SarahAnn
08-26-2007, 07:44 PM
Hi.
I have scanned through many posts in here, I have not posted anything to date. I have been a member of many TV sites over the years, through time I realised I did not fit in such sites but through the internet discovered I was not alone in feeling that I should be a woman and my body dosent fit with who i am.
So after reading many others TS websites and their stories many common factors became obvious to me. Now I have always known that things were not right with me and mistike it for many different things over the years. But I never married or had any children (through my own choice). I also delt with all my psychological issues myself and worked them all through. Before starting on the road to change. I ensured I got myself a good employer where I could transition, saved some money, and perpared the ground over the last 5 years taking step by calculated step. This took great focus, lots of patience and working hard.
Now I have been living full time since the 2nd April 2007 and working full time since 12th April 2007 as sarah my real self.
Everything has been easy and smooth with absolutly no problems (except acceptance by my parents of my transitioning........early days yet they will come round). Now I am in the publics eye every day when at work I work in the busiest underground station on London Underground on the gates and on the platforms. So I am seen by at least 10,000 people evey day minimum. I have had hugs kisses,given flowers all from complete strangers the travelling public and compliments everyday.about 0.1% might make a degoragtory remark which does not upset me at all. Now I havent even started on any hormones yet that should happen in another 3 weeks from now.
From my experience with chatting to many other TS girls at various stages online over the years and in forums such as these I do feel that I need to point out something that I commonly find among many such girls.
So many TS think that by transitioning they will solve all their problems especially the psychological ones.
My advice is simple. Before taking any steps on the road to change you should deal with ALL issues that you have within yourself and your life. get those sorted out, accept things about yourself ,your emotional self should be centered after all I have met so many MAD TS girls all over the place due to a combination of hangs ups,issues with themselves and their lives,being unemployed and struggling on little or no money, having unrealist dreams and aspirations thus feeling or having even lower self esteem issues compound this with self administering hormones. This is a cocktail for a disaster waiting to happen unless such person has real great and deep inner strength and resolve.
Why make things more difficult for ones self ? I know that each and everyone of us has different situations ,backgrounds education , job skills etc. But on average the IQ of a TS is 30 points higher than their average original body gender type, this is a resource that should be harnessed by all TS to reach their individual goals in transitioning.
The hardest thing is gaining some degree of emotions and not allowing our emotions to controll us fully and lead us into making poor decisions based on desire and not using the powers of reasoning we all posses. Gaining such balance is not easy I Know having trodden that road but gaining equilibrium with emotions and interllect brings its own inner peace and also some patience which since I did so have found that mistakes through poorjudgement have been elliminated in my life yet I still posses the intuition to know / feel what is right to do / act upon. since which everything has clicked and over the last 5 years all my objectives and goals have been achieved with no cost emotionally or finacially (other than the usuall costs such as Laser for hair removal / replacing whole wardrobes etc).
I am just trying to pass on some sensible advice for others just starting out.
1: Dont put all your lifes problems down to you not being a woman in body and living that life, the same problems will follow you even when transitioned unless confronted and delt with.
2: Get external expert advice and assesments about your true status . Its easy to self delude and find years later that we made a terrible mistake. Even though I knew that I was a woman inside I still made sure by every means neccessary to ensure that I wasnt deluding myself and entering into some kind of fantasy life. Yes you may well know for sure but if that is the case then it will only be confirmed.
3: Do Not self medicate I so desire for my body to change but Hormones are powerfull drugs and for each and everyone of us what we will be prescribed will be different either in amount or what type of hormone and how it is taken weather orrally, injected ,patches as different people can have different reactions to the hormones they can affect liver function and you need to be monitored for high blood pressure etc.
4: Live the real life test if you know you are a woman then live as one without any medication, work as a woman you will certainly know if you feel right after a year or two of doing so. Of course you can still take steps to the change whilst doing so such as hair removal on face.
5: Do listen to what others may tell you although I'am only 5 months into living and working full time as Sarah everyone who has ever known me tells me how much more relaxed I'am how much at ease I seem to be and of course how much happier I am. Hence for me its obvious Iam living how I should have ( wish I had done this when I was 16-18 though things where very different then). our friends can see things about us that we may not see.
6: make goals objectives to aim for and at. This will also help you know how much closer you are to being ready for the full change.
I of course would have loved to simply wake up one day and be a full woman but that was never going to happen (though a nice dream).
Yes for me every step has been brilliant absolutly no problems,My local shop just accept me as have all my neigbours,my Local supermarket know me well now and again no problems, I commute on the train to work most days again no problems. As I have tried to tell so many others including CD's its all about how you carry yourself when out and about head level look eye to eye not at my feet or ground I smile a lot act just like I have everyright to be where I'am. I know that different places may be more Macho or have backwards attitudes which if I found myself in such situation I would move to somewhere else with more enlightened attitudes.
believe me I have been poor homeless forever changing jobs,had trouble maintaing relationships,sexual hang ups and issues. Once I decided what I needed to do and what I wanted I worked 7 days a week paid of debts started getting new clothes going out meeting others step by step it can happen and when it does your life will be more fufilling and happier.
I post here for others to find inspiration...to find self belief......to avoid making mistakes that could be avoided .....to know a better life does await.
I hope you find something usefull in my thread.
Wishing all sisters
get what they need and a happier life ahead.
Sarah.XXX
I have scanned through many posts in here, I have not posted anything to date. I have been a member of many TV sites over the years, through time I realised I did not fit in such sites but through the internet discovered I was not alone in feeling that I should be a woman and my body dosent fit with who i am.
So after reading many others TS websites and their stories many common factors became obvious to me. Now I have always known that things were not right with me and mistike it for many different things over the years. But I never married or had any children (through my own choice). I also delt with all my psychological issues myself and worked them all through. Before starting on the road to change. I ensured I got myself a good employer where I could transition, saved some money, and perpared the ground over the last 5 years taking step by calculated step. This took great focus, lots of patience and working hard.
Now I have been living full time since the 2nd April 2007 and working full time since 12th April 2007 as sarah my real self.
Everything has been easy and smooth with absolutly no problems (except acceptance by my parents of my transitioning........early days yet they will come round). Now I am in the publics eye every day when at work I work in the busiest underground station on London Underground on the gates and on the platforms. So I am seen by at least 10,000 people evey day minimum. I have had hugs kisses,given flowers all from complete strangers the travelling public and compliments everyday.about 0.1% might make a degoragtory remark which does not upset me at all. Now I havent even started on any hormones yet that should happen in another 3 weeks from now.
From my experience with chatting to many other TS girls at various stages online over the years and in forums such as these I do feel that I need to point out something that I commonly find among many such girls.
So many TS think that by transitioning they will solve all their problems especially the psychological ones.
My advice is simple. Before taking any steps on the road to change you should deal with ALL issues that you have within yourself and your life. get those sorted out, accept things about yourself ,your emotional self should be centered after all I have met so many MAD TS girls all over the place due to a combination of hangs ups,issues with themselves and their lives,being unemployed and struggling on little or no money, having unrealist dreams and aspirations thus feeling or having even lower self esteem issues compound this with self administering hormones. This is a cocktail for a disaster waiting to happen unless such person has real great and deep inner strength and resolve.
Why make things more difficult for ones self ? I know that each and everyone of us has different situations ,backgrounds education , job skills etc. But on average the IQ of a TS is 30 points higher than their average original body gender type, this is a resource that should be harnessed by all TS to reach their individual goals in transitioning.
The hardest thing is gaining some degree of emotions and not allowing our emotions to controll us fully and lead us into making poor decisions based on desire and not using the powers of reasoning we all posses. Gaining such balance is not easy I Know having trodden that road but gaining equilibrium with emotions and interllect brings its own inner peace and also some patience which since I did so have found that mistakes through poorjudgement have been elliminated in my life yet I still posses the intuition to know / feel what is right to do / act upon. since which everything has clicked and over the last 5 years all my objectives and goals have been achieved with no cost emotionally or finacially (other than the usuall costs such as Laser for hair removal / replacing whole wardrobes etc).
I am just trying to pass on some sensible advice for others just starting out.
1: Dont put all your lifes problems down to you not being a woman in body and living that life, the same problems will follow you even when transitioned unless confronted and delt with.
2: Get external expert advice and assesments about your true status . Its easy to self delude and find years later that we made a terrible mistake. Even though I knew that I was a woman inside I still made sure by every means neccessary to ensure that I wasnt deluding myself and entering into some kind of fantasy life. Yes you may well know for sure but if that is the case then it will only be confirmed.
3: Do Not self medicate I so desire for my body to change but Hormones are powerfull drugs and for each and everyone of us what we will be prescribed will be different either in amount or what type of hormone and how it is taken weather orrally, injected ,patches as different people can have different reactions to the hormones they can affect liver function and you need to be monitored for high blood pressure etc.
4: Live the real life test if you know you are a woman then live as one without any medication, work as a woman you will certainly know if you feel right after a year or two of doing so. Of course you can still take steps to the change whilst doing so such as hair removal on face.
5: Do listen to what others may tell you although I'am only 5 months into living and working full time as Sarah everyone who has ever known me tells me how much more relaxed I'am how much at ease I seem to be and of course how much happier I am. Hence for me its obvious Iam living how I should have ( wish I had done this when I was 16-18 though things where very different then). our friends can see things about us that we may not see.
6: make goals objectives to aim for and at. This will also help you know how much closer you are to being ready for the full change.
I of course would have loved to simply wake up one day and be a full woman but that was never going to happen (though a nice dream).
Yes for me every step has been brilliant absolutly no problems,My local shop just accept me as have all my neigbours,my Local supermarket know me well now and again no problems, I commute on the train to work most days again no problems. As I have tried to tell so many others including CD's its all about how you carry yourself when out and about head level look eye to eye not at my feet or ground I smile a lot act just like I have everyright to be where I'am. I know that different places may be more Macho or have backwards attitudes which if I found myself in such situation I would move to somewhere else with more enlightened attitudes.
believe me I have been poor homeless forever changing jobs,had trouble maintaing relationships,sexual hang ups and issues. Once I decided what I needed to do and what I wanted I worked 7 days a week paid of debts started getting new clothes going out meeting others step by step it can happen and when it does your life will be more fufilling and happier.
I post here for others to find inspiration...to find self belief......to avoid making mistakes that could be avoided .....to know a better life does await.
I hope you find something usefull in my thread.
Wishing all sisters
get what they need and a happier life ahead.
Sarah.XXX