Syr_SwitchyGQ
10-28-2007, 11:42 PM
So I had an interesting experience today at church. Since I got to college, I've been attending (whenever I can) a United Church of Christ church that's a lovely walkable five minutes from my dorm, and I really like the congregation. The service is very traditional (none of that contemporary worship BS) and most of the congregation (I'd wager somewhere between 80-90%) is 50+ years old. I love it. (Yes, I'm weird. I tend to get along with people my parents' age better than my own.) At any rate, they all know me as RJ the college freshman. Until today, I had no idea (no one had said anything one way or the other) what gender most of them perceived me to be, but I kind of assumed they thought I was a guy, because I was always in guy mode around them and... hmm... I'm not sure, I guess I just got those vibes from people. That and some of the high school girls were checking me out :p
Well, anyway, last Sunday I decided to transfer my membership from my old church to this one and talked to our minister about the paperwork. He gave it to me and it was just a one-page sheet asking my basic information (name, age, previous congregation, sex) along with some other relevant questions. I answered everything except for the sex (I refuse to fill that out on any forms anymore. It's not anyone's business but mine!) but I was slightly stumped on the name. I knew all my paperwork at home was definitely under my girl name and they would deny ever having an RJ in their congregation. So..... I put in my legal name and then explained the situation to my minister. He was completely chill w/ it. He just asked, "so, when did you make this change?" and I explained that it was recent, but important to me. He just nodded and promised to introduce me as RJ.
Well, this Sunday they had a huge ceremony for all the new members (apparently there were 13 other people joining along with me) and, true to his word, he introduced me as RJ and he! On the one hand, this makes me very happy, I get to be me at church and not worry, but on the other hand, at the reception afterwards, it became very clear to me that these people don't know that I'm not biologically male. So... I don't know what to do now. Part of me wants to just make friends with them and get to know them better as RJ the (bio?)guy and then out myself later, and part of me wants to just do something drastic like join the choir and ask to sing soprano (my range is pretty large... I can sing anything from tenor on up to soprano) which will lead to some obvious questions. Advice???
The other component of this is that I'm kind of floundering with my faith at the moment. I'm really not sure what I believe anymore... I grew up Presbyterian, turned into a hardcore atheist at 15, and then "found God" later that year and became hardcore Christian. Now... I don't know... I've been calling myself a "follower of Christ" recently because I really don't want to be associated with mainstream Christianity as it has manifested itself in America right now... but that's a whole other issue. I don't know... any advice on soul-searching? And also what I should do about my congregation? :strugglin
Well, anyway, last Sunday I decided to transfer my membership from my old church to this one and talked to our minister about the paperwork. He gave it to me and it was just a one-page sheet asking my basic information (name, age, previous congregation, sex) along with some other relevant questions. I answered everything except for the sex (I refuse to fill that out on any forms anymore. It's not anyone's business but mine!) but I was slightly stumped on the name. I knew all my paperwork at home was definitely under my girl name and they would deny ever having an RJ in their congregation. So..... I put in my legal name and then explained the situation to my minister. He was completely chill w/ it. He just asked, "so, when did you make this change?" and I explained that it was recent, but important to me. He just nodded and promised to introduce me as RJ.
Well, this Sunday they had a huge ceremony for all the new members (apparently there were 13 other people joining along with me) and, true to his word, he introduced me as RJ and he! On the one hand, this makes me very happy, I get to be me at church and not worry, but on the other hand, at the reception afterwards, it became very clear to me that these people don't know that I'm not biologically male. So... I don't know what to do now. Part of me wants to just make friends with them and get to know them better as RJ the (bio?)guy and then out myself later, and part of me wants to just do something drastic like join the choir and ask to sing soprano (my range is pretty large... I can sing anything from tenor on up to soprano) which will lead to some obvious questions. Advice???
The other component of this is that I'm kind of floundering with my faith at the moment. I'm really not sure what I believe anymore... I grew up Presbyterian, turned into a hardcore atheist at 15, and then "found God" later that year and became hardcore Christian. Now... I don't know... I've been calling myself a "follower of Christ" recently because I really don't want to be associated with mainstream Christianity as it has manifested itself in America right now... but that's a whole other issue. I don't know... any advice on soul-searching? And also what I should do about my congregation? :strugglin