Sherrie
08-05-2007, 06:21 PM
Hi everyone. It has been quite a while since I have been here. Lots of things happening in my life. I became a member of a local Tri-Ess group in Orlando/Kissimmee Florida. I've been going to the meetings since January. I also have become just about as full time as I can be, dressing most everyday after work. I am almost dressed all the time now. I've been going through a bit of turmoil as well. Fighting with having to and needing to tell my father about what is going on in my life. I finally did so, and he still loves me. I was very pleasantly surprised. I dreaded doing so, but in retrospect I am glad I finally did. I should have done so a long time ago. The thing that was hardest I guess, is telling him that I am more than just a crossdresser. I am and have been for a couple of years considering transitioning. Now I am going through with my transition. I am more than just a crossdresser, and I guess that was the hardest thing to tell him. I told my mother at least a year before I told my dad. It is such a relief now that my family knows. They did not push me away, but have kept me just as close as before. Something I feared greatly was being rejected by my family. Of course they don't understand, and really neither do I. It got to the point that I knew I had to tell him, because I was finding out that people who I would have never thought knew, know, and that got back to me. I was kind of shocked that so many knew of my activities. I live in a small town, so I guess word gets around fast. I didn't want someone telling him before I did. Of course I have had to answer some questions that are difficult to answer. Some about my sexuality, dating and overall feelings. I have never been open about my feelings, especially towards my family. I learned when I was younger how to hide, disguise, and extinguish any emotion. Now I am relearning to let my emotions back out, and it feels good. To cry when I am sad or when I am happy. To share my feelings with someone. I feel so wonderful as a woman. It is a shame it took me so long to realize and find out that I am and not be in denial, or depression about something I had for a long time in my younger days felt was a bad thing. I am so much more comfortable and relaxed.
I guess enough of my rambling. Anyway it is good to be back, no longer hiding in a closet. I hope I have not bored you all with this. Just some thoughts I guess I needed to write.
I guess enough of my rambling. Anyway it is good to be back, no longer hiding in a closet. I hope I have not bored you all with this. Just some thoughts I guess I needed to write.