cd4l
02-19-2008, 08:41 PM
Sorry for yet another post (question) here but I really seem to be enjoying girly things more and more - I'm not upset about all this but for some reason theres a feeling at the back of my mind that what I'm enjoying is just "normal" stuff that maybe should not seem fun - but it does seem fun and I do enjoy it.
For example
I have in the last few months had a few occasions Ive had so called girly nights (bin dressed and had some gg's round or been with a group of gg's at one of the gg's house and just watched a girly film or listened to music etc but felt very much 1 of the girls :)
Also when getting ready to go out (dressed) I've recently enjoyed a few times when various gg friend's of mine have also got ready at my house and have helped me get ready - done my make up - hair maybe or helped me pick what to wear.
Recently I had a dress fitting - really enjoyed it, also in the last couple of months had a girl mend my skirt while on a night out, also had a gg friend of mine do some sewing on a dress I had on (carnt remember what she did but I enjoyed her doing it) Before we went shopping).
I've enjoyed all of what I mentioned above but theres seems to be a voice starting at the back of my mind saying NO its not fun your not a girl really so stop doing all of this, sorry if this seems mixed up but I just feel like I enjoy all of what I just talked about my some sort of self doubt maybe is telling me I'm wrong to do so, have others or do others ever get that feeling ?
For example
I have in the last few months had a few occasions Ive had so called girly nights (bin dressed and had some gg's round or been with a group of gg's at one of the gg's house and just watched a girly film or listened to music etc but felt very much 1 of the girls :)
Also when getting ready to go out (dressed) I've recently enjoyed a few times when various gg friend's of mine have also got ready at my house and have helped me get ready - done my make up - hair maybe or helped me pick what to wear.
Recently I had a dress fitting - really enjoyed it, also in the last couple of months had a girl mend my skirt while on a night out, also had a gg friend of mine do some sewing on a dress I had on (carnt remember what she did but I enjoyed her doing it) Before we went shopping).
I've enjoyed all of what I mentioned above but theres seems to be a voice starting at the back of my mind saying NO its not fun your not a girl really so stop doing all of this, sorry if this seems mixed up but I just feel like I enjoy all of what I just talked about my some sort of self doubt maybe is telling me I'm wrong to do so, have others or do others ever get that feeling ?