How did your CDing start?

[claudine]

When did you realise for the first time you are a CD? When found your family out or when did your friends and co-workers?

My first CD-experience started only 5 years ago during the famous Cologne Carnival. My ex-wife bought herself a carnival-dress. I had nothing to wear, so she meant I should buy the same feminine costume! I did and the result was fantastic. I was and am now hooked by CDing. I have already tried to pass enfemme in public, but only with a lady’s guidance.

[AndreaRose]

I saw a pair of my older sisters panties once and thought they looked so much nicer then my boy underwear that I had to try them on and I did and I loved it. I tried to fight the urge but it kept coming back. Now I'm starting to accept that it's part of who I am and that I can't make it just go away. The first incident was about 20 years ago BTW,

[Angie G]

That was almost 50 years ago I just found some thing in the attic and teyed them on.
My wife has only known for 2 years on one knows but her :hugs:
Angie

[Suzy Harrison]

When I was 12 years old - it was like a switch suddenly being put to 'on'. There was no event that I can remember that I can say made me think of wanting to look or act like a girl.

In fact I felt I was the only person in the world who felt like that as I'd never heard or read about that kind of thing before. I was worried that if people found out they would have thought I was mad or something.

It's a very scary situation for a little 12 year old to face..........

[melissacd]

When I was about 10 years old I was asked to go get something from my older sisters room, I cannot even remember what it was. For reasons I still do not understand I suddenly noticed all of the wonderful girlie things, prior to that point I don't remember caring about feminine things. I tried on a pair of panties and a white blouse and from that point on I have been totally hooked.

[mykhelee]

I also was hit by the CD bug when I was twelve. Have "dressed" off and on for years. Depending on my life situation. Have tossed more wardrobe than I care to mention. At least now I am in a point in my life where I will never toss again.
Been looking for a site like this for a long time.
just kinda shy

[Amy Hepker]

I really don't know how young I was, but I had three sisters and they were all older than I was. I felt left out of everything I guess and when my older sister got married all the girls got pretty dresses and I got a stupid looking dress shirt. I really thing that is when I figured that I was different than I was supposed to be and in private started wearing my sister's dresses especially the bridesmaid dress that she wore at the wedding. It was a pretty blue with lots of satin and cinoline. I never wanted to be labled as a transvestite or queer or even crazy as this was in the early to middle 60s. When I started dating I would get my girlfriends to dress me up sometimes, not very often as I still did not want anyone to find out. Now when I think back I wish I would have come out when I was still very young.

[jenny logan]

When I was 12 my mother had a bunch of used clothing and lingerie she was going to discard. It was my chore to take out the trash and for reasons I still haven't figured out I peeked inside the bag, saw the clothing and snuck them back into my room to try on. Been cding ever since and don't regret a single minute of it. Only wish I could do it full time.

[TxKimberly]

I was somewhere between 5 and 7 and it was Halloween. My two step sisters were dressed as a princess and I . . . was . . . a . . hobo. . .
That's exactly how I felt too - like some dirty, yucky, plain thing. Would you believe I cried because I thought it was so unfair the girls got to be something beautiful and wonderfull, and I couldn't just because I was a boy?
Well, these days I'm 42, make my own darn rules, and it's 100% OK for a boy to wear a beautiful dress if he wants to.
So there!

[mykhelee]

Hey Jenny
I started the same way. Never got caught by my Dad or Step:tongueout

[RuthieER]

I never had any obvious signs that I wanted to wear girl's clothes when I was a child. When I was 16, I was staying at my grandmother's big house in which she had some foreign students staying with her. I was alone in the basement bathroom enjoying myself with an old Sears catalogue. Out of curiosity I looked in a small cupboard there and found menstrual pads and fresh panties belonging to a girl who had a room in the basement. I tried on the panties as an erotic experiment and it was *wonderful*! Some months later, I was staying there again, this time, put up in the girl's room (she was off on break or something). She was just about my size, and I dressed completely in her clothes (except shoes, which were too small), panties, bra, panty hose, skirt and blouse. The feeling was overwhelming, and I fantasized about being made love to by a handsome man. That opened the flood gates, and I've been a bisexual crossdresser ever since.

Ruthie

[Jennifer Brooks]

Sometime during the summer of 1975, I use to look at the JcPenny catalogs in my parents room instead of taking naps when I was suppose to. I was 5 then. Anyway, I always went to the under garments section of the catalog first and was just awed by what I saw. Then, one day I said to my young self, "Self, let's try on some of Mum's stuff!" I've been hooked ever since. The day after my first dressing session, I was suppose to be taking a nap but I had some of her stuff on. She must of heard me making noise so she came down the hall. I quickly shot under those covers. "What are you doing? You're suppose to be taking a nap!", she asked. "Nothing!", I replied. The second day of my early "Dressing", I almost got caught. :tongueout

[Sasha Anne Meadows]

Regular visitors here may recall my wife started dressing me years ago. I now live full time at home. I won't bother repeating the story but if anyone hasn't heard it and wants to, e mail me and I will share details.

[docrobbysherry]

I've always had desires for tite, confining undergarments like; girdles, corsets, all-in-ones. Maybe because bondage was my obsession for years? Never acted on them tho. Then, 8 years ago, we had some boxes of a friend's clothes that needed to be taken to Goodwill. I looked thru them first. Tried on some very tite jeans and shorts and heels. The way they looked and felt, OMG! That opened Pandora's box for me!
RS

[Crystal Alberta]

I can remember being curious about girls' clothes as far back as preschool. That curiousity continued for years, although I never did anything about it. The desires were there, but they weren't overwhelmingly strong. Then, when I was about 10, I think I entered a bit of a latency period. For the next couple of years, I barely even thought about CDing.

When I was 12, however, everything changed. Believe it or not, it was actually a computer game (one of the Space Quest series) which brought it all back, much stronger than before! This particular game included a scene where the main character goes into a store and buys a dress, wig, shoes, etc. in order to disguise himself as a woman. Well, somehow, when I saw that, it was like someone threw on a light switch, and from that point on, I could barely stop thinking about dressing. Not long after, I took the plunge and started trying on my mom's things, and I haven't looked back since.

Crystal

[lynnmcarthur]

I was playng with friend when I was 4 and his sister played dress up with us. We paraded around the neighborhood and had a great time. The very next day I asked my friend if he wanted to dress up again. He said no and that it was weird that I wanted to do it again. I understood immediately that I was different. I have been dressing ever since

[joann07]

When I grew up in the late 70's and though the 80's, I had a fetish (and still do) for pantyhose and worn it secretly through most of my life.
It was only until late 2006 that I finally had an epiphany and started fully crossdressing.
When in guy mode, I still wear pantyhose under my male clothes.

[Carla68]

For me it may have started when I crossedressed action figures with my sisters barbie dolls etc. Still don't know to this day if this was the start as I would not have known what I was doing. Then in my early teens my grandmother used to collect clothing for the charity shop or jumble sale. When I was alone at my grandmothers I used to try on the ladies clothing and enjoy it a great deal with all the various sensations. Then after my grandmother stopped doing this, so did I until my mid/late 30's. When I went to a charity fancy dress party I went as a schoolgirl. With a female member of the family applying the makeup I looked great. This is the only time my family have seen me dressed. Wheter they know or not I don't know because I believe I'm still in the closet. Since this event (3-4years ago) I have continued and since getting the internet it makes it easy to buy clothing and communicate with others as with this site.

Regards

Carla68

[Lady Katherine]

It was about age 11. I was never very muscular or particularly good at sports. I would escape from my brothers and go into the attic, where I found an old overstuffed chair that I could move next to a window and read lots of books. That refuge 'saved' me from having to be outside and play with the other boys. Some of you may remember if you were a bit of a sissy how painful that could be.

Then I found some dresses and skirts of my mom's hanging in a forgotten part of the attic. I put them on, and when I looked into an old mirror stored there, I saw how lovely I looked, and that I looked better as girl. I was hooked. My life is still outwardly male, so my dressing has been on and off.

[Mixie]

I was still young enough to be able to comfortably fit underneath my mothers bed, so I must have been between 4 and 6. I remember squeezing under there when nobody was around and putting on a pair of pantyhose. I just layed there between the box spring and the carpet enjoying myself in pantyhose. Wow, now that I think about it, I can't believe I was left alone at that age! Then again, it was a big house, and my mom was very busy...

[Violetgray]

When I was 12, however, everything changed. Believe it or not, it was actually a computer game (one of the Space Quest series) which brought it all back, much stronger than before! This particular game included a scene where the main character goes into a store and buys a dress, wig, shoes, etc. in order to disguise himself as a woman. Well, somehow, when I saw that, it was like someone threw on a light switch, and from that point on, I could barely stop thinking about dressing. Not long after, I took the plunge and started trying on my mom's things, and I haven't looked back since.

Crystal

Yes! I remember the crossdressing scene in Space Quest... 4 was it? I always not the tg themes in video games! There is a similar scene in Final Fantasy 7 where the main character has to get close to the villian by entering the beauty contest he's judging!

As for what started me.. I remember wanting to be a girl in the 1st grade.. I didn't start doing it really until I hit puberty though.. It was erotic, but I remember wanting to do it since long before I had a sex drive..

[kimberly ann487]

It happened for me during that dangerous time between getting out of school and when my mom got home. I tried on just about all my sisters underwear and clothes that would fit, mom was too tiny for me. This lasted for a few years but slowed as time passed and my routine changed. Over the years every once in a while I would try on my wife's things but that was it. It wasn't until recently that I really got into it, with this sites help of course, buying my own things etc.:happy:
KIM

[Annie D]

My mother was French and it was summer vacation and I was lucky enought to be spending it in Marseille and Carrie le Rouet. I was 11 or 12, just entering puberty and saw my female cousins who were a year older going around topless! WOW!

I remember a special dream where I fell into a deep, deep hole and while tumbling down having my clothes ripped from my body and then tumbling some more and falling into girl's panties and a dress. When I woke there was a wet spot in my bed, it was my first nocturnal emission! It was so erotic that I continued to fantasize about wearing girl's clothing. When we returned to St. Louis from France I would sneak into my mother's bedroom when my parents were away and try on her panties, graduating to her entire wardrobe in the coming months. DID I SPELL THAT CORRECTLY???? My mother had the most wonderful panties, they were sheer and had a multitude of pastel colors.
My drawers are filling with similar types now.....No whitey tightes for me!

[Jaydee]

I have always thought it began when I was 10. I was taking skiing lessons. My mom couldn't find long underwear in my size so she borrowed some tights from a friend's daughters, who were my age. I hated it at first, but then started really enjoying the feeling of the tights. A couple years later, I was home alone during the summer, while my mom and dad were at work. I found an old dresser with discarded nylons and pantyhose. I tried them on. I haven't been able to stop since, and that was over 40 years ago.

Jaydee

[Nicole Erin]

Had a thing for hose as long as I remember.
On a very rare occasion I would try on something of my sister's or mom's.
Of course I knew boys were not suppose to enjoy these things so I didn't think much about dressing. Besides I was too buasy trying to be manly.

So about 23 yrs old, I was going to have the place to myself for 3 weeks and out of the blue I said "I wonder what it would be like to be dressed totally as a woman instead of just undergarments?" Put together an outfit, got some makeup....

Yeah 23 is really late for someone to FINALLY acknowledge their CD'ness and dress all the way.

[annekathleen]

one leg at a time!
once both legs were in,
i pulled them up!!

tee, hee, hee:heehee:

[jennifer41356]

I played dressup with a sister, I tried on this party dress and when I took my pants of and felt how wonderful it felt I was hooked...must have been 8 or 9 I guess:love:

[SweetCaroline]

I was about five or six years old. I remember it well. It was a Sunday morning. My mom, my Aunt, and my older sister went off to Church. Me and my brothers weren't allowed to go, since we couldn't behave ourselves. My dad was sleeping down the hall.

I was supposed to be watching my two brothers until, until the female members of my family got back.

Instead I put on my sister's night gown, which she left on the floor, stood on a chair, and started dancing or something.

The main thing I remember is that, I WANTED TO WEAR THAT NIGHT GOWN, more than anything. That and when I had it on, I was a girl. It was like magic.

That's how it started.

[gretchenD]

It started when I was 8 wearing a pair of my adoptitve mom's heels.It also started with a pair of dangling earrings that were my adoptive mom's,I always admired them and one day my adoptive mom put them on my ears,I still have them to this day.

[kym2004]

I first started when I was about eight. But then at that time there was not that much imformation out there about it so I thought what I was doing was just the way it was supposed to be for me. It was not untill several years latter that I truly realized I was different. But I have not changed my one opinion. This is just the way it is supposed to be for me.

[sterling12]

Earliest memories are age four. I knew I was different, just didn't know what to call it. "Crossdresser," was an unknown term in my youth.

As a teen, I got hold of semi-porno mags featuring gals dressed. Almost always, in the same apartment with the same bad painting in the background. Since The mags were all published in New York, I assumed all "Transvestites," came from that city, they all dressed exclusively in evening gowns, they were prone to strip to their underwear, they all liked to hang around in groups drinking cocktails, and they all probably lived in that one apartment!

It was a different time, pre computer, pre sexual revolution. We lived in isolation, ignorance, and fear. I'm so glad that things are changing.

Peace and Love, Joanie

[Deanna2]

I had been wearing pantyhose for about twenty years and I guess I just graduated to higher levels. So right now I have on a cami, mini skirt and high heel gold sandals - all topped off with a dash of Paris by YSL.

And loving it.

[morgan51]

Earrings and lipstick around age 5-6 by mom are my first recollection nothing much more than that untill much later in life curious for almost all of my life though. Skirts a few years ago then just a progression to full dressing now. Morgan:heehee:

[Jilmac]

Claudine, I am a 62 year old dresser who started at the ripe young age of 15. But it goes back even farther than that to age 7, when a cousin dared me to wear panties and a dress. I took the dare and wore the girls clothes. I was frightened out of my wits:eek: that other boys would see me and tease me about it. But I loved the feel of the panties and the look of the dress on my body and I was hooked.

Having three older sisters gave me an ample supply of girls clothes to experiment with. At age 15 one of my sisters (whom I was closest to emotionally and spiritually) died in a freak accident. She was three weeks short of her 21st birthday. I was in pain but grieved in silence. My mother had packed away some of my sister's favorite clothes in a trunk in the attic.

The attic was also my refuge, a place where I could grieve for my lost sibling. I was looking through the trunk full of her clothes one day and decided I would wear one of her dresses so that I could be one with her spirit. I dressed from the ground up, underwear, stockings, petticoat, and dress, and experienced a whole new feeling of peace and serenity. In her clothes I felt as if I was a part of her.

After that spiritual contact, I continued to dress and used whatever reason or opportunity I could find. My wife just recently passed away and I no longer need a reason or opportunity. I dress while I grieve for her but I also dress simply because I can for the pure enjoyment of it. Luv and :hugs: Jill

[SarahHall]

I started when I was nineteen. I was dating a girl in college and she had lots of lace panties and nighites and sexy pumps. One day when she was out for some reason I slipped on a pair of her shear nylons and black leather pumps and ablack lace nightie and that did it for me. Several peolpe have told me how strange it is that I started at such a late age and under those conditions.:love:

[shauna 9]

My wife thinks she initialize my crossdressing . but in reality I started much younger with box of lingerie at 12

[Slip Affinity]

I don't remember how old I was when I was first attracted to it. I had a sister and I remember her clothes always being prettier and softer than mine. When we'd go to grandma's house, she had a box full of old clothes, mostly old party dresses and my cousins thought it was funny I'd put them on too. That is until one of my aunts didn't think so. I learned at an early age I had to keep my "tendencies" to my self. Now, as an aging CD, I enjoy it more than ever. The best part ... my wife knows and accepts it as being a huge part of me. We both enjoy thrift store shopping .. her getting pants and tops, and me browsing the lingerie section. Love that woman.

[Ashley Williams]

Hi

What a lovely way to be introduced to cross-dressing.

I started at around the age of 11 or 12 - finding the feeling of my mother's slip and knickers so much nicer and more interesting than my own underwear.

Progressed onto 'borrowing' sisters' underwear and struggled through guilt and self-loathing for at least 20 of the last 40-or-so years.

Finally getting to some level of self-acceptance, but now struggling again with some guilt as my wife thinks it is a very selfish thing to do.

I am so glad you have had a relatively painless introduction. Take full advantage and enjoy it to the full!

[Michelle Reilly]

I started around 11. Having three sisters was amazing in terms of clothing choice. I never once got caught, even though I dressed as much as I could when home alone. I rememebr spending the first weekend I was ever home all alone (about age 14) dressed in so many different outfits, and making boobs out of a foam ball cut in half! I can recall it all so vividly even now.

[Toni Shelton]

I started more than 45 years ago. I didn't know what it was called. I just did it.

[MarinaTwelve200]

My mother's red lipstick had been "calling me" since about age 8----One day , alone at home, at age 12, I finally gave in and gave my lips a generous coating. That started me doing more and more over the following months, untill I was fully CDing by age 13--at home, alone of course---and still its a personal "private" activity.

I only went out dressed once in 2004 for a Halloween party. I dont consider myself "closeted", as I have no desire to go out in public. I consider CDing a PRIVATE thing I do, like taking a shower, brushing my teeth, etc. No one but me needs to know.

[muggsybear]

At about age 10 or 11 I walked in on my older brother (17yo) while he was completely made up. He made me put on panties, a girdle and some stockings so I wouldn't blab to our parents or sister. It was terribly exciting and a few days later I snooped around until I found his stash and put everything back on again. I was pre-puberty so it didn't do that much for me and I didn't really understand the attaction. A few weeks later I walked in on him while he was dressed and enjoying himself. I couldn't not watch him and was amazed that the clothes would get him that excited. It wasn't long before I was experimenting on my own and soon came to know the same pleasures he did. He ended up catching me dressed a few times as did my sister and mom. My brother looked at it as insurance that I wouldn't rat him out, my sister looked at it with a humerous eye and actually helped dress me a time or two for halloween and my mom just told me it was inappropriate but if I "had" to do it, do it so when I wouldn't get caught. By the time I hit 17 my brother and sister had both moved out and I had my own little stash of clothes. That was back quite a few years ago and I'm still going strong.

[Sarah89]

It was about a year and a half ago when i first started getting the "feelings" for this. (Altough as far back as i remember i used to always dream of being forced to wear girls things).
And I think it was one time My mother and sister were out ,and I was left in , and I saw my mothers makeup bag sitting there, and I just felt so compelled to look through it.

I didn't even know what half of the makeup done or how I was suposed to use it, so I just put it on best as i could - was an absoloute mess - but It felt amazing.

Right after that moment, I kinda felt bad about doing what I did, I didnt really understand it.
And whenever I watched Television, everytime there was a hot chick on there, I would feel jelous of their good looks....
, so after a few weeks of rejecting it , I started to research on the internet, figured out I was a transvestite, and I think it was like the 11th Dec 2006, I Finally accepted myself, Found out about makeup etc, and then Later that week, I went into town, and bought some makeup:p.
Still new to this despite being a year into it, but damn...I LOVE IT.

[Melissa A.]

Gawd, I was so young, I Vaguely remember laying in bed at 3 or 4 Wishing I could be a girl. I also have a memory of sometime a little after that going through my sisters dresser and trying on her clothes, in the large room I shared then with my brother and sister. In the middle of the night, with everyone home. I remember talking to myself, saying things like, "there, now I'm a girl". Amazing that I woke no one. I also remember that a few days later my mother opened my sister's dresser drawers and said, "What happened in here?" I kinda slinked away....

Hugs,

Melissa:happy:

[Jennifer Giovannetta]

It started with me with the obsession with high heels. I loved to wear high heels as a young boy. I wore my mothers and grandmothers shoes. THey did wear high heels. I liked the styles, they were very sexy. I actually tried on a dress with the shoes but for some reason did not like it.
Later on in my 20s I started buying my own shoes. I would wear them with my own pants and shirts. Eventually haloween came and by this time I was married. SHe dressed me up in a blue skirt set, black patent sam & libby sandals and white stocking. She did my makeup and my wig. I had so much fun dressed. Some people were laughing at my shoes. One woman said that they looked like 10 pounds of shit stuffed in a 1 pound bag. I guess the shoes were a little small, but we started talking, and had a nice converstaion. The next day I was sad that the event was over. And found it depressing that I would not bea ble to do it again. Fast forward approximately 10 years to this particular point in time. Im dressing to the fullest. I do my own makeup, I dress my self with the clothes that I orderd online, and a few things that I purchaced om my own. My wife states that i am very beautiful. I really took with crossdressing. Im about to go out go out with a support group this saturday. Im so excited. Dont know what to wear but I want to be safe.
Well enough of my ramblings.
Jennifer

[Julogden]

When did you realise for the first time you are a CD? When found your family out or when did your friends and co-workers?

My first CD-experience started only 5 years ago during the famous Cologne Carnival. My ex-wife bought herself a carnival-dress. I had nothing to wear, so she meant I should buy the same feminine costume! I did and the result was fantastic. I was and am now hooked by CDing. I have already tried to pass enfemme in public, but only with a lady’s guidance.

Hi Claudine,

I've been dressing since I was a tiny kid, as far back as I can remember. Of course, back then, I had no name for my behavior, I just knew that I wanted to be a girl and I liked to wear my mom's clothes, which she permitted, even encouraged sometimes, when I was little. I don't remember when I first heard the term "crossdresser", but it was quite a bit later, as when I was a kid, 1950's and 1960's, there was pretty much no information available to the public regarding gender stuff.


I was somewhere between 5 and 7 and it was Halloween. My two step sisters were dressed as a princess and I . . . was . . . a . . hobo. . .
That's exactly how I felt too - like some dirty, yucky, plain thing. Would you believe I cried because I thought it was so unfair the girls got to be something beautiful and wonderfull, and I couldn't just because I was a boy?
Well, these days I'm 42, make my own darn rules, and it's 100% OK for a boy to wear a beautiful dress if he wants to.
So there!

That brings back a memory of Halloween when I was 5. I talked my mother into buying a princess costume for me, but there must have been some objection to this from my dad, as he was against letting me dress, because when my mom came home from the store with my costume, she had a Frankenstein costume, and I was crushed. It really hurt because she had promised me that I could be a princess. I cried too.

Carol

[Jennifer Lynndon]

Mine was at Halloween in 1995. My girl friend at the time called and said she had selected a costume for me but I'd need to be at my place early and have a few drinks down.

She came over and found me very "relaxed".
She had a suitcase and set it on the floor and started to unpack it. First she produced a pair of 4-inch black patent heels and laughed as she told me to get some practice in them. She then produced a really cute headband ... but as you all might have guessed ... it was actually a skirt!
It just barely covered my crotch!
I'm really tall with long legs. I really liked the way I looked when I saw myself in the mirror!

The top was filled out with a 40C bra stuffed with water balloons, wrapped in several plastic bags.

She had mad skills with make-up and placed a full blonde wig on my head, working it until she liked my look.

I went over to the mirror and actually liked the way I looked!

We ended up going out to a few local bars and had a great time! It was a blast!

From there I have been working on my appearance ever since.

[Stephanie Scott]

When I was really little -- around 5 I'd say -- I admired the pretty dresses my sister got to wear, but it never really occurred to me that [B]I [B] could wear them until I was about 11 or 12, when a boy in my class came to a Halloween party dressed as a girl in a cute miniskirt outfit and wig. He got a LOT of attention, and I was jealous. I desperately wanted to wear those kinds of things but didn't have the nerve.

I was good at doing impressions, though, and eventually I came up w/ a schtick about my sister's swim team coach. In order to properly "complete" the impression, I put on my sister's swimsuit. She loved it and laughed heartily. Once she took a picture of me (the only pic ever taken of me crossdressed which I hid and eventually destroyed several years later -- my wife actually took one a few weeks ago w/ digital camera then erased it). I haven't worn any swimsuits since then except one of my wife's old ones a couple times -- maybe someday I will again because it still has a strong attraction for me -- one of those things that is undeniably "female."

Shortly thereafter, I began raiding my sister's underwear drawer, which happened with greater frequency after she left for college. I never told her though that I liked to do it just for the sake of doing it (and NOT for purposes of the impression), but I wish I had. I think she would have been sympathetic, anyway. I wondered if my mom and grandmother knew -- I was very nearly caught by my mother one time (I had locked my sister's door and she heard me inside -- had to strip stuff off quickly and answer the door naked!). Shortly thereafter, my grandmother asked me if I wanted anything of hers to use to dress up on Halloween. Unfortunately, I chickened out and said no, wondering why in the world she would ask such a question.

[Kristen Marie]

My first experiences were when I was around 8. I did not have an older sister, I would wear my mom's girdle and slip. And they were white. But the girdle had this shiny panel in front that made it extra special.

It wasn't until I was older in my early teens that I began having real strong urges to dress. Babysitting for my aunt (younger nephews and nieces) who had a great collection of bras, panties, slips, and in wonderful colors really made my night. I realize today she must have known because she would always leave some items out.

My other best memory was my best friend's sisters' bra's and panties. I miss being my teenage size!! They would always have things hanging in the bathroom or in the basement. I always found a reason to excuse myself and put on their bras and panties.

[denise-x]

I can remember as a very young lad, maybe 4-5 years old. I always felt that I was girlish. I tried to dress in a macho style, but, always felt like I was dressed like a girl. When I was around 10 years old, I noticed that when I walked in the street with my sister, who is 5 years older than me, how boys would show attention to her. This got to me and I wanted the same type of attention. At first I just started wearing her clothes, bra, panties, skirt and blouse. The whole works. Including makeup. When I was around 12 I would get all dressed in her clothes, with a kerchief wrapped on my head and makeup, and go out walking in the street in the evening. I always was hoping that some boys would try to pick me up.

When I went to college I went deep into the closet. After I got married, I would dress and act enfemme in the house. After a while a friend of mine encouraged me to dress publicly again and my wife was happy with it. That is until I started hormone therapy and developed larger boobs than hers. However, now I dress in the house when alone or entertaining my friend, but, all my actions in life is done as if I am femme.

Now that my children live from 1200 to 3000 miles from me, and my wife travels to them several times a year I am going public again, proudly.

L<ove to all..Denise :hugs::hugs:

[Christina Louise]

Age 15, house all to myself in the morning during school holidays, I knew that there was a large bag containing some of my mother's clothes waiting to be thrown out. I can't remember why but one morning I went and got the items one by one from the bag, took them to my bedroom and tried each on for just a minute or so, posing before a full length mirror, before returning them and getting another. But there was a pretty little dress that I decided to keep under my mattress for a night and it was just so scary wondering if I might be caught out.

[Linda C]

My sister forced it on me at age eight - so that's kinda a cool! It's a little perverted but I wish she would try again - apologies to my wife :D

[carhill2mn]

My earliest memories are from about age 8 when I tried on one of my mother's silk blouses. Of course, it fit my like a dress and I was hooked for life!

[tammie]

Hi Everyone: I was 14yo and alone at home on a Nov afternoon in 1965 in Nashville Tenn.

We lived in a very old house (built in 1885) and it had leaded beveled glass windows that refracted the light so beautifully.

As I walked past the open door of my older sister's bedroom the yellow autumn light coming in her window cast a rainbow of color onto the hardwood floor.

There thrown carelessly on the floor was a black lacecup Vassarette bra. It was like the 36B underwire bra spoke to me when I picked it up. The sheer lace was so feminine and sexy I decided to try it on.

It fit me like I had been measured for it and I was changed forever as soon as my little boy breasts were adjusted into the cups.

I decided to take it and wear it and as I left I saw the matching lace edged LLPG and grabbed it off the floor also.

To this day I am glad I did that, but I am still unsure why I did it. Perhaps my friends mom caused it.

She a MILF had gotten very close to my face a week before when we were alone at my friends house. Smiling said to me,"U need to wear a bra your nipples R as big as mine".

I kept the bra and pantygirdle for 3 days of intense pleasure and then snuck them into the laundry.

They had been missed and since I left semen stains in the LLPG I was busted by my mom less than a week after becoming a crossdresser.

[SandyR]

I knew I was a confirmed, happy and hooked CD.......heheh

For real, at 12 I tried on my moms pantyhose....felt so real, nice, and me...

What a journey, but well worth the effort. Its, a part of me, but not everything. I like the balance. Its a good thing.


Hugs!

SandyR

[laura.lapinski]

Although my desire to try on womens clothes was there at an early age, I never used or wanted to use any of my sisters or mothers clothes. The associated of the clothes to the person was too strong and gave me a yucky feeling. I used to really love looking at Penthouse lesbian pictorials as a young boy and teenager. At 13, I remember trying on my cousins one piece siwm suit hanging in her bathroom. The lesbian pictorials somehow manifested themselves in my mind where I at some point wanted to be one of the women. I think it grew from there. By the time I was in my late teens or very early 20's, I was trying on bra's, panties, whatever was available. Being married made it easier to experiment. Almost got caught a couple times over the years (24 years), but so far so good.

Laura

[pntyhslvr2]

I was about 5 or so when I started going through my moms stockings. I would wear them to bed. Then when I was about 10 or so I started wearing moms pantyhose and clothes. I would stay home from school to dress up and got to be where I would dress whenever I could. My next door neighbor, her sister and her mom all had a drawers full of nylons and pantyhose. They never locked their house so I went in often when they wer'nt home. I was allways in pantyhose heaven back then because mom allways had hundreds of them in all different colors. I remember the feelings I got when I dressed up. I still get the same feelings I did back then just more intense now. That was over 40 years ago. So many times I wished I would get caught. Hopefully soon I will get enough guts to go out. I live where its not as accepeted here. I'll go somewhere I can like a bigger city.

[patty328cd]

I actuallystarted dressing after watching talk shows on tv where they would discuss crossdressing. I would she them and think what in the world can they find so great about that. Eventually i tried on some of the wifes clothes and the rest is history. Been dressing over 20 years now and still love it.....love ...Patty

[Syndi]

I was 11yrsold and wouuld borrow panties and some times wear them to school.Around when I was14 or 15 my sister left and I started wearing the clothes she left behind.I really have no idea how it actually started only that it happened and I like it.

[Lorna]

I was (and am!) an only child, so no sisters around when I was growing up. Indeed, it was the combination of my grandmother's death (in 1957 when I was 13) and the awakening of my interest in the opposite sex which set me off on the crossdressing path. My grandmother lived with us, so her death meant that I had the house to myself when I came home from school. I took a lot of interest in the girls I saw as I travelled to and from school and especially when they began wearing nylons. I was very curious about how it must feel to wear a skirt and nylons. I had to make do with my mother's things because I had no access to younger girls' clothes. It was a few years later before chance opportunities allowed me to try the lighter roll-on girdles and suspender belts commonly worn by girls of my age.

I loved - and still do - that sensation of stocking-covered legs and still prefer the clothes of that period to the more casual female styles of today.

[Colleentg]

This is the kind of thread that has been repeated, though asked differently.

I can't put the reason down in definite, but longed to feel as good looking as my older sister, who was identical in body size. She always wore tights and pantyhose, but she was also a slob when it came to her room. It looked like a hurricane hit it! Whenever she changed clothes, whatever she had on was left on the floor. Imagine a week's worth of tights, panties, bras, skirts, tops, etc., all left in a huge spread out mess, you couldn't help but walk on it! I already had a huge pantyhose fetish, so I 'borrowed' her worn tights, one pair at a time. Eventually, I was able to experience about everything she had, everything fit me just like it did her, except she had breasts!

[darla_g]

:pI think in my case i was 13 and left alone. Dont recall where my younger siblings were. My mom had this huge wig box with a big red wig (helmet hair). I tried that first and then branched out to bras and these brown boots with medium heels. I always had to make sure I put away everything carefully. Played around with makeup a little too.

I enjoyed this but always wanted earrings and so i went on my bike to a local boutique where i bought pierced earrings. (my mom only used clip ons) So i actually pierced my own ears (ice cubes etc) to wear the earrings. After my session i would clean up with hydrogen peroxide so i never had any problems or anything.

I got this idea that my eyebrows were too fat and got the bright idea to thin them with a shaver. I know you can see this part coming.. I actually mostly shaved off my eyebrows and then what do you do? I tried to put on eyebrows with an eyebrow pencil and this was an absolutely terrible idea. I Looked ridiculous! I caught hell from my parents although Im not sure they knew about the dressing? In school it was even worse because we had just moved to this town and 8th graders are merciless to newcomers. All these problems eventually caused me to give up my CD ways to not reappear until many years later!

(fun story and probably never told to anyone before! how liberating!)

[Susan.]

As a preschooler I can remember trying on clothes from a laundry pile with my two younger sisters. Just kids having fun. Things calmed down for a few years and then I just started trying on my mom's clothes. One day I put on hose and her white pumps and then something happened that had never happened to me before. I didn't know what it was then but I was hooked forever. I finally figured out what I was in my teens (late 1960's) when I found a book in my neighbor's house that listed all kinds of fetishes. It was even in hardback and looked like reference manual.

[Ms.Cassandra]

My interested started back in the 80's watching those girls on the Aerobic shows in the morning. Very nice shiny leotards, specially the long sleeved ones. I dreamed about wearing them some day.....

Fast forward to 2000 and in January, my feelings towards crossdressing changed, and came to the forefront of my feelings and I actively sort out places to find places to get pretty 2nd hand dresses. I soon found the #Alt.Lycra IRC chat room on DalNet. Chatting with the lycra fetishes there every saturday and sunday morning, australian time, building up courage and hearing about their experiences. The fancy dress shops didn't have anything remotely suitable in the old for sale stock, so I began looking for dance shops and in April of 2000 found one down the road from where I used to live. The ladies at that dance shop must of been real amatures since they didn't do a very good job in creating the leotard. So loose because they based it on a leotard I tried on, which seem to fit ok. They didn't even take proper measurements. The sleeves were wide enough for my legs!! The next leotard I got was not made until December that year. It was a learning curve of finding the right people. The black one they made for didn't have the legs opening done right... *sigh* so I had the leotard chopped and changed, like cutting it in half and sewing new knickers onto it with a band of red lycra like a belt to disguise the cut. I eventually sold that one when I found Le Point Dance Shop. It wasn't local, as it was over 30kms away, but they do excellent work, even if they take ages, as my requests are not as important as schools wanting costumes for eistedfords and dance recitals. Thats ok, I can wait. I get all my shiny nylon lycra long sleeved leotard, footless tights and knickers custom made from them now.

On my other experiences, my first time I went out in public dressed up was November 2004 at the Hookers and Deviates fancy dress ball. I didn't have much in my wardrobe back then... maybe a few leotards, tights, fishnets and 1 pair of high heels. Its hell of a lot bigger now, but lets not get lost on tangents. Here is a link showing my first outfit (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/FancyDress1.jpg) I wore to the party. I am a Star Trek fan, so I attached my Star Trek combadge to the leotard, put on a black and white "Witchy" wig and enjoyed my self. I didn't have any makeup, still don't as I live with my parents and I ride a motorbike not drive a car. I got my photo taken and put on their website. Unfortunately they didn't do any H&D parties in 2007. I hope they resume in 2008 at a new venue as the previous one was honestly was horrible and the entry way was the emergency stairs which was narrow and steep, very dangerous for anyone in high heels!!

For these "Adult" parties, I usally bring my costume with me, and get changed into it when I arrive as its not possible to wear it on the motorbike. Mistress Tan use to run "Hush Now" evenings every 2 weeks, with information evenings called "Stepping out" every 2nd week, and in late 2006 she reduced the evenings to monthly and eventually stopped all together as she wanted to concentrate on her first love, being a real estate agent. She used to have theme nights.... like French maid. I tried to attend that one, but it was 35c that evening and quite humid, so I gave that one a miss. An earlier one was a Doctors and Nurses night, so 2 months before the event I searched ebay for a outfit, and came across this one, Nurse (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/FancyDress4.jpg) in white PVC. The gogo boots where from ebay and PVC gloves I got from the local Adult shop.

More recently I've gotten more bold and come out of the shadows as it were with more public appearances. I have done the minor ones with wearing my black gogo boots with the 3" heel to the local Star Trek club meetings. In November 2006, Austrek was celebrating their 30th anniversary and Star Trek their 40th. I had a friend do some makeup on me to make me resemble a Vulcan Priestess. The vulcan like ears did stay on all night which was excellent, but the blonde wig was so annoying when eating the dinner, kept getting in the way!! Vulcan close-up (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/Vulcan1.jpg) & the other Vulcan salute. (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/Vulcan3.jpg) My friends at Austrek knew I liked to dress up as I have done it in the past at previous club meetings. When I entered, fashionably late, they clapped and cheered as I entered, in my bold and brash outfit. I went for the shock value and it certainly worked. LOL!!!

That started my association with the Beauty Lounge which about 15 mins walk up the street from the Town hall where the Austrek meetings are held, as I won a gift voucher from them, presented to me at the Star Trek 30/40 ball. "Best Accessories". I had a phaser and tricorder hanging off my PVC skirt. The petticoat was quite wide and the dam PVC kept getting stuck on the chrome chairs so I had to remember to lift the skirt as I go by. It was lots of fun even though I was sitting a lot since I was wearing my pink 5" heels (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/PinkSeduce.jpg) all evening. I went to the Beauty Lounge during the Xmas holidays in early Janaury and decided on body wrap, which was $90 but the voucher only covered $50 so I paid the extra. My subsequent visits have been paid for by my sissy slave :)

They are a CD friendly salon which is great as that were I had my makeup done from then on. I don't remember when I got the blue latex dress (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/BlueLatexDress/) which cost my sissy $150 to get for me. It fits perfectly and as from the gallery, you can see it has matching latex stockings, but unfortunatly, they split at the toe shortly before the end of the photo session. I wish it could lasted longer, I had so much fun wearing the latex dress, stockings and high heels. The makeup was awesome, really well done, the best of the lot. The other makeup sessions I had didn't quite live up to the same standard.

I have worn makeup to CHAINS, a BDSM social evening held once a month, above a CD friendly vanilla pub. I had my friend at the Beauty Lounge do my make up and have another friend drive me down to the pub. She doesn't stay, as it not her scene but she is open minded and likes crossdressers like myself. There is a program called IMVU (http://www.imvu.com) that is a 3D chat program, which is quite addictive as you can build decorate your own character and rooms. I selected the female character, of course :) and had my sissy buy me lots and lots of Credits that one needs to purchase all the virtual clothes and furniture to decorate the various rooms. Every theme and mood imaginable is there and if you cannot find it you can even attempt to make it yourself if you know how to construct 3D items or make requests of developers but before I get lost in tangents again, I had some real life make-up done by the lovely Mel at the beauty lounge, based on my IMVU character.

The real life re-production was done for a Chains (http://www.melbourne-chains.com/) evening. I wore two outfits for that evening. Started with the red, blue & white leotard (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/BL-Chains/IMG_2260.jpg) with matching lycra gauntlets. I wore my pink satin gown over it when I was driven down from the salon to the venue. After the dinner the Chains' Master hosts, I got changed into my multicolored latex outfit (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/BL-Chains/IMG_2290.jpg) for the rest of the evening. Great make up. Shame I had to remove it after the party. I enjoy my self at Chains.... meeting friends, winning prizes in the raffles. I have won 2 Bondage Bears (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/BondageBears1.jpg) since I began going to the monthly events 6 months ago.

The most audacious experience was on December first 2007 for the annual Austrek Xmas party. I saw this dress (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/Red1.jpg) online and I just had to get it. So I had my sissy get it for me but he was a little short that week so I agreed to pay the postage, he paid the rest. It came 10 days before the party so I had plenty of time to try it on before the day. It was quite a struggle to get the zipper done up as the balloons under the leotard made kept working against me. I finally made it using some string and using the wetsuit method. For the day. I arrived at the salon a little early, so I got dressed up as much as I could and asked for help getting the zipper closed as I didn't have string this time. Melissa did a great job on the make up as always, and when she was done, the black curly wig went on, and she used several bobby pins to hold it in place so it wouldn't fall in my face when I'm eating.

As it just before midday, none of the girls was available to drive me down the road to the Town hall so I braved the outside world, and walked down the main road all dressed up, in full make up, wig, PVC dress, lace top fishnets and high heels. It was a little daunting... I passed several people along the way. Got smiles some girls at an outside cafe and the usual gay retorts from guys in muscle cars. I just ignore the ignorant, unenlightend idiots. Walking the 570 meters from the salon was part scary, part exhilarating. It was lots of fun dressing up, and it was less intimidating entering the non-fetish room dressed up as Maid Cassandra (http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v350/TIL8472/Austrek2007Xmas1.jpg) with combage on the leotard just above my cleavage and phaser and tricorder hanging off the apron belt. My first time I dressed up for Austrek was when they did a mock Klingon wedding. I was the Maid of Honor. I wore my Starfleet leotard, red reptile print PVC skirt, red fishnets and red pumps with 5" metal heel. You can google them. HEAT-01 is the name. I've since sold the heels as they were getting too small for me.

I've come a long way since hiding my leotards and tights under clothes all the time. I still wear long sleeved shiny nylon lycra leotards and tights under my clothes when it gets chilly. My mum washes them for me. Thats the extend of my wardrobe she knows about. the PVC and latex is hidden away away from prying eyes.

[Kelsy]

nine or ten, a pair of my sisters panties, cotton blue flower print, lollipop brand. I tried them on without a thought, just like they were meant to be mine somehow!!

Kelsy:happy:

[NYsong]

I guess I first got interested when I was about 7 or 8. My older sister always thought it was fun to dress me up, and I thought it was fun too! Originally I thought it was just a game, but I soon found myself trying on other old clothes my sister used to wear. I loved how they fit me as compared to all of my boy clothes.

I suppressed this through most of my life, as I live in a very catholic household, with a very caring but judgemental mother. However, as I got into late high school, I noticed I was about the same size as my sister had been for a while. I suddenly found all these beautiful dresses she would wear fit me really well! I fell in love instantly, and since then have started dressing up completely as a girl, and have even gone out twice! I suppose going to college opened the door for me ordering forms and my fantastic wig.

Funny thing is, while this all seems so long ago, its really only about 4 years since I actually started considering myself a CD. I am so glad I found this site, as it helped me realize that, at 19 (almost 20!), I still have a long life ahead, and now I know I can enjoy it with my better half also!

[Patti Girl]

It first happened when I was 10 or 12, I guess (that was a long time ago!). When mom and dad were out, I'd try on her underwear and heels. Once I was questioned because I left the strap on her heels adjusted wrong. Of course, I denied it. I now wonder if she noticed anything with her underwear but never said anything :)

I never did any more crossdressing for many years. I had assumed that such things at that age were common place for "normal kids" until I started reading this board :)

Many years later in my late 40's, I started preferring men's underwear that was more brief and feminine style (no openings) and started to fantasize about being treated like a woman. My wife at the time didn't care for that style of underwear but she put up with it. She is now my ex :)

When I started dating my current wife, I quickly asked her to "force feminize" me. That was a big part of our Femdom play. But then I realized that I wanted to be dressed femme even if we were not in Femdom mode. Two and a half years ago, she gave away my male underwear, I now only have panties to wear. I dress at least part femme around home almost all the time and usually underdress when we go out.

Patti

[Ashlee]

I remember back to about 5 visiting a relative in another state. I would go to bed wanting to wear her pantyhose. My uncle and aunt would bust me, laugh it off and dismiss it as me just being a kid. Back then, i didn't realize why I wanted to wear that stuff and didn't know it was for girls but I knew I liked it. Growing up not too much happened. I, like others would wear my mom's clothes and makeup when I had the house to myself. I took a wig that was stuffed away in a box forgotten about from a neighborhood friend which helped a bit, I was never caught. I would dress at every chance I got. I was asked to house sit a few times for upwards of a week at a relatives and a friends house. I was thrilled!! At my disposal was a full wardrobe, makeup etc and most importantly - privacy to indulge.
I did a stint in the military and the opportunity wasn't there save for a time I house sat for a co-worker which opened up pandoras box of clothing and privacy again! Fast forward...After I got out I was able to resume what I did before I joined the service until I was able to get my own place. There was this new thing called the internet that was an awesome tool to connect with others like me. I was overseas when the net came out (95) so I had no idea what it was. Over time, I slowly bought items from consignment shops or second hand clothing stores. I hid my small stash until dad found them one day. I was made to get rid of it and nothing was said since. I took the opportunity to shave myself one time and that went over like a fart in church. From then, i made a concerted effort to find a g/f and appear "normal".

How I wish I had done more in my single days like experience makeovers and go out. I bought my own place and would dress up for hours. Since I had done the shaing thing and was chastised for it I didn't do it again. What a regret. The powerful male presence of my dad giving me a hard time was a powerful thing to make me think twice about doing that again. I wish I had done such while I was in my own place. I don't have any CD friends in male mode but wish I did that I could hang out with. I've met a few through Jamie Austin at his studio. I'm now married. I knew this but the urge doesn't go away when you are married. I'm closeted but the mrs. has seen me en femme but for a Halloween party. It was a little "interesting" for a week or 2 after my debut but things are fine. I look at my pics of that night a lot. I have however done the best thing and that is to have a Jamie Austin makeover (4 times now!) I guess I'm going to have to take advantage of what times I can do this stuff while I can. The mrs. doesn't want me to dress again for a Halloween which of course sucks. Maybe it'll happen again, we'll see, time will tell.

That's my story. Probably similar to lots.

[Muffygirl]

The question has really got me thinking - and for the life of me I can't remember if there was a definitive precipitating action that started me being a CD or taking an interest in it. A lot of you seem to have an event where the 'light was switched' on but I think that it just grew on me. Mind you as I write I do recall my wife saying that I told her about 10 years ago that I liked wearing female clothes - but I was already 'there' by then.
Gee perhaps it's early onset of dementia - I kid you not. Ho hum

[carsoncitypanties]

I was 13, my cousin was staying with us for the summer. I found a pair of her panties in the bathroom. I had read about cding in Penthouse Forum, so I gave it a try.
Hooked ever since

[andreaattimes]

I was fascinated with nylons from as far back as I can remember. I used to play with my Mom's when I was home alone. Of course I eventually started wearing them. That lead to her clothes. This went on for all my high school years.
Fast forward to my first job in college. I worked in a store that sold womens clothing and just had to take some jeans home.
Then I discovered Walmart, VS, and Fredericks.
I was promoted to manager and sent another store. My first time living alone and I dressed every night.
I don't get to dress very often now, but I am just starting with a wig and makeup so it feels very new to me.

[Kathy Renee]

At age 5 my parents purchased their first house in rural Louisiana. The neighborhood was carved out of the woods. There were about a dozen kids ranging in age from 5 to about 10 or so that played together. We built a "fort" in the woods and hauled all kinds of stuff to the fort. One of the girls brought one of her sister's dress. For what ever reason, we took turns putting on the dress over our clothes. I can still remember the urges and confusion that that innocent encounter had on me eventhough I was so young. Until the weather finally destroyed the dress, I would go to the fort by myself to wear the dress. This quickly led to putting on my mother's panties and bras.

[MsJoann]

Yes..we all have all run parallel. I think I was 9 or so..trying on my sister's panties and nylons. And yes, I was fascinated at all the lingerie in the JCPenney catalog. Even into my early 20's, I would pull out the catalog and pleasure myself while turning the pages.
When in my mid 20's, I would convince the GF to purchase lingerie, garterbelts/stockings etc. only for me to swipe them when she wasnt looking. I would take them to a secret place...put them on and it was 2 hours of sheer heaven for me.
I then began going into the local dept. store to buy panties, bras and nylons...maybe an occasional teddie.
My late 20's found me back in drab..I was married and was raising a child. By 30, I was divorced, alone and bored. I was dating women and also trying to borrow their undies.
By my mid 30's and with the advent of the internet, I had found that I was not the only one who liked dressing. It now became easier to obtain clothing, jewelry, etc.
When I first started this, I dressed for sexual thrill mostly. The guilt was phenominal. Currently I have come to grips with the fact that I have a feminine side to me....and I really don't care who knows. I never fit in with my macho friends...I accept this.
There is no dress code where I work...so I am always in women's jeans or slacks. Sexy shorts in the summer. I wear ladies panties everyday and have a wonderful 3 drawers full of them, and bras, from which to choose.
So..my life was etched from an early age as most of us understand. I still also wear nice bracelets and necklaces daily and keep my nails clearcoated. There is no more sexual thrill associated with the way I dress...I do it for my feminine feelings. There is something special about looking in the mirror after I apply my makeup. The man is gone and the woman has arrived.
I often wonder why all this....? Better off not to ponder it. I just go with the flow of things and wonder if and when it will ever come to an end.
I have made some real nice friends both here and in realtime life. Last week I went out clubbing with 4 other local gals. What an intense feeling knowing that we all have a special bond, one of which no other fraternal club can match!
God bless all of you lovely ladies!! Stay young!

[Victoria Anne]

Reading all your posts sure brings backsome fond memories. I cannot say for certain when I started to dress. I can say that I do not remember atime when I did not wear panties and as I grew up I began wearing wearing a bra and skirts , dresses and shoes. I am of course now married to a wonderful accepting and supportive woman. I only wish I would have come out when I was young but I am coming out slowly towards living 24/7 , I do love to get dolled up and go out.

[sillyfish]

my current gf made me go as a french maid for halloween, ever since then i've liked it =)

[Dalece]

I was raised by my mother and grandmother and I guess started when I was ten yrs old, I would wear dresses and lingere they had at home. it continued in my teens they had some dresses upstairs. moved up there as a teen, after my grandmother passed. And when no one was home I would get dressed in dresses and try to be a girl, tried shoes when i was younger they where to big at that time. As i grew older they fit but didn't have the balance. Finally grew to big to wear them. Also the dresses. Have Cd since then off and on when I could. Now going for more full time.