Sally2005
07-21-2007, 12:06 AM
Recently, I've been taking anti-depressant medication. The drug's web site says it (seritonnin recepter inhibitor) can be used to treat compulsions, depression, shyness, etc. etc. I suffer from depression and the drug has helped keep out of the lows I was experiencing and I generally feel better than before. The result is subtle.
Related to CDing, which I describe as being a compulsive activity (I find it to be a stress relief) for me, what I notice is that I still have the desire to dress although it is not really based on an emotional need anymore. In fact, the apprehension around going out dressed or to the store to shop for female stuff is also gone. For example, I want to go get a makeover at MAC, something that would normally take me weeks to build up to, but now I feel like I could just waltz in there and do it. I have always been a little shy and that feeling of fear is less... Also, what I feel, is that I -could- stop the CDing because there is nothing pulling me to do it. However, I still want to get better at CDing, which I enjoy, so I do it for a different reason now.
I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced a similar thing? Also, its a message to anyone else who is depressed to consider the benefits of the medication.
Related to CDing, which I describe as being a compulsive activity (I find it to be a stress relief) for me, what I notice is that I still have the desire to dress although it is not really based on an emotional need anymore. In fact, the apprehension around going out dressed or to the store to shop for female stuff is also gone. For example, I want to go get a makeover at MAC, something that would normally take me weeks to build up to, but now I feel like I could just waltz in there and do it. I have always been a little shy and that feeling of fear is less... Also, what I feel, is that I -could- stop the CDing because there is nothing pulling me to do it. However, I still want to get better at CDing, which I enjoy, so I do it for a different reason now.
I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced a similar thing? Also, its a message to anyone else who is depressed to consider the benefits of the medication.