the moment I pressed the "send" button, and it diminishes every time I read a post from someone else who shares the same desires and likes the same activities. You soon realise that you are not alone, there's always someone who's been through the same pain as you have. I hope you find continuing and increasing relief in reading these replies to your post, and also take some solace that in having the courage to tell your story, there are sure to be many others who have read of your experiences, and are realising that they are not alone. You will be helping them to unburden themselves in the future. Mutual support is what this forum is all about.

Now it's time to put the past behind you, get on with your life, and have fun.

All the best,
ToniB

[Melissa A.]

Hi shining star,

I don't think it is certain that the trauma you experienced(twice in your life) directly led to cd. I had a fairly normal childhood, with some exceptions, and I cd. But a couple of things are fairly certain to me:

Your mother commited a crime. a serious, unforgivable felony. If she really did such horrible thing to her son, and she is alive and you know where she is, she should be held accountable for her actions, no matter how long ago it was.

I don't mean to sound like a know-it-all, but if you really did experience such a terrible thing, at the hands of your mom, no less, you should find a proffesional to talk to about it. It can only help. This has absolutely nothing to do with crossdressing. No one escapes a trauma like that unscathed.

That you can share something like this with us is probably a good thing, and my heart goes out to you. But this is serious stuff, and the matter-of-fact way that you describe it tells me you are not fully dealing with it, and you should.

Again, don't want to sound like a know-it-all, Or some armchair therapist. I am not. But please consider my advice.

Hugs,

Melissa :)

[DonnaT]

Thanks for sharing that Jessica

As the others have mentioned, and you as well, getting that out should be a relief.

Don't be afraid to let things out instead of bottling them up inside, it's good for the soul as well as one's health.

[Shining Star]

hi there toni b. yes this is the first time that i have told any one this i didn't even tell my x girlfriend.

[Wenda]

wow. that is heavy girl. honoured that you trust us sufficiently to share. Glad to hear you think it has helped. I agree with previous posts. No point trying to lay blame. We are where we are. We are who we are. now is now. Dressing is not a curse, it is a situation. It is who we are. No problem. You have a lot of friends and supporters here. Just learn to appreciate who you are, really, now, here. Glad you are here. wenda.

[Shining Star]

thanks wenda for you surport