joann07
08-01-2007, 03:26 PM
Hello all,
Just wanted to share this with you all.
The other night, I took another big step and told a long time friend because it had been building up inside me for some time. I was so nervous my hands were shaking, but I felt that I couldn’t keep it from him forever. I think, eventually, he would've found out, but it would not have been in the best situation. His wife has known this since last year and, sooner or later, I'm sure he would've found out by accidentally walking into a conversation between me and her or possibly seeing an email suspecting something was up (i.e. She and I having an affair? Heaven sakes NO!!!), or whatever, so I felt like I'd better do it now rather than suffer the consequences and embarrassment.
Earlier, we had been eating dinner at their place and, after we were done, got into a nice conversation about life and me dating GGs and all, so then I decided that now was the right time. I had given his wife advance notice, so that she would act surprised, and then I started off by mentioning to them that I wanted to tell him something serious. I told them that I considered them like another brother and sister because we were all very close and I've known them for so long. My friend seemed a little puzzled as to why I was saying that and then the next thing I did was go on the internet and tell them that I had a girlfriend. He asked me who it was and so I showed them a picture of myself in full femme.
My friend looked at it for a few moments and said that he didn't recognize her. He kept asking who it was and I just said to look closely. His wife, acting the part, looked and said that she sort of looks familiar.
He kept analzying it and then she started to look very familiar. He looked up at me and said "Is that you?!!" So, I took off my shoe to expose my nylon covered feet then, finally, I said to him that it was me. He was shocked and couldn't believe what he was seeing. He kept starring at the picture in disbelief so I gave him a moment to soak it in and then he started pacing around, in total surprise. Me and his wife kept smiling at each other as we watched him walk around talking to himself and rambling off with all kinds of questions.
He asked me how long I was doing it and I told him that I had been doing this for almost a year. He kept asking more questions, such as, how many times have I been out, where to do I go, am I gay, etc, etc. Again, his wife did a pretty good job of acting the part. She also asked some questions including whether I wanted to have a sex change and I most certainly said "No!". I told him that I was completely straight and that I am attracted to women, but at the same time, I like to wear the clothes they wear. He didn't quite understand why and so he started asking me more detailed questions about how I got into it and what it is about wearing women's clothes that I like and so I explained it to him.
I'm glad his wife was there because she helped to sooth his initial shock and helped him to understand.
After a while, he began to relax and came back to the computer to look at more pictures. Still somewhat it shock, I would show him a new picture and he would notice something different. He'd comment about my make up, a bracelet, or a necklace I'd be wearing and ask where I got them and how I put them on, especially the makeup.
I told him that I've had a lot of practice because I go to my support group meetings every month and also learn by just watching.
He asked what I do at these meetings and I just said that its a place where I can meet other CDers, be dressed, and be myself.
Then, he asked me about the earrings I was wearing so I mentioned that they're only clip-ons because I can't pierce my ears. He looked at my ears just to be sure and then he went back to viewing my pictures.
He asked if there's anyone else that knew and I said, last year, I told another good friend of ours and he kind of bitched at me for not telling him at that time. I said that I wanted to, but didn't feel like it was the right time. :(
Anway, this Q&A went on for a while, until finally he soaked it all in, but in the end he said that he doesn't have a problem with me, now that he knows. He still wished that I had told them earlier, but oh well.
I also told him that he and his family would never see me dressed and that he would only see me in pictures.
He asked if anyone in my immediate family knows and I said "No! He said that was good because he's sure that my folks would most definitely not understand and would probably disown me if I did.
Now he knows and is accepting of me so everything is fine. :hugs:
I know he'll be joking or razzing me for rest of my life, but they're such good friends that I know I can trust them to keep it a secret.
After telling him, I really felt relieved as if another weight fell off my shoulders.
The next day, we were going on with our lives just as we were before. :happy:
Hugs!
Just wanted to share this with you all.
The other night, I took another big step and told a long time friend because it had been building up inside me for some time. I was so nervous my hands were shaking, but I felt that I couldn’t keep it from him forever. I think, eventually, he would've found out, but it would not have been in the best situation. His wife has known this since last year and, sooner or later, I'm sure he would've found out by accidentally walking into a conversation between me and her or possibly seeing an email suspecting something was up (i.e. She and I having an affair? Heaven sakes NO!!!), or whatever, so I felt like I'd better do it now rather than suffer the consequences and embarrassment.
Earlier, we had been eating dinner at their place and, after we were done, got into a nice conversation about life and me dating GGs and all, so then I decided that now was the right time. I had given his wife advance notice, so that she would act surprised, and then I started off by mentioning to them that I wanted to tell him something serious. I told them that I considered them like another brother and sister because we were all very close and I've known them for so long. My friend seemed a little puzzled as to why I was saying that and then the next thing I did was go on the internet and tell them that I had a girlfriend. He asked me who it was and so I showed them a picture of myself in full femme.
My friend looked at it for a few moments and said that he didn't recognize her. He kept asking who it was and I just said to look closely. His wife, acting the part, looked and said that she sort of looks familiar.
He kept analzying it and then she started to look very familiar. He looked up at me and said "Is that you?!!" So, I took off my shoe to expose my nylon covered feet then, finally, I said to him that it was me. He was shocked and couldn't believe what he was seeing. He kept starring at the picture in disbelief so I gave him a moment to soak it in and then he started pacing around, in total surprise. Me and his wife kept smiling at each other as we watched him walk around talking to himself and rambling off with all kinds of questions.
He asked me how long I was doing it and I told him that I had been doing this for almost a year. He kept asking more questions, such as, how many times have I been out, where to do I go, am I gay, etc, etc. Again, his wife did a pretty good job of acting the part. She also asked some questions including whether I wanted to have a sex change and I most certainly said "No!". I told him that I was completely straight and that I am attracted to women, but at the same time, I like to wear the clothes they wear. He didn't quite understand why and so he started asking me more detailed questions about how I got into it and what it is about wearing women's clothes that I like and so I explained it to him.
I'm glad his wife was there because she helped to sooth his initial shock and helped him to understand.
After a while, he began to relax and came back to the computer to look at more pictures. Still somewhat it shock, I would show him a new picture and he would notice something different. He'd comment about my make up, a bracelet, or a necklace I'd be wearing and ask where I got them and how I put them on, especially the makeup.
I told him that I've had a lot of practice because I go to my support group meetings every month and also learn by just watching.
He asked what I do at these meetings and I just said that its a place where I can meet other CDers, be dressed, and be myself.
Then, he asked me about the earrings I was wearing so I mentioned that they're only clip-ons because I can't pierce my ears. He looked at my ears just to be sure and then he went back to viewing my pictures.
He asked if there's anyone else that knew and I said, last year, I told another good friend of ours and he kind of bitched at me for not telling him at that time. I said that I wanted to, but didn't feel like it was the right time. :(
Anway, this Q&A went on for a while, until finally he soaked it all in, but in the end he said that he doesn't have a problem with me, now that he knows. He still wished that I had told them earlier, but oh well.
I also told him that he and his family would never see me dressed and that he would only see me in pictures.
He asked if anyone in my immediate family knows and I said "No! He said that was good because he's sure that my folks would most definitely not understand and would probably disown me if I did.
Now he knows and is accepting of me so everything is fine. :hugs:
I know he'll be joking or razzing me for rest of my life, but they're such good friends that I know I can trust them to keep it a secret.
After telling him, I really felt relieved as if another weight fell off my shoulders.
The next day, we were going on with our lives just as we were before. :happy:
Hugs!