Taylor105
01-06-2008, 10:06 AM
I'm sure plenty of you have noticed (at least I hope you noticed lol) that I haven't been around much. I took a huge step back from everything. The whole T thing and talking about myself to people who are having a tough time with me. I just backed completely off and did nothing more than make my normal youtube vids. But over the holidays I just took a lot of me time to reflect on everything that has happened in the last couple of months. This is what I am planning to do for now. After finding out how entirely expensive T is and endo's and all of that it isn't something feasible for me right now. It was a real downer to find all of that out. I cried like a little wussy girl. But I guess saving up money is something that will in the end make me feel like I really truly earned being Taylor. My family is still coming around. My mother is still calling me Taylor. She has taken to calling me every morning and wanting to do daily Christian devotionals over the phone though. lol I am a Christian though and I am totally okay with it. She is trying to understand and I am meeting her where she is. Most of my close friends whom I have known from anywhere from five to seenteen years are finally getting the pronouns straight. They have been calling me Taylor for years but they thought I was a girl Taylor. :straightface: I think the coolest person of all is my little brother Andrew. He is a very precious person to me. He is ten years younger than me and the most open-minded person I have ever known in my life. When I recently spoke to him and told him that T wasn't in my immediate future and he sounded down about it. lol He said "I was looking forward to you starting to sound and look like my older brother too" But he knows it's not the T that makes me a guy. And I love that boy to death. Anyway, I am just updating you all. I love you guys and I am glad I have you all in my life. Hugs!