Emotions

[stellatoo]

Hi girls,
I don't know how to begin so i'll just say I don't know whats happening to me.
For a few months now I've been finding it hard to control my emotions, somebody says something nice (or nasty) and tears start to form in my eyes...
The other day i had a bit of a run in with someone at work and had to leave before I burst into tears.
This is not me, normally I'm a stone cold emotionless fish (outside of my "girl time":happy:)
I can't understand whats happening except that recently I've been thinking more and more of dressing, and living my life, as a girl.
Do you think the boundaries are blurring? And will I be able to have a discussion without having to wipe my tears or leave the room?
I know there are some GG's out there who are as girly as can be and still mange to be effective when under stress...

Any advice would be helpful

Thanks girls

Stella

[SatinDoll00]

One of the reasons I think that I am TG is that my emotions do get the better of me sometimes. Between my time dressing, it seems that they don't as much. Perhaps dressing and thinking fem makes us more so by getting us more in touch with these feelings? A few years ago I took some herbal suppliments that were supposed to have a feminizing effect. They didn't do much besides make me an emotional rollercoaster (1 min giggly and happy, next min crying, next raging b*tch!).

I stopped taking them pretty quickly, and didn't get any other effects...but that wouldn't account for my emotional bouts these days.

Morgan

[bgirl]

There have been times when the reality of something sneaks up on me and I can't escape it. Like life altering decisions, major purchases, falling in love, yes sometimes the desire to dress or fighting a purge. The term we are looking for is strees!
There comes a point we can only stuff so much crap inside and it comes bursting out. Repression can be a wonderful thing but it has its limits. And when the flood gates open, the best thing to do is embrace it.
Cry your eyes out until everything has a chance to washed and cleansed by those wonderful forbidden tears. The relief and the freedom from all that weight can be overwhelming.

That is perhaps the worst thing my dad did for me was saying "You want something to cry about? I will give you something to cry about!"
That and the ass whipping I got at 7 for wearing my moms clothes and make-up!

[KandisTX]

For years I was "emotionless" not so much that I didn't have any, but I never showed them. A few years *7* ago I was diagnosed with "IED" (Intermittant Explosive Disorder), and I was started on a regiment of Depakote (750mg per day). Once my body regulated to the medication, not only was my anger under control, but I noticed that my emotions seemed to be more prevailant. I find myself crying at "chick flicks", at first it was somewhat disturbing, but then I realized I am human and humans show emotions. I had spent so many years NOT showing them that it was somewhat a shock to see myself exhibiting these emotions.

I guess the point of this post is that hormones, medications, etc can all effect how your body handles emotions.

Kandis:love:

[_Cecilie_]

I get something similar sometimes. I don't know if it's related to the feelings towards dressing as a girl, but I can see a volleyball team win a match and I get tears in my eyes. Mostly it is when I see very happy things. I remember it happened a lot when I lived in Europe and saw handball. Often the womens handball (a lot better than mens btw) and when someone just scored a goal I'd tear up and wanted to start crying. I dont know if it might be that I wanted to be part of it or what. I even talked to my dad about it, without fiding out much more. Of course he doesn't know about my crossdressing. These days I mostly get that feeling when my girlfriend is away. I'm not sad or miss her like that. In guy mode some call me Iceman, so I'm not known for anything close to crying usually. Maybe it just needs to happen sometimes..

[Brianna Lovely]

Perhaps it is not the emotion, that we are feeling at the moment, but all those emotions we denied most of our lives.

Since accepting and embracing my fem-self, I too have had a bit of an emotional roller-coaster ride.

Since many boys-men are taught to hide their emotions, when we finally accept them we don't know how to deal with it. Many girls-women have lived with full emotions all their lives, they are used to dealing with them. We have to learn that our emotions are a "normal" part of life and learn to accept them.

Just this morning, I was in one of those moods, where I could cry at any moment. Then this thought came to me (shows the up-down emotional thing). What if I found myself in a situation, where some man was threatening me? What would I do?

My first thought/reaction was that I would cry and then slap him. My second thought/reaction was that I would beat the crap out of him, and then cry.

So, I guess I'm trying to say, embrace your emotions. They may be new to you, but live them and learn what it's like to really feel things and be a loving, honest person.

[Julie York]

It's called stress. It's horrible but it WILL go away when you feel less pressured. It probably has nothing at all to do with CD stuff.




A good way to relief the pressure is to read this thread. :D

"The word you are looking for is 'strees' " (a typo I know but it cracked me up.)

But if that doesn't cheer you up just think of the poor forum member who keeps exploding intermittently.:eek:


:D

[Marla]

I have always cried and been very emotional whether dressed or not! I have always felt as though this was a very good trait and people just expect it of me. My SO just says that Im a little bit feminine and I take that as a compliment. I just feel it inside.

[stellatoo]

Thanks ladies,

I think you're right and it's stress related.
I don't like the job very much-and am looking for another-and found out that they had lied to me in a part of it.
On top of this my home life is probably not as peaceful as it could be...

So I guess it all piles up. I'm really glad that there's this board and all you lovely girls to hold my hand

Love you all

Stella

[Rita B]

I have always cried and been very emotional whether dressed or not! I have always felt as though this was a very good trait and people just expect it of me. My SO just says that Im a little bit feminine and I take that as a compliment. I just feel it inside.I think that your SO is absolutely right. Personally, I think that being emotional at times is all part of being who and what we are.

[Rita B]

Look upon it as a gift. I think that whenever I feel emotional about something, I can sense the working of the Holy Spirit within me. This may sound corny but just think of what life would be like without any emotions.:hugs:

RitaB

[TiffanyTgirl]

I know I am more emotional now in my forties (yuk) than i was in my twenties. I have heard that men tend to be more emotional as they get older. It does seem to be the case for me. Things that really tug on your heart strings turn on my water works.

[RobertaFermina]

Stellatoo,

This is happening with me, though not as "fluid" or as frequently.

My whole being is opening up, more receptive, and more loving and outgoing.

I am changing.

I have been doing personal growth work for 10 years and no longer resemble the emotinally autistic, rageful, controlling shell that protected the sweet, loving, wise-child within.

The sweetness, compassion and wisdom is blossoming forth, and CDing has accellerated the pace. My personality is more openly feminine to the point of being balanced/androgynous with bouts of womanly vulnerability and tenderness. Even moisture and a few tears I would never have shed.

I welcome these changes...I am becoming the balance of masculinity and femininity that was distorted in order to "make me a man" in the dysfunctional way that culture around me *had* to do.

I feel SO MUCH BETTER NOW!

:love: and :hugs:

:rose: Roberta :rose:

[Kate Simmons]

Being male or female has nothing to do with our feelings. The sooner we all realize that, the better off we all are.:happy:

[Jocelyn Quivers]

The same thing happens to me. Whenever I get upset or angry for some reason tears immediately appear in my eyes, and I'm fighting back tears. In male mode I usually present myself as a tough rugid macho having no emotions type person. I can usually only hold tears back long enough to put on sunglasses so know one can see my red blood shot eyes whenever I get angry. Jocelyn

[Rita B]

I don't ever recall crying when I was angry. I do cry sometimes when I see something or hear music which I think is very beautiful. I also cry when I see someone in pain or hear of someone who has been abused or hurt.

[Deborah Jane]

As my male self i,m a cold hearted emotionless b*stard! As deborah i sometimes watch girly movies and get all weepy:o! it must all be connected to whatever gene it is that makes us want to be girly i guess

[Lanore]

I would say not to hide your emotions. Don't let the little stream turn in to a river someday. Marla says if well.

Lanore