OlgaS
01-01-2008, 06:11 PM
I have been cross dressing since I was a teenager (now 35). I always thought it was just a phase in my life and I would grow out of it. Now I find myself dressing up to feel normal. I dress up to feel sexy and to for fill my sexual needs by fantasying about being a woman. The problem is I’m getting older and would love to be in a relationship with a beautiful woman and start a family. All my friends are mostly female but I always fall in love with the ones I can’t have because they are either married or other wise taken. I think I do this so that no one gets close enough for me to tell them that I’m a Cross dresser. It’s been 8 years since my last relationship and I'm starting to feel very lonely! I have a close friend called Zoe, which I am very close to and I fell in love with. She doesn’t feel the same about me and now has a partner but wants to stay close to me. She reads me very well and knows there are some things I’m hiding from her. I’m sure she wants me to tell her but I’m too scared to as this will change my life for ever. I’m hurting about her new relationship and I’m feeling more depressed about it as I really did think she was the one and I was so close to telling her. I now dress up more to forget about reality so I don’t feel the pain as much. I now find myself pushing all my friends away as I can’t deal with being single, a cross dresser and feeling I have no one to talk to about it.
Can anyone help me?
Olga x
Can anyone help me?
Olga x