Almost caught way back when

[jessica31]

Nobody (except for a couple of really cool girl friends of mine) knows I crossdress. I've mostly done it in private when I'm 99.99999% sure of not being disturbed in the act.

I started when I was about 13/14 or so (basically when I hit puberty and started noticing girls, particularly their LEGS!!!......I became a pantyhose man almost immediately.

I also was very very shy, to the point of being incapable of even admitting to a girl I liked her all the way through my teen years. Yeah I was pretty awkward back then.

Since I knew I was very incapable of finding a "girlfriend" in those days, next best thing, with a strongly evolving pantyhose fetish, was to start wearing my mom's pairs when she was gone. One night I remember in vivid detail....I was in my parents room basically putting my pants back on, I had just taken the pantyhose off, when my parents walked into the room. I had to shuffle my legs under their bed, stuff the hose in my pocket, and try to act very natural. To this day, I'm not sure what they thought about the whole thing. A couple weeks later in a restaurant, my dad asked me if I wanted to talk about "anything", and I declined. Nothing ever came from it, thank god.

The one thing I'm very curious about is if the "cross-dressing" gene was passed down to me. I come from an ultra-religious family that would not react well at all to finding out my secret. The interesting thing is that my grandma's brother (on my mom's side of the family) lives 100% of the time as a woman and his name is constantly rung through the mud. My grandma spends sooo much of her time telling him what a horrible sin he is commiting
:( It makes me feel terrible because I love and respect my grandmother deeply, and I can't imagine what she would think if she of all people knew what was in my heart. I don't have urges to live 100% of the time as a woman, but I wonder if I had a hereditary thing passed down to me? Any thoughts?

[Angie G]

It may have been past down to you it's just to bad you have to hide it so deep :hugs:
Angie

[Suzzie]

Do you at least talk to him/her at all? I would try and hang out with her sometime. :thumbsup:

[Shadeauxmarie]

As sins go, crossdressing ain't so bad!

I know we shouldn't grade sins, but we all do.

[Kate Simmons]

We are who we are my friend, heredity notwithstanding. The way I see it, we all have two choices. Consider it a handicap and make excuses or accept it and make it work for us. I chose to do the latter.:happy:

[DanaB]

just curious, what is it about religion that makes people look down upon cross-dressing?

[Tashee]

just curious, what is it about religion that makes people look down upon cross-dressing?


The need to make their lives and their sins tolerable to them....Also a grave misunderstanding of grace and unconditional love.....

BTW...I always wondered why clothes could become a sin anyway....I see more gg's wearing' their mans jeans, flannel shirt and sporting no make up.

unconditional love and grace can free...But religion is a lonely prison.

[jessica31]

just curious, what is it about religion that makes people look down upon cross-dressing?

For what it's worth, I do remember reading in the bible that it is "a sin for a man to dress in woman's clothing". I dunno what passage or what not, but I remember reading that and being fairly surprised that particular "behavior" was mentioned.

For the record, I don't know my grandmother's brother at all. I may have met him way back in the 70s when I was a tike, but I only know him as "Lawrence" when his name comes out in conversation.

Back to the bible thing, I grew up reading the bible and consider myself a Christian, so that's my struggle there. I really consider my crossdressing to be exploratory. I'm very straight (love only women) and I'm very intrigued at times to experience life as one, even in just sexy clothing. To me it's no more than that, but still a whole heckuva lot of fun! :2c::happy:

[Amy Hepker]

It could very well be in the jeans. It is to bad that your Grandmother reacts like that to her brother. It's hard to say why, but it is attitudes like this that are hampering us today. It used to be that way way back, that CDers were gay or homosexual, and as we know it that is not the truth. We are hard for a lot of older people to accept. "We are who we are and that's the way it should be, people like that are sick." This kind of thinking is sick not the people who are trying to be who they really are. I guess your Grandmother knew that she had it made being a female and did not want to share the experiance with her brother. Maybe she was jelious of him as a male.

[RachelB.]

The passage you mentioned is in Deuteronomy and doesn't saying wearing women's clothes it says putting on women's things. When the Bible was writen women wore pants and men flowing robes. Makes you wonder if this is what is wrong with the world now. It is amazing that the bigots use this passage to hammer both crossdressers and homosexuals. Personally I feel God made me this way and since he is perfect and doesn't make mistakes there is a reason for it. I do not understand it but I will when God wants me too. Until then I'm just hanging in there and enjoying the ride.

[trudycd]

its really interesting when you start looking closely at some of the things written in the bible - it can be a little bit confusing to be quoted 'eternally applicable rules' from one passage, and then find something contrary in that same 'book' (the bible being made up of contributions from various authors) As an example - Paul at one point in the new testament said that women should cover their heads in church. Surely this was a cultural observation of the day. When it all boils down to it, our greatest need as humans is unconditional love and acceptance, and the love of God is really about those things way before its about passing judgement on others ('..how you judge is how you will be judged')

I struggle with the right and wrong of it too - but its such an adrenalin rush, and who's it hurting?

[trannie T]

I don't know that crossdressing is inherited, is the propensity for silly religious belief genetic?

[jessica31]

I don't know that crossdressing is inherited, is the propensity for silly religious belief genetic?


I couldn't agree more on the religious comment. I was raised "Christian", but as an adult, I have so many questions not even related to religion I discover the answers to on my own! :)

[AbbyN]

I don't know that crossdressing is inherited, is the propensity for silly religious belief genetic?

Bravo! I definitely agree. That was my first thought when I read the OP. I was raised in a strong Christian household as well, and it never made sense to me growing up...too many things just didn't add up. It wasn't until I became an adult that I realized why. IT'S BECAUSE IT REALLY DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. I spent my entire childhood absolutely miserable because I thought I was going to spend eternity in hell for being a CD. When is the world going to wake up and give up this silly religion crap? It does nothing but cause wars, drive people to persecution and terrorism, and halt forward human progress. There was a time and a place for it in human history. That time is LONG past.

Oops...sorry...hot button. :heehee:
Abby