Tara Julliette
07-31-2007, 10:26 AM
Its been some weeks since Ive been to the forum. Life has been busy.
Hello everyone.
I love this opportunity to tell you about what I can't say aloud...just yet. I hope by sharing this it will of help and interest to you.
Reading the Four Stages Of Crossdressing, stage one is definitely where I'm at...and its nice. Wearing panty hose under my trousers to work and out to dinner with friends has become a really nice part of my day and I do it often now. I find its a feeling that brings out a sense of feminity and that is really nice, one feels lightness and a joy. it effects the mind bringing forward emotions that as a male tend to be latent.
Do you find something like that?
I have been brousing the makeup sections and womens fashion departments and dress shops...and love window shopping, looking at all the current dress designs, underwear and high healed shoes. I must admit that if I were to step into a new career it would be womens fashion design. I loved watching The Devil Wears Prada. I think I have mentioned this before.
Have you seen it...?
I find often when walking alone I enjoy walking with a feminine step which is such a nice feeling. Often making gestures with my hands or when sitting down or when dressing that are decidedly feminine. In private it doesn't matter-no-one can see LOL. Though today I found myself having to check abit so as not to excentuate my walk unintentionally in the office...or maybe it was intentional! LOL The thought generates a smile from inside. As I sit here with pantyhose and satin dressing gown.
Swing those hips...
Its winter now so wearing warm bright coloured scarves is one way I have found of feeling and expressing feminine without feeling uncomfortable in public...who'ever I'm with. I love brousing the girls clothing racks at the market on Sundays. And just watching others shop is fun.
I increasingly understand the fun of retail therapy...
Found some beautiful indian made shawls recently, such gentle colours and needle work. Will buy one soon. I bought a beautiful new cashmere scarf on the weekend in a rich deep pink colour which I happily wear with my male clothes. Ive a colourful personality so from the outside its just me, from the inside I feel beautiful. Would love to step out and wear with a wig-maybe as a readhead, lipstick, mascara etc. That would be fun. You will be the first to know when it happens. LOL
Brousing through womens fashion magazines is really fun. The online shops are great and so easy to order stuff. Girls really do have fun with their clothes options.
Often, when no-one else is home I sit watching TV with just a sweater and pantyhose on. Such a lovely free feeling. Now I stand at the pantyhose section of the supermarket with a shopping list to look a bit less conspicuous...that always give me a chuckle.
Just before going to sleep each night, I love to put on some hand and body lotion and go to sleep with that gentle fragrance on my skin.
I must admit I have wondered what it would be like to have breasts, to have a female body, not have to shave and have soft feminine features.
I remember going to an all male revue years ago, and being absolutely fascinated by the men, all dressed as women, for me they were so beautiful and I have harboured a wish to go down that path just once.
At times I have wondered maybe Im gay, a little bit camp, questioning 'why am I thinking this way'...we all have fantasies, homosexual like heterosexual tendancies are part of our male and female human makeup I feel, more for some less for others.
Personally, where there was discomfort before, now I find I can look at another man, there may be a chemistry...who knows, and see attractive qualities. But life is afterall about choices.
We are all human wishing to find inner peace and happiness.
So for this stage one crossdresser, its nice to be male, to be a man, and to love the intimate company of a woman, of that special companion, the sound the touch the smell.
Now I really take notice in what female friends are wearing, complementing with sincerity and genuine interest of their new style, clothes or makeup.
You really look lovely.
Thankyou Forum, for you have helped me greatly. To understand my inner self much more clearly. For that you have my sincere gratitude.
It is through this very personal process of self discovery I have become much more comfortable with who I am. A young man about to turn 50 this week. I love colour, fashion, beautiful things, the feminine figure, womens fashion, beauty, the scent of beautiful perfume. The feeling of dressing up. Feeling special.
What have I found out?
I have discovered a joy at letting go, to feel good inside, to feel good about oneself, be truthful to myself. I love to feel feminine at times, and love to feel and be the male I was born. This male body is OK.
To express one feelings about what one finds beautiful openly, honestly, without offence.
It is a sense of self confidence that begins to blossum. Arising from a sense of honesty about who and what one is. It is the confidence to say 'I love you' to yourself and to all you come in contact with.
So I may never go beyond stage one, except in harmless daydreaming, but I am a better person for having explored this path.
I hope my words are of some help and insight to you.
Please let me know your thoughts.
Wishing you good health and happiness always.
Tara Odette.
Hello everyone.
I love this opportunity to tell you about what I can't say aloud...just yet. I hope by sharing this it will of help and interest to you.
Reading the Four Stages Of Crossdressing, stage one is definitely where I'm at...and its nice. Wearing panty hose under my trousers to work and out to dinner with friends has become a really nice part of my day and I do it often now. I find its a feeling that brings out a sense of feminity and that is really nice, one feels lightness and a joy. it effects the mind bringing forward emotions that as a male tend to be latent.
Do you find something like that?
I have been brousing the makeup sections and womens fashion departments and dress shops...and love window shopping, looking at all the current dress designs, underwear and high healed shoes. I must admit that if I were to step into a new career it would be womens fashion design. I loved watching The Devil Wears Prada. I think I have mentioned this before.
Have you seen it...?
I find often when walking alone I enjoy walking with a feminine step which is such a nice feeling. Often making gestures with my hands or when sitting down or when dressing that are decidedly feminine. In private it doesn't matter-no-one can see LOL. Though today I found myself having to check abit so as not to excentuate my walk unintentionally in the office...or maybe it was intentional! LOL The thought generates a smile from inside. As I sit here with pantyhose and satin dressing gown.
Swing those hips...
Its winter now so wearing warm bright coloured scarves is one way I have found of feeling and expressing feminine without feeling uncomfortable in public...who'ever I'm with. I love brousing the girls clothing racks at the market on Sundays. And just watching others shop is fun.
I increasingly understand the fun of retail therapy...
Found some beautiful indian made shawls recently, such gentle colours and needle work. Will buy one soon. I bought a beautiful new cashmere scarf on the weekend in a rich deep pink colour which I happily wear with my male clothes. Ive a colourful personality so from the outside its just me, from the inside I feel beautiful. Would love to step out and wear with a wig-maybe as a readhead, lipstick, mascara etc. That would be fun. You will be the first to know when it happens. LOL
Brousing through womens fashion magazines is really fun. The online shops are great and so easy to order stuff. Girls really do have fun with their clothes options.
Often, when no-one else is home I sit watching TV with just a sweater and pantyhose on. Such a lovely free feeling. Now I stand at the pantyhose section of the supermarket with a shopping list to look a bit less conspicuous...that always give me a chuckle.
Just before going to sleep each night, I love to put on some hand and body lotion and go to sleep with that gentle fragrance on my skin.
I must admit I have wondered what it would be like to have breasts, to have a female body, not have to shave and have soft feminine features.
I remember going to an all male revue years ago, and being absolutely fascinated by the men, all dressed as women, for me they were so beautiful and I have harboured a wish to go down that path just once.
At times I have wondered maybe Im gay, a little bit camp, questioning 'why am I thinking this way'...we all have fantasies, homosexual like heterosexual tendancies are part of our male and female human makeup I feel, more for some less for others.
Personally, where there was discomfort before, now I find I can look at another man, there may be a chemistry...who knows, and see attractive qualities. But life is afterall about choices.
We are all human wishing to find inner peace and happiness.
So for this stage one crossdresser, its nice to be male, to be a man, and to love the intimate company of a woman, of that special companion, the sound the touch the smell.
Now I really take notice in what female friends are wearing, complementing with sincerity and genuine interest of their new style, clothes or makeup.
You really look lovely.
Thankyou Forum, for you have helped me greatly. To understand my inner self much more clearly. For that you have my sincere gratitude.
It is through this very personal process of self discovery I have become much more comfortable with who I am. A young man about to turn 50 this week. I love colour, fashion, beautiful things, the feminine figure, womens fashion, beauty, the scent of beautiful perfume. The feeling of dressing up. Feeling special.
What have I found out?
I have discovered a joy at letting go, to feel good inside, to feel good about oneself, be truthful to myself. I love to feel feminine at times, and love to feel and be the male I was born. This male body is OK.
To express one feelings about what one finds beautiful openly, honestly, without offence.
It is a sense of self confidence that begins to blossum. Arising from a sense of honesty about who and what one is. It is the confidence to say 'I love you' to yourself and to all you come in contact with.
So I may never go beyond stage one, except in harmless daydreaming, but I am a better person for having explored this path.
I hope my words are of some help and insight to you.
Please let me know your thoughts.
Wishing you good health and happiness always.
Tara Odette.