Patrice
04-02-2008, 07:41 PM
Maybe Im in a situation where Im more free to take risks, but things have went well for me so far.
Bit of background, I have no SO or children, one sister, few friends (friendship means a lot to me, so I dont make casual friendships easily) and my parents are deceased. Also more or less estranged from the vast majority of my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc). The few friendships I have are deep and strong and with a couple exceptions know about my wardrobe choices and are accepting.
So the fact that I have no real responsibilities besides myself, I guess Im a bit more free to express my feminine side,which I have been in greater and greater degrees. Total underdressing, progressively darker nail-polish (over-time) and obviously feminine earrings (smaller hoops and conservative studs, but my favorite studs are silver hearts). I show the top-edge of my sportsbras like a tank-top style undershirt and will be increasing my nail-polish from a silver-pink to a darker brownish/pink this weekend (eventual goal of a killer antique bronze). Im also letting my hair grow out with the goal, in 6 months or so tops, of getting an androgynous/borderline fem hairstyle.
Bottom line is it works so far, my friends accept me, my coworkers seem to do so as well, and as long as I jump through the dress-code hoops and stay semi-conservative in my neat, clean appearance my employer CANT say a word.
The first time I wore panties outside the house, I was in mortal fear that someone would see (with their X-Ray anti-gay goggles) and point me out to all! Since I have learned that the main thing holding back my happiness was my own fear. Im getting close to a very comfortable level of integration, closer to fundamental happiness than Ive been in years. And Ive also noticed that the more fem I add to my day-to-day paradigm, the less often I need to break out the skirts and heels.
But then again its never been about looking feminine to me, its been all about feeling it.
Bit of background, I have no SO or children, one sister, few friends (friendship means a lot to me, so I dont make casual friendships easily) and my parents are deceased. Also more or less estranged from the vast majority of my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc). The few friendships I have are deep and strong and with a couple exceptions know about my wardrobe choices and are accepting.
So the fact that I have no real responsibilities besides myself, I guess Im a bit more free to express my feminine side,which I have been in greater and greater degrees. Total underdressing, progressively darker nail-polish (over-time) and obviously feminine earrings (smaller hoops and conservative studs, but my favorite studs are silver hearts). I show the top-edge of my sportsbras like a tank-top style undershirt and will be increasing my nail-polish from a silver-pink to a darker brownish/pink this weekend (eventual goal of a killer antique bronze). Im also letting my hair grow out with the goal, in 6 months or so tops, of getting an androgynous/borderline fem hairstyle.
Bottom line is it works so far, my friends accept me, my coworkers seem to do so as well, and as long as I jump through the dress-code hoops and stay semi-conservative in my neat, clean appearance my employer CANT say a word.
The first time I wore panties outside the house, I was in mortal fear that someone would see (with their X-Ray anti-gay goggles) and point me out to all! Since I have learned that the main thing holding back my happiness was my own fear. Im getting close to a very comfortable level of integration, closer to fundamental happiness than Ive been in years. And Ive also noticed that the more fem I add to my day-to-day paradigm, the less often I need to break out the skirts and heels.
But then again its never been about looking feminine to me, its been all about feeling it.