Michelle Ellis
10-17-2007, 05:33 PM
Hi Everyone, well, I just got back from visiting my sister in Seattle, our first time together after coming out to her a few weeks ago (I came out to my sister (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=68330)).
I'm writing this mainly for posterity's sake, I'd like to put it all down while it's still fresh in my mind, so watch out, we're gonna get a little verbose here :p
The trip up I5 took about 9 hours... thought I'd be listening to a lot of music, but for the most part the stereo was off and I just did a hell of a lot of thinking. I just can't say how close I feel to my sister now, she has been so kind and understanding... it's as if she was instantly, and totally accepting of me. There was no trace of the normal process of acceptance which I've read so much about. So there I was, off to visit for the weekend, all of my stuff packed because she wanted to see. She said we were going to have our own little private fashion show :heehee: and we did too.
So we talked a lot during the first two days, just breaking the ice so to speak, no really fun stuff yet like shopping or dressing, I got all the important stuff out first. I told her a few funny stories from when we were growing up about some of my close calls and slip ups that went unnoticed at the time but made sense to her now. I slowly got used to her seeing me wearing jewelry and my painted toe nails. She was taking my coming out so much better than I was... I said it several times, she just laughed.
Some of the things she said to me were an echo of the things I've heard my friends here say... I kept thinking how amazing it was that she has all this in her heart instinctively.
So, our big day was Saturday, First we hit a professional beauty outlet, since my sis still has her beauticians license she can get in and buy the really cool stuff :p She got me tons of nail polish, files, some really super cool tweezers and best of all a really good ($$$) flattening iron. Then we drove around and saw some sights while I took some pics with my camera.
Then we headed to BellSquare Mall. Wow :eek: easy to get lost in there! It's so big. We shopped at Penney's and I got a huge all in one makeup kit which I really needed badly and a couple of cool shirts. Then Macy's, Yay! I love that place, I got a cool new outfit and a jacket there and it only cost a small fortune :p Then we went to Saphora and a cool cooking store and a bunch of other little places.
So we finally finished up and went home had some dinner and later we had our little fashion show :o wow... I felt so strange... never had I even talked about my feelings face to face with someone before but now we were going thru and looking at and picking out outfits and trying them on and she didn't bat an eye, she loved my stuff, thought I had good taste. She showed me how to use my new flattening iron and how to do my eyes which I've had problems with. She even got out a really cool LBD of her own, she thought it should be about the right size, she wanted to see how it looked on me :heehee:
She was so nice, complimenting my nails and legs and all kinds of stuff... wow... I know she was just looking at her brother in a dress but my god... I'm crying now just recalling all this. (sigh) I love her so much.
There was more talking... and more of me crying LOL and feelings like I'm emotionally exhausted, even now, days later... but I feel good I think, and a long f'ing time coming too... at least I'm not wishing I were dead every day anymore... I feel like I've had a new start, at least for now. I've still got the rest of my life in front of me and I still don't know what I'm ever going to do... but at least I'm better.
M
I'm writing this mainly for posterity's sake, I'd like to put it all down while it's still fresh in my mind, so watch out, we're gonna get a little verbose here :p
The trip up I5 took about 9 hours... thought I'd be listening to a lot of music, but for the most part the stereo was off and I just did a hell of a lot of thinking. I just can't say how close I feel to my sister now, she has been so kind and understanding... it's as if she was instantly, and totally accepting of me. There was no trace of the normal process of acceptance which I've read so much about. So there I was, off to visit for the weekend, all of my stuff packed because she wanted to see. She said we were going to have our own little private fashion show :heehee: and we did too.
So we talked a lot during the first two days, just breaking the ice so to speak, no really fun stuff yet like shopping or dressing, I got all the important stuff out first. I told her a few funny stories from when we were growing up about some of my close calls and slip ups that went unnoticed at the time but made sense to her now. I slowly got used to her seeing me wearing jewelry and my painted toe nails. She was taking my coming out so much better than I was... I said it several times, she just laughed.
Some of the things she said to me were an echo of the things I've heard my friends here say... I kept thinking how amazing it was that she has all this in her heart instinctively.
So, our big day was Saturday, First we hit a professional beauty outlet, since my sis still has her beauticians license she can get in and buy the really cool stuff :p She got me tons of nail polish, files, some really super cool tweezers and best of all a really good ($$$) flattening iron. Then we drove around and saw some sights while I took some pics with my camera.
Then we headed to BellSquare Mall. Wow :eek: easy to get lost in there! It's so big. We shopped at Penney's and I got a huge all in one makeup kit which I really needed badly and a couple of cool shirts. Then Macy's, Yay! I love that place, I got a cool new outfit and a jacket there and it only cost a small fortune :p Then we went to Saphora and a cool cooking store and a bunch of other little places.
So we finally finished up and went home had some dinner and later we had our little fashion show :o wow... I felt so strange... never had I even talked about my feelings face to face with someone before but now we were going thru and looking at and picking out outfits and trying them on and she didn't bat an eye, she loved my stuff, thought I had good taste. She showed me how to use my new flattening iron and how to do my eyes which I've had problems with. She even got out a really cool LBD of her own, she thought it should be about the right size, she wanted to see how it looked on me :heehee:
She was so nice, complimenting my nails and legs and all kinds of stuff... wow... I know she was just looking at her brother in a dress but my god... I'm crying now just recalling all this. (sigh) I love her so much.
There was more talking... and more of me crying LOL and feelings like I'm emotionally exhausted, even now, days later... but I feel good I think, and a long f'ing time coming too... at least I'm not wishing I were dead every day anymore... I feel like I've had a new start, at least for now. I've still got the rest of my life in front of me and I still don't know what I'm ever going to do... but at least I'm better.
M