jessielee
03-07-2008, 04:31 PM
judging the state regional speech meet, today, now, i decided it best to appear professional, scholarly, respectful of these young dramatists. so i present a normal, drab, thinning on top, conservative teacher sort but for my carefully groomed ponytail and my red rimmed reading glasses to match my sweater. not enough for anyone to guess it’s a disguise. except the rose tinted lenses i'm looking through make me feel very differently on the inside to be here, since my awakening. oh, they're not really anything but clear lenses. you know what i mean.
i judge strictly on performance criteria, not swayed by potentially manipulative emotional presentation. i force myself to not be influenced by their ensembles and this is the challenge. for it takes me back to high school. clothes are functional; they get the job done, right? as is makeup. and what is the job? while developing socially, to gain friends, confidence, influence and standing? to project your self esteem?
to practice and to exercise. it seems so much as in this forum. and some are further along then others.
no to mention the boy’s general lack of imagination or effort, the girls displayed various states of polish. from sweet pumps i coveted, darling little jackets, understated elegance to makeup applications i felt i could do better than, the rush of emerging fashion sense swirling about me was breathtaking!
it spoke to the vacuum many of us experienced at that age, wishing we could wear such gorgeous styles and emerge with confidence in our emotional vulnerability and sensitivity in the flower of youth.
one speaker presented today an original oratory of being directed all through school to color within the lines, keep within prescribed boxes until graduation, then having to improvise creatively, think "outside the box" and expand boundaries to get ahead and define individuality, all upon no foundation of encouragement previously.
it has taken too long.
we are here in the process
of liberating our inner, more true selves.
thank you for your consideration,
garrulously,
jessie
i judge strictly on performance criteria, not swayed by potentially manipulative emotional presentation. i force myself to not be influenced by their ensembles and this is the challenge. for it takes me back to high school. clothes are functional; they get the job done, right? as is makeup. and what is the job? while developing socially, to gain friends, confidence, influence and standing? to project your self esteem?
to practice and to exercise. it seems so much as in this forum. and some are further along then others.
no to mention the boy’s general lack of imagination or effort, the girls displayed various states of polish. from sweet pumps i coveted, darling little jackets, understated elegance to makeup applications i felt i could do better than, the rush of emerging fashion sense swirling about me was breathtaking!
it spoke to the vacuum many of us experienced at that age, wishing we could wear such gorgeous styles and emerge with confidence in our emotional vulnerability and sensitivity in the flower of youth.
one speaker presented today an original oratory of being directed all through school to color within the lines, keep within prescribed boxes until graduation, then having to improvise creatively, think "outside the box" and expand boundaries to get ahead and define individuality, all upon no foundation of encouragement previously.
it has taken too long.
we are here in the process
of liberating our inner, more true selves.
thank you for your consideration,
garrulously,
jessie