Ruth
03-31-2008, 03:59 PM
This is not about why I CD, which I regard as pretty much unanswerable, but about what I get from it, in terms of experience of sensations and/or feelings that I couldn’t get otherwise.
I’ve got three main categories, which in their way also explain a bit about the areas where I don’t go. It’s all about the clothes, but I can be more specific than that.
First is the acting-out of the opposite gender role in clothing: I wear the clothes (and accessories) specific to a woman, and that woman is the person I imagine I would be if I were female. And the aim here is not to attain the sexual identity of a woman but the emotional capacity. By dressing I give myself permission to have the emotional range, to feel and express the emotions that I associate with the feminine state. This is a great liberating experience for me. And it begins and ends with the emotions – no way do I wish to adopt a female sexual role.
Second is the experience of different clothing styles and fabric textures on my body. This is very much in the sensual arena rather than the emotional. Women’s clothes are lighter and more clingy than male styles, often they fit closely where a male style is loose, and vice versa. Stockings or pantyhose over shaved legs is a complete change from anything male. Being dressed feels totally different. Colors and patterns can be far more extravagant. I look totally different. I can express myself in clothing in a way I do not feel able to do in drab mode.
Third and probably least is the comfort factor. I think a lot of women’s styles are far more comfortable than men's. Clothes tend to be made of thinner, lightweight fabrics, with a nice feel to them, and to follow the body shape rather than constricting it. I enjoy wearing light, stretchy underwear and loose flowing dresses. I feel comfortable and relaxed. The exception to this rule in women’s wear is of course the heavy duty brassieres and corsets of “firm control” foundation wear. I do not go there. I find the constricting fit to be a contradiction to what I look for in CDing, and I do not have any of this type of garment.
So there we are. This isn’t a question: it’s all about me, but I thought if I put it out there, someone else might read it, recognise themselves in something here, and maybe feel a little bit better. We’re all different but we’ve got a lot in common. So I'd be interested to know if others share my feelings, or have entirely different ones.
Ruth
I’ve got three main categories, which in their way also explain a bit about the areas where I don’t go. It’s all about the clothes, but I can be more specific than that.
First is the acting-out of the opposite gender role in clothing: I wear the clothes (and accessories) specific to a woman, and that woman is the person I imagine I would be if I were female. And the aim here is not to attain the sexual identity of a woman but the emotional capacity. By dressing I give myself permission to have the emotional range, to feel and express the emotions that I associate with the feminine state. This is a great liberating experience for me. And it begins and ends with the emotions – no way do I wish to adopt a female sexual role.
Second is the experience of different clothing styles and fabric textures on my body. This is very much in the sensual arena rather than the emotional. Women’s clothes are lighter and more clingy than male styles, often they fit closely where a male style is loose, and vice versa. Stockings or pantyhose over shaved legs is a complete change from anything male. Being dressed feels totally different. Colors and patterns can be far more extravagant. I look totally different. I can express myself in clothing in a way I do not feel able to do in drab mode.
Third and probably least is the comfort factor. I think a lot of women’s styles are far more comfortable than men's. Clothes tend to be made of thinner, lightweight fabrics, with a nice feel to them, and to follow the body shape rather than constricting it. I enjoy wearing light, stretchy underwear and loose flowing dresses. I feel comfortable and relaxed. The exception to this rule in women’s wear is of course the heavy duty brassieres and corsets of “firm control” foundation wear. I do not go there. I find the constricting fit to be a contradiction to what I look for in CDing, and I do not have any of this type of garment.
So there we are. This isn’t a question: it’s all about me, but I thought if I put it out there, someone else might read it, recognise themselves in something here, and maybe feel a little bit better. We’re all different but we’ve got a lot in common. So I'd be interested to know if others share my feelings, or have entirely different ones.
Ruth