Totally Depressed

[julie08]

So, I just have to get this off my chest. I am really depressed lately. Let me first give you some background about me. I am 26 y/o, married, w/ one stepson. I'm in the Army, and have 4 years left. I have been crossdressing since I was 13 or so, off and on, but never fully 'cause of different reasons.

So I'm depressed now because my wife doesn't accept my crossdressing. I told her before we got married, and she kinda understood and let me do it whenever (around her), but now after we married it's totally different. I really wanna dress fully (makeup, wig, shoes and everything), but I just can't.

Another development of late is I really wanna be with a guy. That's all I think about lately. I can't and won't cheat on my wife though, so it's a really tough spot for me. I want to talk to guys online, but it seems nobody just wants to talk. I can and want to do cyber or whatever, but for most guys it's all about meeting.

I'm also deploying in like, two weeks. I've been trying to make friends to email with while I am gone, 'cause I won't be able to come to sites like this while I am gone, but nobody wants to do that.

I'm just depressed in life...

[Nicole Erin]

Well I would say at least you are not trying to make real life meetings for a rendez-vous cause you wouldn't need problems coming from that while you are away.

I have never tried to cyber online or anything. It doesn't seem like it would be hard to come by guys wanting to do that cause often a real life meeting is not real practical.

So I assume Iraq like the rest of the military?

[Amy Hepker]

If you are that depressed go to a doctor and get some anti-depressants quick. They will not think you are crazy if you ask for them, and you don't have to spill your guts to them and tell them you think you are gay or a crossdresser, just tell them you have been really down lately. You need to get yourself figures out and you cannot while you are so depressed. Do it for us, do it for yourself.

[julie08]

Nope, Afghanistan, not Iraq