Kieron Andrew
12-12-2007, 06:06 AM
(Posted with the blessing of GypsyKaren)
Ok i thought i'd post a little insight into what boys have to deal with to transition here in the UK, PLEASE remember i am speaking for myself and the things i will have to go through to be recognised as the man i am, and i have no clue of the route to transition in USA as it may be different, so im hoping other boys will help educate the masses too
As some of you are aware, I live full time as Kieron and have done for a while now, I am a disabled person who uses a wheelchair 24/7 (but that has little or no bearing on this thread), I wake up every day, I bind my chest which is big by a genetic females standards (40F), , and I get sores from sweating and binding tight to try create a male looking chest binding rarely works for me, and is the one thing that stops me passing as a man, its a chore to do but i do it to create as much of an illusion as possible....I pack every day, which means I use a prosectic penis in my boxers to give the impression I have a real one....I have constant battles with getting people to see me as male and to use the correct pronoun and give me the respect I deserve and not treat me as some kind of joke like im playing at being a man!!, no just here but in the real world too, they see the chest and 'assume' im female, I am NOT!......there is no make up to change a face that is assumed female to male, sure we could create stubble, but do any of you realise the hassle that is to go through EVERYDAY lol, and thats ever before thinking of stepping out the door, ever before what I will have to go through surgery wise to be accepted into the world as the man I am....
Yes sure, there is testosterone and we all know that its a pretty lethal hormone whereby the changes are pretty quick in comparison to MtF, but with my pre-existing disability as of now I am unsure i will be able to ever take it (again another story for another time)....
Most of the world now have had an insight to what goes on with MtF surgery, they create a Neo-Vagina from the penis and give breast implants to those who chose it....let me tell you that is a walk in the park compared to what us FtMs will have to go through, and no im not discounting it because EVERYONES transition is as important as the next...
For chest surgery alone I am looking at, at least 2 maybe 3 or more surgeries to create a male chest because I am so large and thats not accounting for anything that could go wrong and need revising....
For the creation of a phallus (penis), an FtM in this country will have to endure at least 5!...yes 5 surgeries from start to finish to create a penis from either a radial forearm techique or from the abdomenal area....and let me tell you the scaring to those areas can be unbelieveable and life long AND very visable...again this is not accounting for anything that may go wrong or need correcting, and even after all of this the penis created never looks as good as the real Mccoy or works totally in a way a real penis does! the results for FtM bottom surgery are still set back in the dark ages in comparison to the MtF surgeries and need a serious kick into the 21st century!
So after all said and done with Testosterone it could be a number of years and a hell of a lot of surgeries before we get the body we desire to be able to live a happy and as sane life as possible, those transitioning or feeling the need to do so will know what it is like mentally and emotionally to wake up everyday feeling like your body is alien to you! even then ive heard of boys being told they will NEVER be accepted as men and into the man's world... because they started a 'women'.....we have it easy?, walk in the park?.... chance would be a fine thing!
Ok i thought i'd post a little insight into what boys have to deal with to transition here in the UK, PLEASE remember i am speaking for myself and the things i will have to go through to be recognised as the man i am, and i have no clue of the route to transition in USA as it may be different, so im hoping other boys will help educate the masses too
As some of you are aware, I live full time as Kieron and have done for a while now, I am a disabled person who uses a wheelchair 24/7 (but that has little or no bearing on this thread), I wake up every day, I bind my chest which is big by a genetic females standards (40F), , and I get sores from sweating and binding tight to try create a male looking chest binding rarely works for me, and is the one thing that stops me passing as a man, its a chore to do but i do it to create as much of an illusion as possible....I pack every day, which means I use a prosectic penis in my boxers to give the impression I have a real one....I have constant battles with getting people to see me as male and to use the correct pronoun and give me the respect I deserve and not treat me as some kind of joke like im playing at being a man!!, no just here but in the real world too, they see the chest and 'assume' im female, I am NOT!......there is no make up to change a face that is assumed female to male, sure we could create stubble, but do any of you realise the hassle that is to go through EVERYDAY lol, and thats ever before thinking of stepping out the door, ever before what I will have to go through surgery wise to be accepted into the world as the man I am....
Yes sure, there is testosterone and we all know that its a pretty lethal hormone whereby the changes are pretty quick in comparison to MtF, but with my pre-existing disability as of now I am unsure i will be able to ever take it (again another story for another time)....
Most of the world now have had an insight to what goes on with MtF surgery, they create a Neo-Vagina from the penis and give breast implants to those who chose it....let me tell you that is a walk in the park compared to what us FtMs will have to go through, and no im not discounting it because EVERYONES transition is as important as the next...
For chest surgery alone I am looking at, at least 2 maybe 3 or more surgeries to create a male chest because I am so large and thats not accounting for anything that could go wrong and need revising....
For the creation of a phallus (penis), an FtM in this country will have to endure at least 5!...yes 5 surgeries from start to finish to create a penis from either a radial forearm techique or from the abdomenal area....and let me tell you the scaring to those areas can be unbelieveable and life long AND very visable...again this is not accounting for anything that may go wrong or need correcting, and even after all of this the penis created never looks as good as the real Mccoy or works totally in a way a real penis does! the results for FtM bottom surgery are still set back in the dark ages in comparison to the MtF surgeries and need a serious kick into the 21st century!
So after all said and done with Testosterone it could be a number of years and a hell of a lot of surgeries before we get the body we desire to be able to live a happy and as sane life as possible, those transitioning or feeling the need to do so will know what it is like mentally and emotionally to wake up everyday feeling like your body is alien to you! even then ive heard of boys being told they will NEVER be accepted as men and into the man's world... because they started a 'women'.....we have it easy?, walk in the park?.... chance would be a fine thing!