marie354
10-26-2007, 01:04 PM
These days I'm out and about every day. 60 days now and still counting.
The first time I went out was with a friend, just to a store to get cigarettes. (I've quit smoking now.) I was very nervous, needless to say, but it all went well. Some guy even initiated a conversation while I was waiting line. What a confidence booster.
I had already been wearing women's slacks, jeans and shorts & tops since last April anyway, as I had purged all my men's clothes, it was all I had.
Then after I announced in my weekly drepression group that I was a crossdresser and I was coming out... (A big step for me indeed.) Everyone praised my courage in speaking up at that time.
Two weeks later, out came the skirts & dresses, and I've been wearing them ever since.
The following weeks in the group were met with comments about by makeup, hair, or a wrinkle in my skirt. The women there liked to pick on me at first. Now everything they say is complimentary... Who does your nails, or I like that top, or those are really nice shoes.
Dressing every day was the biggest thrill at first. I tried to decide what I was going to wear the night before, but then I'd change my mind in the morning and pick out something else. Now, whatever my mood depicts in the morning, that's what I wear all day. Mostly skirts & tops. It's easy to mix and match that way.
Now I'm living as a woman every day and have just been asked to start an adult computer learning group. Woo-Hoo!
The class room is in the basement of the police department building and has all of 16 computers that I maintain. It'll be a couple of weeks before I actually start teaching, and probably a few months before the grant money for newer equipment starts to flow and I'm just so excited about the whole thing, I don't know how to act.
I really wish I had started this 30 years ago.
I hope that I will never have to wear slacks or jeans again.
I thought that I'd write a bit about what's been going on in my life because I haven't been able to go on line very oftin. Well that will change now that I have free unlimited internet access.
No more hiding in the closet for me anymore, and I know that this is just the beginning of a whole new chapter in my life. Wow! I've done it. Fully out and loving every minute. Not having to worry about removing my nail polish is a big plus. And my stress levels have gone way down.
My very best friend and partner, Regina, has helped my through the entire process and it's supprising at how many people now think of me as a woman.
Where do I go from here? After getting over the fear-of-the-fear? Everything has been so positive in the last two months, the only comments that I've had are from kids... Are you a boy or a girl... To which I reply, I used to be a boy and now I'm not. The younger ones probably don't understand too much yet, but the older ones seem to. All-in-all, I've been accepted by everyone I meet and it's been a plus-plus situation. (So far anyway)
May the pluses keep rolling on!
XOXDOXOXO
Sandra Marie
The first time I went out was with a friend, just to a store to get cigarettes. (I've quit smoking now.) I was very nervous, needless to say, but it all went well. Some guy even initiated a conversation while I was waiting line. What a confidence booster.
I had already been wearing women's slacks, jeans and shorts & tops since last April anyway, as I had purged all my men's clothes, it was all I had.
Then after I announced in my weekly drepression group that I was a crossdresser and I was coming out... (A big step for me indeed.) Everyone praised my courage in speaking up at that time.
Two weeks later, out came the skirts & dresses, and I've been wearing them ever since.
The following weeks in the group were met with comments about by makeup, hair, or a wrinkle in my skirt. The women there liked to pick on me at first. Now everything they say is complimentary... Who does your nails, or I like that top, or those are really nice shoes.
Dressing every day was the biggest thrill at first. I tried to decide what I was going to wear the night before, but then I'd change my mind in the morning and pick out something else. Now, whatever my mood depicts in the morning, that's what I wear all day. Mostly skirts & tops. It's easy to mix and match that way.
Now I'm living as a woman every day and have just been asked to start an adult computer learning group. Woo-Hoo!
The class room is in the basement of the police department building and has all of 16 computers that I maintain. It'll be a couple of weeks before I actually start teaching, and probably a few months before the grant money for newer equipment starts to flow and I'm just so excited about the whole thing, I don't know how to act.
I really wish I had started this 30 years ago.
I hope that I will never have to wear slacks or jeans again.
I thought that I'd write a bit about what's been going on in my life because I haven't been able to go on line very oftin. Well that will change now that I have free unlimited internet access.
No more hiding in the closet for me anymore, and I know that this is just the beginning of a whole new chapter in my life. Wow! I've done it. Fully out and loving every minute. Not having to worry about removing my nail polish is a big plus. And my stress levels have gone way down.
My very best friend and partner, Regina, has helped my through the entire process and it's supprising at how many people now think of me as a woman.
Where do I go from here? After getting over the fear-of-the-fear? Everything has been so positive in the last two months, the only comments that I've had are from kids... Are you a boy or a girl... To which I reply, I used to be a boy and now I'm not. The younger ones probably don't understand too much yet, but the older ones seem to. All-in-all, I've been accepted by everyone I meet and it's been a plus-plus situation. (So far anyway)
May the pluses keep rolling on!
XOXDOXOXO
Sandra Marie