CrossdressinGoth
12-02-2007, 04:22 AM
I’ve been trying to write a letter to leave with my crossdressing attire so in the event my parents find it, it will have a bit of an explanation. Here is a little back history of the situation I am in.
1. I’m 22 years old and life events have led me to move in back with my parents for a temporary period.
2. My parents don’t approve of gays, bi’s, or anyone in the community we are apart of.
3. My parents are very much racist, born and raised that way and I refused to go along (showing how “bad” they get about things. Example later.
4. Family is very old timing living style “men go out to work, woman stay home, cook, clean, etc…
I crossed into the lifestyle of crossdressing at the age of 12. My school years were very hard on me. I was on the lower end of the popularity chain, got made fun of all the time, got fought with a lot, etc. I reached a point in my life I needed something that would take my mind off of things. I’m not sure what exactly inspired me to but I got the idea of trying on woman’s clothing. Now at a younger age I have had my share of “girly moments”. I used to wear my cousin’s high heels when they would get ready for dances and she came over to our house and took my sister. Everyone laughed a bit. This was around the age of 10.
My mother and my sister are “tom boys” and don’t do the heels, makeup, dresses thing. Jeans and a t-shirt is their basic wardrobe. At the age of 12 I remember one day going to my moms room and I took a pair of pantyhose she bought, never worn, and started to wear them. Later came things like skirts and a pair of heels she had that she’s never worn in ages. It felt great and I continued doing it more and more. I started wearing pantyhose to school under my clothes and stuff and this is where things really kicked off for me. One day when I went to school, my mom came into my room to clean it because they threatened me if I didn’t, they would. Well I had a few “hiding spots” for my stuff and when I came home, ALL of it was gone. Spots I never thought would have been gone through were. I didn’t say a word to my mom and nothing was ever said to me. About 2 weeks later I went to my moms room again to get another pair of pantyhose and there, her stuff was wrapped in a plastic bag with a note saying “Bruce, these are mine, do not wear these. I also want you to return my shoes I couldn’t find”. Ok so I was caught, but my mom never said a word to me to this day about this. I don’t know if she is accepting knowing I dressed and refused to tell me to “deny” the idea, basically the whole “if I don’t acknowledge you about it I’ll refuse to believe its true” thing. She is very very very religious and this is a start of complications I’m having.
Now at the age of 22. I have had to move back in with my parents to start my life over thanks to my ex fiancé cheating on me and moving in with another man. I was not able to swing bills on my own so I opted to move back with my parents, get a new job, and start over again because I left all my friends and family in this part of Wisconsin, and moved to a new part to be with the girl I was going to marry. Moving back was kind of nice but my big problem I’m having is my crossdressing. Nobody in my family knows, except the situation I explained before, I don’t know if my mom knows, or if she is refusing to think I do that. Either way my family is extremely closed minded about anything.
My family hates anyone that is gay, bi, bi-curious, trans, anything that is out of the being straight heterosexual spectrum of life. They are also very very racist. I know you read that and see it as nothing to do with crossdressing, but it’s a point I want to stress that they are extremely closed minded and have a huge narrow vision on life. It’s all their choice and I respect them for that, but it’s a path I for one didn’t feel was right to follow. A very good friend from high school came out of the closet that he was gay, my parents flat out told me he is never allowed over here, they don’t want “his kind” near them. My half sister was married to a Mexican-American. My parents approved of that only because we did not know of her being my dads daughter until she was 25. My parents figured it was ok that she was married to him because “she didn’t know any better because they weren’t there to raise her right”. Well, they got divorced and she started dating another man and has now married him. He is a African-American and my parents told her straight off, “don’t ever bring him around here, you know our way of life, either you abide by our rules or don’t associate with us.” Sadly to say they disowned her because she fell in love with a man, but in their eyes she fell in love with a non white man and that is not acceptable.
Well to shorten this up a bit, I’ll now cut to the chase and bring up my problem. I’m not 100% sure if my family knows about my crossdressing. I’ve often flirted with telling them flat out. Since moving back in I’ve found it much harder to “hide” my stuff. My old bedroom is now the computer room. I have no dresser really, I have no closet space. All I have are mainly totes and boxes to have my things in. The problem I’m having is I cannot hide my things very well given the limited space, and possible limited privacy. My items, which I have a lot of, and I keep adding more even though I live here, are in totes and boxes just laying in the open in my room because I have no where else to go with them. I dress often enough that I don’t want to have them stored anywhere else.
I want to write a note to have with my “Britney” clothing and have it explain a bit about my stuff. Why I have it, how long I have done this, etc… I’m stuck. I don’t know if I should make the letter, and if I do make the letters to leave in these areas, I don’t know what to say. I cant find where I should begin or how in depth I should go with this. Do I leave it vague and hope they ask questions? Do I go full detail and then have the possibility of them bypassing the letter and just focusing on Britney’s clothing? I don’t want to come out to them but if they do find out they do. I don’t want to force the issue because I know for a fact they will have nothing to do with me anymore, and as much as I hate that, I love them because they are all my family. I don’t care how much I disagree with their views or choices they made, I love them. What do you girls think I should do. I’m 22 years old now, I have dressed for 10 years and I’ve been making more and more public appearances dressing up. I buy all girls clothes now, have not bought mans clothes for a few months. I look in the mirror and I’m actually seeing a female presence. I don’t take anything and even without makeup, I see a strong resemblance of a woman in the mirror.
Opinions, thoughts, and ideas are greatly appreciated. Thank you for your time ladies and I look forward to hearing your responses. Thank you for taking the time to read this long post.
Bruce aka Britney
1. I’m 22 years old and life events have led me to move in back with my parents for a temporary period.
2. My parents don’t approve of gays, bi’s, or anyone in the community we are apart of.
3. My parents are very much racist, born and raised that way and I refused to go along (showing how “bad” they get about things. Example later.
4. Family is very old timing living style “men go out to work, woman stay home, cook, clean, etc…
I crossed into the lifestyle of crossdressing at the age of 12. My school years were very hard on me. I was on the lower end of the popularity chain, got made fun of all the time, got fought with a lot, etc. I reached a point in my life I needed something that would take my mind off of things. I’m not sure what exactly inspired me to but I got the idea of trying on woman’s clothing. Now at a younger age I have had my share of “girly moments”. I used to wear my cousin’s high heels when they would get ready for dances and she came over to our house and took my sister. Everyone laughed a bit. This was around the age of 10.
My mother and my sister are “tom boys” and don’t do the heels, makeup, dresses thing. Jeans and a t-shirt is their basic wardrobe. At the age of 12 I remember one day going to my moms room and I took a pair of pantyhose she bought, never worn, and started to wear them. Later came things like skirts and a pair of heels she had that she’s never worn in ages. It felt great and I continued doing it more and more. I started wearing pantyhose to school under my clothes and stuff and this is where things really kicked off for me. One day when I went to school, my mom came into my room to clean it because they threatened me if I didn’t, they would. Well I had a few “hiding spots” for my stuff and when I came home, ALL of it was gone. Spots I never thought would have been gone through were. I didn’t say a word to my mom and nothing was ever said to me. About 2 weeks later I went to my moms room again to get another pair of pantyhose and there, her stuff was wrapped in a plastic bag with a note saying “Bruce, these are mine, do not wear these. I also want you to return my shoes I couldn’t find”. Ok so I was caught, but my mom never said a word to me to this day about this. I don’t know if she is accepting knowing I dressed and refused to tell me to “deny” the idea, basically the whole “if I don’t acknowledge you about it I’ll refuse to believe its true” thing. She is very very very religious and this is a start of complications I’m having.
Now at the age of 22. I have had to move back in with my parents to start my life over thanks to my ex fiancé cheating on me and moving in with another man. I was not able to swing bills on my own so I opted to move back with my parents, get a new job, and start over again because I left all my friends and family in this part of Wisconsin, and moved to a new part to be with the girl I was going to marry. Moving back was kind of nice but my big problem I’m having is my crossdressing. Nobody in my family knows, except the situation I explained before, I don’t know if my mom knows, or if she is refusing to think I do that. Either way my family is extremely closed minded about anything.
My family hates anyone that is gay, bi, bi-curious, trans, anything that is out of the being straight heterosexual spectrum of life. They are also very very racist. I know you read that and see it as nothing to do with crossdressing, but it’s a point I want to stress that they are extremely closed minded and have a huge narrow vision on life. It’s all their choice and I respect them for that, but it’s a path I for one didn’t feel was right to follow. A very good friend from high school came out of the closet that he was gay, my parents flat out told me he is never allowed over here, they don’t want “his kind” near them. My half sister was married to a Mexican-American. My parents approved of that only because we did not know of her being my dads daughter until she was 25. My parents figured it was ok that she was married to him because “she didn’t know any better because they weren’t there to raise her right”. Well, they got divorced and she started dating another man and has now married him. He is a African-American and my parents told her straight off, “don’t ever bring him around here, you know our way of life, either you abide by our rules or don’t associate with us.” Sadly to say they disowned her because she fell in love with a man, but in their eyes she fell in love with a non white man and that is not acceptable.
Well to shorten this up a bit, I’ll now cut to the chase and bring up my problem. I’m not 100% sure if my family knows about my crossdressing. I’ve often flirted with telling them flat out. Since moving back in I’ve found it much harder to “hide” my stuff. My old bedroom is now the computer room. I have no dresser really, I have no closet space. All I have are mainly totes and boxes to have my things in. The problem I’m having is I cannot hide my things very well given the limited space, and possible limited privacy. My items, which I have a lot of, and I keep adding more even though I live here, are in totes and boxes just laying in the open in my room because I have no where else to go with them. I dress often enough that I don’t want to have them stored anywhere else.
I want to write a note to have with my “Britney” clothing and have it explain a bit about my stuff. Why I have it, how long I have done this, etc… I’m stuck. I don’t know if I should make the letter, and if I do make the letters to leave in these areas, I don’t know what to say. I cant find where I should begin or how in depth I should go with this. Do I leave it vague and hope they ask questions? Do I go full detail and then have the possibility of them bypassing the letter and just focusing on Britney’s clothing? I don’t want to come out to them but if they do find out they do. I don’t want to force the issue because I know for a fact they will have nothing to do with me anymore, and as much as I hate that, I love them because they are all my family. I don’t care how much I disagree with their views or choices they made, I love them. What do you girls think I should do. I’m 22 years old now, I have dressed for 10 years and I’ve been making more and more public appearances dressing up. I buy all girls clothes now, have not bought mans clothes for a few months. I look in the mirror and I’m actually seeing a female presence. I don’t take anything and even without makeup, I see a strong resemblance of a woman in the mirror.
Opinions, thoughts, and ideas are greatly appreciated. Thank you for your time ladies and I look forward to hearing your responses. Thank you for taking the time to read this long post.
Bruce aka Britney