WendyCD
12-20-2007, 06:56 AM
I hope you won't mind if I share (confess?) some of the guilt, isolation and hopefuly some redemption I feel at Christmas. It seems somewhat stronger this year...
The weather was terrible Sunday. Ah... but the stores were empty! I had just bought some of my favorite panties at Sears (Olga), with no witnesses! Rather than drop them at the car before heading to the next store (raining hard...) I just stuffed them in my coat pocket and headed into the next mall entrance to Kohl's. I needed buy a gift for Susan, who works at my office, for our Xmas party Monday.
Walking past Gold's Gym and watching "real men" pumping big iron through the glass I wondered how I'd be received in the locker room as I slipped out of my male slacks and began rolling off my silky panty hose and panties...Looking across the mall, the nail and tanning salon...interesting! While not as menacing, my reception there would be no more welcoming...Alone in this big mall. Oh well...maybe Kohl's has something in my size on the clearance rack.
But maybe this is why my Christmas list is taking sooo long to finish??
The lure of shopping and looking around in any department, in any store, with impunity has left me too focused on my self and I feel isolated and different from everyone else.
I should just buy Susan's present (she'll love it!) and get on with it and maybe get something nice for my daughter - go home, watch the game with my youngest son. My oldest is home from his second year at college - God how I've missed him...we should go shopping together, for books and music and an amplifier for that cool sub his friend gave him. And of course, most importantly, something for his mom, my wife.
We will do that today.
The weather was terrible Sunday. Ah... but the stores were empty! I had just bought some of my favorite panties at Sears (Olga), with no witnesses! Rather than drop them at the car before heading to the next store (raining hard...) I just stuffed them in my coat pocket and headed into the next mall entrance to Kohl's. I needed buy a gift for Susan, who works at my office, for our Xmas party Monday.
Walking past Gold's Gym and watching "real men" pumping big iron through the glass I wondered how I'd be received in the locker room as I slipped out of my male slacks and began rolling off my silky panty hose and panties...Looking across the mall, the nail and tanning salon...interesting! While not as menacing, my reception there would be no more welcoming...Alone in this big mall. Oh well...maybe Kohl's has something in my size on the clearance rack.
But maybe this is why my Christmas list is taking sooo long to finish??
The lure of shopping and looking around in any department, in any store, with impunity has left me too focused on my self and I feel isolated and different from everyone else.
I should just buy Susan's present (she'll love it!) and get on with it and maybe get something nice for my daughter - go home, watch the game with my youngest son. My oldest is home from his second year at college - God how I've missed him...we should go shopping together, for books and music and an amplifier for that cool sub his friend gave him. And of course, most importantly, something for his mom, my wife.
We will do that today.