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Maggie Kay
08-19-2007, 12:34 PM
Yesterday, I was out shopping with my SO and daughter. I was pretty much in DRAB but still sporting my long pony tail and Zirconia post earrings. We were at Costco and had lunch. Normally, I can wait until I am home before I need to go to the bathroom but since I recently started Spiro, I know that when I feel the need, I better deal with it. Normally, the prospect of using the Men's room would have sent me into a panic attack but now that my HRT doesn't include Progesterone, this time, I was fine with it. After all, I was dressed mostly in DRAB so why not take advantage of the costume I was wearing. My confidence is way up. I entered the men's room and headed for a stall. I just can't use urinals anymore. I'm in there doing my business and several men come in talking pretty crudely which kinda made me cringe. The place felt so foreign to me. I hadn't been in one in a year of more.

After, I was finished and left the stall to wash my hands, I see a mid forties man beside me at the sinks, he turns toward me and just stands there glaring at me. Guys never did this to me before. I suppose that my facial appearance and the fact that I have boobs overcomes the DRAB clothes now. I suddenly realized that I could be in danger. Believe it or not, I found myself forgetting to know how to use the soap dispenser and those IR triggered faucets. I felt like he could tell I didn't belong there. It seemed like hours but eventually, I managed and he just turned away from me and left. Walking back to the tables to rejoin my family, my SO asks," Are you alright?, did anything happen?". "I'm fine" I replied as I didn't want to upset them. However, I wonder what would have happened if I was in my femme slacks and top that I usually wear. Needless to say, I won't be visiting the Men's room anytime soon. I find it kinda neat actually and discussed it with my SO. However, she would not go along with the idea that I could go in DRAG and use the ladies room. Ah the pleasures of gender jail....

Scotty
08-26-2007, 02:03 AM
Funny you mention that about boobs.

Lately I'm wearing Medium T-shirts again as that's my size but my breasts are sticking out, especially in one of my sports I play.

I stopped HRT a couple months ago, but nothing is shrinking, not much anyway - they are here for good. And they are half A to A's still. Actually getting girth on them vs going out further - despite no hormones....

I've been in gyms or whatnot, public bathrooms changing and forgotten all about them and my navel ring, and guys stopped to stare and it's like "oh oh".....

but on the other hand one guy smiled and said "Nice" and I went home beaming...so maybe it's not so bad..

But you are out, far far more than me. I haven't worn more than womens jeans and panties in almost a year now. Do be careful!

It's amazing the feelings of having T back in my system. It gives me strength to do certain things that emotionally I might not have done, but it also takes away the strength to be femme, if that makes any sense...I want to go back on sooooooooooo bad....I'm experimenting to see if I can fit back into society....it's not working...but we knew that would happen.

melissaK
08-26-2007, 09:37 AM
[. Ah the pleasures of gender jail....[/FONT]

That struck me as funny. :heehee: Don't think I have heard it put that way. Also reminded me of an old Eagles song lyric:

Well I know it wasn't you who held me down
Heaven knows it wasn't you who set me free
So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains
And we never even know we have the key

Glad you survived the rest room. Ugh. Then again. Maybe you made some other guy think for the first time in his life about the gender spectrum. Or, as my therapist might tease me, how do you know he wasn't a former FTM staring due to his mental quandry of trying to decide whether to talk about your similarities?

hugs,
'lissa

Maggie Kay
08-26-2007, 04:25 PM
I have been thinking about the event and particularly why he might be acting that way. I think he might have seen me pull up my panties through the crack in the stall door. The glare of his eyes and him standing inches away while I tried to wash my hands was really eerie. I will never know but will be much more cautious in public. I can see the benefit of full femme now. At least, I could p** in peace in the ladies room.

Maggie Kay
08-30-2007, 04:04 PM
Gee, maybe he was luring at me like that Senator did in the men's room at that airport, recently.
YUCK