GypsyKaren
08-31-2007, 06:27 AM
As I get closer and closer to my surgery, I have such a sense of peace and calmness now, it's a warmth that washes over me in waves. It helps me to think as I look forward and reflect back, everything is all so clear to me now. I see the little girl I never was yet always was, and I smile and feel her dreams turned to joy, and it makes me cry. I only have happy tears now, which I suppose can be hormone driven, but I really don't think that's all there is to it. I think it's because now I have a genuine reason for them, sad tears replaced with happy tears, can you imagine that?
It's so easy to see the little things now, a butterfly to make me smile, the wind through the trees, the innocent look on a child's face. I never paid such things much attention before, but now they seem to stand out and show me their reason, and I actually get it...talking about stopping to smell the daisies.
I'm writing the best poetry I've ever done, they just appear on the screen without me even thinking, and I know they come from my heart. When I'm done with one I'll read it and keep nodding in agreement, and I'll smile and watch out for those happy tears...what a sap am I.
I dreamed and wished and prayed and cried for this my entire life, can you imagine that? I'll be 55 real soon, that sure is an awful long time to want something, to hold onto a dream for that long, and now I'm really living it. That's something that I can't imagine because I always knew it would never be, yet now it is...simply amazing.
Our life is but a journey where we seek ourselves, we find this while looking for that, but I think it's true that things work out as they're supposed to, at least it sure has for me, and I hope that it does for all of you too.
Karen Starlene
It's so easy to see the little things now, a butterfly to make me smile, the wind through the trees, the innocent look on a child's face. I never paid such things much attention before, but now they seem to stand out and show me their reason, and I actually get it...talking about stopping to smell the daisies.
I'm writing the best poetry I've ever done, they just appear on the screen without me even thinking, and I know they come from my heart. When I'm done with one I'll read it and keep nodding in agreement, and I'll smile and watch out for those happy tears...what a sap am I.
I dreamed and wished and prayed and cried for this my entire life, can you imagine that? I'll be 55 real soon, that sure is an awful long time to want something, to hold onto a dream for that long, and now I'm really living it. That's something that I can't imagine because I always knew it would never be, yet now it is...simply amazing.
Our life is but a journey where we seek ourselves, we find this while looking for that, but I think it's true that things work out as they're supposed to, at least it sure has for me, and I hope that it does for all of you too.
Karen Starlene