Carrah
04-18-2005, 04:02 PM
Well, as the title would suggest, I’m giving up on cross-dressing for a while. It’s certainly not that I don’t enjoy it, well, maybe in fact that’s exactly what it is, but it comes down to maintenance or management of this activity.
I’ve had a mustache and goatee since I hit puberty and one of the reasons for this has always been my lack of desire to regularly shave; I hate shaving my face. I’ve done it before, but for very brief periods, like maybe a day or two. However, I was determined this time to shave my face regularly and I have been doing so for about a month now. Ultimately, though, it would appear to be my undoing; so to speak. My facial hair grows so quickly that I often find it growing back AS I’M SHAVING! Okay, so maybe that’s a bit of a stretch, but it sure seems like it. The larger part of it is, though; I just can’t get used to what I look like without facial hair – period! You know how some folks look at themselves and they don’t like what they see? Well, that’s me without facial hair. It’s just not me; the me I’ve known all my life. So, with a goatee, where am I really going with this?
Then there’s the physique. I mean, why fight it? I moved some things around in the garage the other day and my biceps popped out about another inch. To tell the truth, it felt good! So, I’ve made the decision to get myself back in shape again, which will realistically put me at around 200 pounds bodyweight with very little fat, like maybe around 12-15 percent at best.
So, there you have it; facial hair and a muscular, 200 pound physique. You know, what’s the point? On the other hand, I’ve not made a decision with respect to my legs, stomach, and chest as far as shaving those go. I’m now thinking along the lines of either a square cut or competition style swimsuit for men. I’m wondering how it might look with a flat, washboard stomach and sweeping thighs with no hair and a deep tan? Most of the women I’ve met over the years think I look better with nothing on or as little as possible on, as opposed to having clothes on. Though I’ve only ever been with two women in my life, I’ve been hit on like a million times and usually when dressed in a t-shirt and shorts. So, why not go out with practically nothing on? Hmmm, now that I think about it; women seem to prefer me like that and love the fact that I can cook, yet hate the idea of a man preferring a woman barefoot in the kitchen – go figure.
Like I said in another post, maybe I’m just not playing by the right rules? I do enjoy cross-dressing, but I simply cannot allow it to interfere with my life any longer. You know, its one thing to get the wife, significant other, or even the kids involved; that can be a lot of fun. It’s okay to laugh with those who laugh at us; it makes life more interesting and more worth living. But, when you find yourself hidden in the house for hours, sitting there in a pair of nylons with nail polish and a wig on, staring into or walking past the mirror when in reality you should be out taking care of things around the house or doing other things for yourself, something has to give.
Why do I cross-dress in the first place? Who knows? Someone said in another post that perhaps it has something to do with sexual activity, or lack thereof? Well, maybe in fact I have been a little bored with the girlfriend lately. She has been putting in a lot of hours the last several months; works, eats dinner, goes to sleep. On the other hand, maybe it’s a hormonal thing? You know each spring my hormone levels change and my nipples become much more sensitive. This will last for a month or slightly longer and then things return to normal. Or, two weeks ago a began taking Creatine and DHEA in an effort to bring my energy levels back up and it is kicking in, which may also have something to do with my present attitude - DHEA being a precursor to testosterone.
At any rate, y’all are a bunch of great people; I’ve certainly enjoyed communicating with each of you and have learned quite a bit in the process. Certainly it has proven a worthy venture and of immeasurable value in participating and in sharing thoughts openly. As I always suspected of cross-dressers in general, y’all seem a bit more intelligent than the average person. I’ll come back from time to time to see how y’all are doing and to let you know what my leg shaving decision was and how that went, if I do decide to publicly display my bare thighs that is. I don’t doubt that I’ll dabble in it from time to time, so I won’t be throwing any of my things away, even though nothing is going to fit me in less than 60 days from now (muscle memory).
This is how it’s been for me with respect to cross-dressing; on again, off again each time taking it to a new level. Who knows, maybe one day I’ll be able to pass as a kind and generous old lady :)
Anyway, time to hit the weights…
I’ve had a mustache and goatee since I hit puberty and one of the reasons for this has always been my lack of desire to regularly shave; I hate shaving my face. I’ve done it before, but for very brief periods, like maybe a day or two. However, I was determined this time to shave my face regularly and I have been doing so for about a month now. Ultimately, though, it would appear to be my undoing; so to speak. My facial hair grows so quickly that I often find it growing back AS I’M SHAVING! Okay, so maybe that’s a bit of a stretch, but it sure seems like it. The larger part of it is, though; I just can’t get used to what I look like without facial hair – period! You know how some folks look at themselves and they don’t like what they see? Well, that’s me without facial hair. It’s just not me; the me I’ve known all my life. So, with a goatee, where am I really going with this?
Then there’s the physique. I mean, why fight it? I moved some things around in the garage the other day and my biceps popped out about another inch. To tell the truth, it felt good! So, I’ve made the decision to get myself back in shape again, which will realistically put me at around 200 pounds bodyweight with very little fat, like maybe around 12-15 percent at best.
So, there you have it; facial hair and a muscular, 200 pound physique. You know, what’s the point? On the other hand, I’ve not made a decision with respect to my legs, stomach, and chest as far as shaving those go. I’m now thinking along the lines of either a square cut or competition style swimsuit for men. I’m wondering how it might look with a flat, washboard stomach and sweeping thighs with no hair and a deep tan? Most of the women I’ve met over the years think I look better with nothing on or as little as possible on, as opposed to having clothes on. Though I’ve only ever been with two women in my life, I’ve been hit on like a million times and usually when dressed in a t-shirt and shorts. So, why not go out with practically nothing on? Hmmm, now that I think about it; women seem to prefer me like that and love the fact that I can cook, yet hate the idea of a man preferring a woman barefoot in the kitchen – go figure.
Like I said in another post, maybe I’m just not playing by the right rules? I do enjoy cross-dressing, but I simply cannot allow it to interfere with my life any longer. You know, its one thing to get the wife, significant other, or even the kids involved; that can be a lot of fun. It’s okay to laugh with those who laugh at us; it makes life more interesting and more worth living. But, when you find yourself hidden in the house for hours, sitting there in a pair of nylons with nail polish and a wig on, staring into or walking past the mirror when in reality you should be out taking care of things around the house or doing other things for yourself, something has to give.
Why do I cross-dress in the first place? Who knows? Someone said in another post that perhaps it has something to do with sexual activity, or lack thereof? Well, maybe in fact I have been a little bored with the girlfriend lately. She has been putting in a lot of hours the last several months; works, eats dinner, goes to sleep. On the other hand, maybe it’s a hormonal thing? You know each spring my hormone levels change and my nipples become much more sensitive. This will last for a month or slightly longer and then things return to normal. Or, two weeks ago a began taking Creatine and DHEA in an effort to bring my energy levels back up and it is kicking in, which may also have something to do with my present attitude - DHEA being a precursor to testosterone.
At any rate, y’all are a bunch of great people; I’ve certainly enjoyed communicating with each of you and have learned quite a bit in the process. Certainly it has proven a worthy venture and of immeasurable value in participating and in sharing thoughts openly. As I always suspected of cross-dressers in general, y’all seem a bit more intelligent than the average person. I’ll come back from time to time to see how y’all are doing and to let you know what my leg shaving decision was and how that went, if I do decide to publicly display my bare thighs that is. I don’t doubt that I’ll dabble in it from time to time, so I won’t be throwing any of my things away, even though nothing is going to fit me in less than 60 days from now (muscle memory).
This is how it’s been for me with respect to cross-dressing; on again, off again each time taking it to a new level. Who knows, maybe one day I’ll be able to pass as a kind and generous old lady :)
Anyway, time to hit the weights…