Sophies first serious out and about for 2 yrs

[Sophie Haworth]

I have certainly been thinking/fantasizing about going out for about 18 months, 2 things have prevented me doing so.

1. Male mode, when in male mode going out dressed as a woman is never in my thoughts.

2. Being read, the real killer for me. Not fear of being discovered, but the fact that I have failed to achieve the look.

Well this weekend just gone I decided that I have practices enough and Wednesday was the day I was going to go out again, my last outing ended being read by a shop assistant and this depressing event stopped me dressing for a considerable time, but I have been working on my look and listened to your kind comments to my previous threads.

I did take my dog out for a walk 2 evenings in February as a sort of test these went OK.

Tuesday evening arrived and it was time to seriously start thinking about Wednesday, so I did my nails and went to bed as Sophie, I did not sleep too well, way to excited.

Wednesday has arrived, I was up at 6.15am and got ready, this is a very long process for me, by 10.00am I was finished and ready.

I had already pre planned where I was going to go, but I knew there was going to be a big test first, and this scared me. 6 feet from my front door on my drive adjoining my neighbours house, 2 builders were working on a wall as they had been doing the previous day.

I felt that the first thing to do was to be able to pass with these two, my vehicle also was parked just a few feet away from them. For me there would be no point in going anywhere if I was going to be read. So I decided I would take 2 boxes out to my car, walk past them and see what transpires.

I took another look at my self stood behind my front door, put my hand on the door handle.

I must have stood there for about 3-4 minutes, I was fighting a battle, the part that wanted to go out, and the part that did not want to be read.

I had to pray, I needed strength to open the door, I am a Christian, so prayer is no stranger to me.

Well it was time to go, I opened the door and carried the first box to the car passing the 2 men, I did not look at them until I put the first box in the car and was on my way back, they we carrying on building and not even noticing.

Time for box number 2, same thing, I was able to walk to my car in full view of them without raising an eyebrow.

I did make 3 more visits to my car (to make sure). I was able to look at them but did not catch their eye, and also from my window just to see if there was any reaction that would suggest they had just seen a man dressed up as a woman.

I was content that they were unaware.

I did get some images from one of my visits to the car, quality not too good though.

I hope this isn't boring, but there is more of this story, and I will follow it up later.

Here are the pics of me visiting my car, (the builders are working to the right of the picture about 4 feet away from the front).

[Keri_T]

Oh come on now, don't keep us in the dark...what happens next? :)

<waits for more info...>

[Holly]

Sophie.... we're waiting! (taps nails on table)

[StephanieCD]

Me too! What a story!!

You are BRAVE!

[Priscilla1018]

Hi Sophie,

Please, don't keep us waiting.I am more than ready for the next installment.

Love and Hugs,
Priscilla

[Sharon]

Okay Sophie, you've built the drama and have us all anticipating what your adventure was and how it went. What is this going to be? A serial story? :)

[obsessedwithpantyhose]

once u step out the door theres no turning back :D thats what i tell myself when i go out...... the men working didnt even bat an eye at u because u wer wearing pants now if u had been in a mini with 5 inch heels clacking on the pavement then they would have looked and even whistled at ur fine ass :p

just be urself and go for it,, ur far more passable than i am u have NOTHING to worry about... :cool:

[Rikki]

Okay Sophie, you have left us hanging long enough, so give up the rest a the story.


LOL
Rikki

[Sophie Haworth]

I am sorry to leave it last night, but time was getting on and I needed sleep.

To continue:

I felt quit confident that I was passing at close range, I decided to have my lunch first and go out later.

I finished my dinner, did not eat much, still to excited to eat, I looked out side, and the builders were away having lunch themselves, now would be a good time to go, I would not have to pass them on the way out to the car, but no, for some reason I decided to have a coffee first, perhaps trying to put off going out, but I was still going to give it a go.

2.00pm arrived and it was time to make the effort, my builder friends were back on the job, I asked myself why did I not go when it was all clear.

Anyway I took off my lilac cardigan and replaced it with a black jacket, so I was wearing my trouser suit, I also had a blouse on.

I have never in all the years of going out, ever worn a blouse, showing my neck etc, I have always worn polo neck sweaters. But my recent experiments with clothes and video revealed that actually I do not suit a polo neck, this was a surprise to me, I always felt I needed to hide my adams apple.

I was still wearing the same makeup as applied at 8.00 in the morning, it still looked ok to me I just put more pink on the lips and some lip gloss and touched up my face with powder.

Put my shoes on and was ready, here we go again this time I was going go into my car and drive away.

Again I paced up an down in the living room and stood behind my front door again, and prayed before opening it, I put my hand on the handle and opened the door, stepped out locked it and walked to the car (they were there working). Got in and drove off I again did not notice any reaction I was looking in my rear view mirrors to see if I could spot anything.

Ok, now I am driving, on my way. I was sure that every time I stopped at lights, drivers and passengers in the cars that drew up beside me were looking and reading me. That though just had to be fear.

I drove to the town multi storey car park and parked up, got out, there was a car park attended just a few yards away but did not react to me at all.

I made my way to the shopping precinct, walking past about 3 people, the sliding doors opened and I was now in the precinct. There were a lot more about now, I felt eyes all over me, everyone must be able to see a man dressed as a woman. Perhaps it would be better if I turned around and went back home.

I pressed on, perhaps people were not reading me, I walked to a M&S store (UK`ers will know what that is) I went in and just started looking at the clothes, trying to see if I was being read, I do not think so, I spent about 15 minutes in there, standing by people, facing people, walking towards them, mingling with the staff, looking at myself in the mirrors, there were not that many, only about 4 (mirrors). I felt I had spent enough time there now, I did not wish to over stay my welcome, I might look suspicious wandering up and down.

I left the store and considered that maybe I had achieved enough, time to head back, but then again why I may as well keep going, so I went to a dedicated womens store and spent about ten minutes there with no reactions and I made use of the mirrors there also.

I left that store and decided it was time to move on, I was not going to go home I was going to visit a supermarket, I called into another womens clothing store and again stayed for around 10minutes lifting clothes of racks etc, listening to the women who were in the store also, to see if any comments about me were passed, nothing at all.

I headed back to my car, I had a flight of steps to go down to make it to the level my car was on, I passed two women on the stairs they were coming up, my shoes were making a great sound on these steps, the 2 ladies passed me conversing with themselves, without a hiccup.

I drove to ASDA, a UK supermarket. I took some more photo shots here. I have included them and will continue with my story shortly, they were taken in the carpark before I went in, there are 3 of me, the small one blended in with the main photo and looks like someone else in the photo.

[Sophie Haworth]

I hope this long winded little adventure is not boring you.

To continue:

I got myself a small trolley and went inside the supermarket, I spent about 15 minutes looking at clothes, but putting nothing in the trolley, that was just a prop. Again I was trying to see if anyone was checking me out, it was time to move on.

(A scary moment)

I went back outside with my small trolley (empty), there were two women outside and one of them was asking the other lady about a small trolley, she wanted one for her shopping. Being the gentleman that I am, I offered her mine. She thanked me, looked at me and made comments/questions about a shortage, all I could do was smile. I had not been read.

I headed back to my car, I was getting quite confident now, no one seemed to be noticing me.

I next drove to MATALAN another UK clothing store.

While in the carpark I took these shots of me at the rear of my car.

Just a little more left of this story now.

[Sophie Haworth]

To continue.

I went into MATALAN, and spent around 30 minutes in there, getting clothes off the racks, moving up to the mirrors and holding them up to me too see how I looked.

Again I was able to stand next to people, I was not being read, the staff were also around doing their jobs, but never gave me a second glance.

I left the store to return home, but I went back in, I was enjoying this to much to leave.

Here are some more shots in the Car Park.

[Sophie Haworth]

I got back home, passed the builders in my car, this time they were on the roadside, I did not have to walk past them, but I was feeling quite confident even if I did have to pass them.

I ended the day trying on a new dress at home and taking these shots.

I have to admit a very memorable day, I wanted to get this down while it was still fresh, I was able to do things that I normally fantasize about doing.

Being a part time CD though now means I have no imediate plans to dress, the desire perhaps has been satisfied for the time being.

Sophie.

[CindyT]

Pics look great! Thanks for the story AND pics, sounds like you had a great time and you seem to pass just fine! I know how nervous anyone dressed is about being read but I think you did just fine!

You got me wanting to go out now...... Hmmmmm.....

Great story!!!! :)

[Deidra Cowen]

Very good story...and nice pics too. Judging from the pics you have the body language and moves of a fem down pat. Very brave and thanks for sharing your adventure.

[paulaN]

I am so glad for you and your wonderfull day. thanks for the story I know it will inspire others. keep on dressing.

[Ava Mouse]

Awesome account of your adventure and photos, too! You look great! And even if you were read, you did such a great job, that there was probably a lot of doubt in everyone else...

Funny thing is trying to setup the camera, isn't it. That attracts more attention then yourself! Especially if you have a tripod, like I did. LOL.. but good idea placing the camera in the car...

I hope you share your future adventures with us again! Thanks for sharing!

[Deelite]

Sophie, well done you!

Wow, i can only dream of what you have done, it takes a huge amount of courage and you did it!

Dee.

[Sharon]

I like your look and your style Sophie! Well done and very well described.

[Sweet Susan]

Well done. Awesome.

[Keri_T]

Awesome story! And I must say, you totally have a GG look about you...I'm jealous! :)

[womanatheart]

Sophie,
Thanks for sharing that with us. That was great. Encouraging.You have beautiful legs. You look fabulous.
I went out myself tonight as a woman, first time in 2 years and had the best experience of my CD life. It was awsome. For most of the night it was an ever increasing relaxation and thrill of letting down my guard and being a woman and not worrying about being read. Not fearful of putting a pair of shorts to my waist, sighting the fit - without fear of someone wondering. I stood erect and didnt fear any one seeing my breats or my bra through my fitted blouse. It was a fabulouse experinece being a woman. I mingled with woman in shops, enjoyed the thrill of trying the cutest blouse and skirt and trying them on in the womans dressing room. (the pain of carrying a woman garment all the way to the mens dressing room when I am in the womans departmen). I cannot wait to wear my new blouse and skirt tomorrow. The feminine feeling of wearing a skirt in public and knowing your legs - shaven, tanned and soft are exposed. Truely feminine all the way. And the chance to wear womans shoes! I must be a woman in heart because I could buy 100 woman shoes.
For those who have not tried to go out effeme - I encourage you. I am certainly not as passable as Sophie - but with alittle gear and preparation - you can do it.
Love.
StephanieS :)
I still have my nails on and it is tough to type.

[Keri_T]

Womanatheart, your first post!! Welcome to the forum Girl! Nice to meet ya! :D

[womanatheart]

Keri,
Thank you for welcoming me.
Hopefully we can encourage the other girls when they need it.
Keri, you are a April new join also! You seem to have found this forum comfortable and have contributed to its success.
Thank you.
Love,
StephanieS :)

[Keri_T]

:D *Grin* :D

It's a nice family of sisters here...You'll feel right at home in no time!

Head over to this link and introduce yourself!
http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/forumdisplay.php?f=15

Go on, don't be shy <gently pushes> It'll be fun! :D Promise! :D

[Sophie Haworth]

Thank you everyone for your kind comments.

It is strange, but it seems like weeks ago, and yet it was only 5 days ago.

I have no plans yet to make another trip out, no plans even to dress, the urge has now passed and I will need to wait for the next time, whenever that may be.

I am always amazed at how different we all are, you cannot put us into one category, there are many different levels of being a CD.

This forum has proved to be a great eye opener for me and I enjoy learning about all the different aspects of what we do.

There is also a good level of taste and decency amongst the members, this is very important and is one of the things that keeps me following the posts, even when I am in male mode, as I am now.

Sophie.

[azure]

I think you pass even better in your minidress, you look fantastic hun, betcha look cute in a gypsy skirt too!

[emmicd]

Well Sophie that was a tremendous story of your en femme experience out for the day! I really enjoyed the story and the pictures and commend you for doing it and sharing it with all of us. I am inspired though I would seem to only dream about an outside experience like that. I dress up at home when I have alone time which is not all that often.

You also looked very stylish and I loved your suit and your new dress!

Look forward to your next writing of your next outdoor en femme experience!

Emmi

[Sophie Haworth]

Thanks Emmi.

That was back in April, and I have not dressed since, the desire gone for now.

The hairs on my legs are back.

I did though enjoy every moment of being out, but for now I am enjoying this side of the fence also.

It was certainly the best outing I have had, and seems to have fulfilled a dream, desire, achivement and that seems to be enough for now.

I vist here every day to keep in touch, but in male mode.

If you have not done so alread post some of your photos for advice help and encouragement you will certainly get it here.

Sophie.