Sharon
03-30-2005, 01:57 PM
To those of you who know me, and those who may recall different posts that I've placed, you know that I've been pretty cautious (actually, the first word that comes to mind is "cowardly", but that isn't fair to say because we all have different circumstances to consider) about going out in public dressed in female mode. Until this morning, I have never ventured further than extended drives in the car and the occasional visit to a drive-through fast food emporium.
As you have figured by now, things have changed, at least somewhat. I woke early (very early actually!) this morning with the full intent of going to the park since this is one of the first truly nice Spring days we have had this year. In fact, I proclaimed this to one of my girlfriends yesterday because I have had it with being so cautious and isolated, but I think she dismissed this as just more idle promises (didn't you? :) )
I spent more than my customary five minutes applying make-up this morning, made sure my wig was firmly attached and straight, and put on my brand new denim jumpsuit (it doesn't sound sexy, but I love it!) and a light-weight jacket and headed out the door.
I drove to a large park a few miles from home (it has a large lake used by sailing enthusiasts, bike paths, and lots of picnic areas and benches) with my laptop in hand, determined to stay for as long as the batteries held their charge.
Getting out of the car was a bit nerve-racking to say the least, but I swallowed my fear and found a bench alongside the bikepath. We had heavy rain two days ago, otherwise I would have looked for a spot on the ground beneath one of the still bareleafed trees, so I was visible to any one of the dozens of other people strolling around the lake. I was wishing I had a large floppy hat to hide beneath, but I figured what was the worse that could happen to me? Exposure? Ridicule? Hell -- the chances of being seen by anyone I knew was practically nil, so it really wasn't that bold a move, no matter the butterflies clogging my throat.
That's it really -- I spent a little more than three hours on that bench, clacking away on the word processor. I looked up, peering through my sunglasses (it really was a glorious sunny morning) at a few passersby and even managed to smile at them as they glanced at me. I considered taking a walk around the lake (about a two mile stroll), but that would have meant carrying my laptop and coffee cup or taking them all the way back to the car and returning again. Therefore, I just stayed in place until the batteries in the laptop were drained and figured that this was enough for my first real day out. I'll see if I can go a step further on my next trip out.
This has given me such a high that I feel tempted to do more today, but I'm holding firmly onto the reins and staying indoors the remainder of the day.
Thanks for listening! :)
As you have figured by now, things have changed, at least somewhat. I woke early (very early actually!) this morning with the full intent of going to the park since this is one of the first truly nice Spring days we have had this year. In fact, I proclaimed this to one of my girlfriends yesterday because I have had it with being so cautious and isolated, but I think she dismissed this as just more idle promises (didn't you? :) )
I spent more than my customary five minutes applying make-up this morning, made sure my wig was firmly attached and straight, and put on my brand new denim jumpsuit (it doesn't sound sexy, but I love it!) and a light-weight jacket and headed out the door.
I drove to a large park a few miles from home (it has a large lake used by sailing enthusiasts, bike paths, and lots of picnic areas and benches) with my laptop in hand, determined to stay for as long as the batteries held their charge.
Getting out of the car was a bit nerve-racking to say the least, but I swallowed my fear and found a bench alongside the bikepath. We had heavy rain two days ago, otherwise I would have looked for a spot on the ground beneath one of the still bareleafed trees, so I was visible to any one of the dozens of other people strolling around the lake. I was wishing I had a large floppy hat to hide beneath, but I figured what was the worse that could happen to me? Exposure? Ridicule? Hell -- the chances of being seen by anyone I knew was practically nil, so it really wasn't that bold a move, no matter the butterflies clogging my throat.
That's it really -- I spent a little more than three hours on that bench, clacking away on the word processor. I looked up, peering through my sunglasses (it really was a glorious sunny morning) at a few passersby and even managed to smile at them as they glanced at me. I considered taking a walk around the lake (about a two mile stroll), but that would have meant carrying my laptop and coffee cup or taking them all the way back to the car and returning again. Therefore, I just stayed in place until the batteries in the laptop were drained and figured that this was enough for my first real day out. I'll see if I can go a step further on my next trip out.
This has given me such a high that I feel tempted to do more today, but I'm holding firmly onto the reins and staying indoors the remainder of the day.
Thanks for listening! :)